jennifer - i do know what you mean about the TV ads!



I see you are hormone positive, are you taking any hormone suppressing drug? If so maybe you can take a holiday from that for a month ( oncologists often suggest this for those struggling) as that may be affecting your mood?



Are you sleeping?



I think you have post traumatic stress and need a specialist in that as you are stuck in the shock phase and none of us know how long we have its just that bc makes us hyper aware of it, but this should reduce over time. Have you thought f trying EMDR? It has great results with post trauma stress.......



Good luck, and i dont hate you i just want to wrap you in a duvet size hug....

Jennifer, I don't hate you, just want to help. It sounds like to me your hormones are out of balance and this is causing you to feel the way you do. My daughter was really depressed and had no energy, crying all the time until she went to her gynocologist who suspected that her adrenals were shot (they were) and her hormones were unbalanced (they were) and so started treating her with supplements and it worked. She lost weight and no longer feels like she is on a rollercoaster! I wish you the best, just the same.

Good Jen... I hope you do give EMDR a go. 

Fran has a great suggestion that I left out - exercising.  You can find me almost everyday posting on the Let's Post Our Daily Exercise forum/thread, chiming in on what I did that day for exercise.  That forum has inspired me to up my fitness level and start running.  It's a very supportive group of women at all levels of treatment (or years out of tx) and fitness level.  If you would like inspiration to move your bod and terrific support - that is the place to go.

So good to read some of us don't feel like jumping for joy because we don't have cancer anymore. ( my back as just gone again )

I hate tamoxifen and really want to stop it because of - thick lining of womb, pain joint, hot flushes, weight gain, pain in tummy and terrible bloating, bloated all over, terrible mood swings. Have I missed something!!



Waiting to see a gynaecologist this Wednesday and boy do I have questions for this poor doctor.



I love walking my dog but can only do a hour at a time otherwise I won't make it home because the joint pain starts. So pissed off with the weight gain and I know it's mostly fluid but it still upsets me. If I read another person has lost weight on Tamoxifen I will cry.



The good thing is I have hair which is growing at different speeds as I had cold cap. I still look as though I have a chemo face ( you will know what I mean)



Also got family problems- middle daughter got eating disorder( my fault having cancer )



But apart from all this I can still go to work for a few hours a day and thank god I'm still with my 3 kids and DH (not all the time )

Jennifer I so get what you mean. I have no friends, I hate thinking about BC all the time, there are few things in life that seem fun anymore. I kind of feel numb, like I just go through the motions and get through the day. I don't think people hate you they just don't know what to do for you. I don't think anyone can know unless they have been in your shoes.

Do try and exercise as much as a pain in the butt that it may be it does help.

Hang in there you will get through this. ((Hugs))

I am surprised at how different I feel after a month off Letrozole.......I did not expect such a dramatic difference.....I still have blips but my general mood is better and I don´t hurt all the time from joint and muscle pains....

Has anyone ever been on an anti-depressant that works?   I would appreciate any shares about this.  I see myself in the posts.  I am numb and worried all the time.  I get bursts where I'll try to get myself into an upbeat state of mind.  It's just not working, so I am considering an Rx intervention.  But I am not going to take some Dr's advice.  I'd rather hear from my peer group.  I knew some people who used Wellbutrin when they were trying to quit smoking, good reports for that express use.  Any info appreciated.

I think I was on wellbutrin before I was on Effexor. I could be wrong, but I don't think wellbutrin and tamox go together. your pharmacist should know.

I'm not on effexor anymore. weaned myself. but felt great on it

Waiting,

As both a Wellbutin user and a clinical psychologist, I can tell you that my experience may have no bearing on yours whatsoever. Everyone's individual chemistry is different.



When I got an ADH dx and was officially designated "high risk", I went into a panic mode where BC was all I could think about. Lost interest in almost everything, felt preoccupied, not present, and like I had a black cloud hovering over my head constantly. I feel the Wellbutrin has been helpful in unsticking me from these obsessive loops of doomed thinking and almost constant tearfulness.



That being said, I would urge you to consult a psychiatrist, who will be the best equipped to advise you on the right choice for you. There is often a lot if inevitable hit or miss with drug choices and dosages, which requires patience and perseverance on the part of both patient and doctor.



Good luck to you! There's really no reason to continue to feel as miserable as you do when there is help out there. Can't speak to wellbutrin's compatibility w tamoxifen, as I don't take the latter.

momoschki,  I sent you a PM.

Hi I totally relate. I have been on zoloft with good results until my bc. I am finished with chemo and radiation and only have an exchange surgery left. It has been 10 months since my bmx and I aam more depressed now then I was during treatment. However I noticed it and I am aware that I am so I make sure I dont miss my depression pills. I dont know if this relates to anybody but besides being in menopause now I also think it has to do with coming off of all of the medications during treatment. I mean there are pills for anxiety, pain pills, neuropathy pills, nausea pills, steroids and the list probably goes on but my chemo brain wont let me remember. lol.  I also think that it is common to go into this depression after active treatment because when we are diagnosed we go into a fight or flight mode. Mostly we fight for months to get through surgeries and treatment. Then when its over our body crashes from the chemicals in our brain that are related to fight mode. And yes I also think we all have a little ptsd because damn I dont know about you but I have been thru hell. lol. Sorry I am trying to lighten the mood. ANyway I think its the combination of coming off of medicine almost like dt's and our hormones are screwed up and coming out of the fight mode.  Healing hugs to all

I have taken Wellbutrin for years with good results. I've taken lots of antidepressants and usually they work for a while and dump me. It has the least side effects of any I've tried. Wellbutrin lessens the effect of Tamoxifen, so they can't be taken together. 

jennifer1 - I know it's difficult when you aren't feeling well but please be kind to yourself during this time. If you can, do just one nice thing for yourself. Best wishes.

jennifer

i would suggest if all are gone by their own good for you they were never yours.

But if you think you drove everyone crazy and made them leave, than i would say that was wrong definitely did unintentionally by you. As a patient of Bc you must be not ready to accept the sympathy from all and got mad at every small thing that s quiet normal. But you can also call them ask how they are and how much you love them , Dress yourself look good if you think you are going to live wwithout smiling and noone around that wont happen and l8r you will realise and repent on the time you wasted Grinning. i thnk u should start right now LIVIN YOUR LIFE AGAIN. Live as you like , think alternative, Think positive think lively feel good and high hopes will take you far ahead in life and you wont believe what just happened.