It all came crashing down today...

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tinkers2
tinkers2 Member Posts: 35
edited June 2014 in Mental Health: Because Cancer Doesn't Just Affect Your Breasts

I guess I need help.  I've been going non-stop since July 25 2012 with chemo, radical masectomy,rads, and herceptin.  Two more herceptin left.. 

But I've been going non-stop and today i finally crashed.  Sick of my job, sick of listening to others complain about their lives.. And i just lost it today.  Closed the door,talked to my friend.  Let it out crying.. And then i blurted out..

I have so much to do,and i don't know how much time i have. 

I guess that's been building up for a long time..

No one understands accept you here on the boards.

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  • OBXK
    OBXK Member Posts: 791
    edited June 2013

    Tinkers - I am so sorry that you had a difficult day. Do you have a Rx for Ativan? Do you take steroids with your chemo?

    I hope tomorrow dawns a better day.

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  • tinkers2
    tinkers2 Member Posts: 35
    edited June 2013

    I've finished all my treatment, except 2 herceptin treatments left.  I worked during chemo and rads.

    Not much support, not many friends and family. Live alone.

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited June 2013

    tinkers, you've had such a difficult time, and if you need to cry or rant and let it all out, you're entitled! Thank goodness your friend was there for you - and of course this community is always here to support you too.

    Is there a counselor or social worker, or maybe a support group available to you through your cancer center? Do you have a trusted member of your medical team that you could talk with about your feelings and fears? There is help with medicines (as OBXK suggested), holistic approaches, and counselling.

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  • curveball
    curveball Member Posts: 3,040
    edited June 2013

    @tinkers, I saw in another thread you applied for FMLA at your job. Do you have any more of that leave remaining? If so I think you could use it as intermittent leave to go to support group meetings or a counselor if  it could help you cope. Check with the HR department (if there is one) but since you are having these feelings and emotions as a result of your cancer dx, I think they could be considered part of the serious medical condition which qualifies you for FMLA. I've been attending a support group almost every week since my dx and found it very helpful. The members either have cancer or are or have been caregivers for someone with cancer, so they "get it" too, like people here. Some people find the group helpful and some don't, but it can't hurt to go a few times and see whether you benefit. Another thought: my employer (before I retired) had an Employee Assistance Program which, among other things, provided access to counselors at a discount. Maybe your employer has something similar.

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