In shock

Liefie, the same thing happened to me. Made it through the mastectomy, six months of crappy chemo. Thought I had gotten through it without letting it take to big a toll on hubby and two young kids. Then hit the wall, BIGTIME, with depression. I think we sometimes just run out of "fight", temporarily. It'll get better, if it doesn't, seek help. Sending you hugs, from a cold, damp parking lot. (((((((((((((x))))))))))))))

Dear Edi, so happy that you feel so good. You are positively beaming! Wow, but you accomplished a lot yesterday - I think that sunshine energized you?! You tidied DH's tool shed? Amazing. Our 'tool shed' is the garage. So much junk and stuff in there that both cars have to stand outside. DH promised to get rid of two thirds, but that was a long time ago . . . Can I hire you to come clean out that place? Thanks for the sympathy, and I am feeling better today.

Nihahi, hope DD is feeling better?

Made a big turkey pot pie from leftover turkey with a sage and parsley crust that I found on the Internet (where I find the most amazing recipes). Will serve different roasted vegetables and a big green salad with it. Dessert is a meringue cake with cream, chocolate and strawberries. I know, I know. Will eat only small bites, and go for a long walk when everybody leaves. Still have to lay the table, have to get cracking. Everybody have a lovely Sunday!

Edi - wow - you always seem to have so much energy, but now you have out done yourself. Must have been nice to get so much done outside in relative warmth, followed by a lovely time with your DD and GD!



Liefie, hope you are pleased with your decision to prepare Sunday dinner for friends and that being in good company will buoy your spirits.



Nihahi, sorry to hear about DD - you were wise to get clear of that waiting room!



Traii, can't wait to hear about your adventures on Phillip Island!



Taxol isn't being particularly kind so far. Feel pretty flattened energy-wise, plus have rash on my hands and zapping bone/joint pain all over. Guess those are common SEs though - hoping today will be the worst of it!



Enjoy your Sunday everyone!

Sooo....today, for me. Things going well, getting a few things done at home, actually feeling calm, almost dare I say "looking forward" to Friday! Hubby says, lets have a relaxing day today, to make up for yesterday. We decide to go out for breakfast, so I can get a decaf coffee.....I'm walking out the front door of our condo........WHAM......Slipped on a patch of black ice and my feet went right out from under me.....landed on my knee, hip, wrist and OF COURSE, my right shoulder...the BAD SHOULDER! I'm trying to see the humour, I really, really am trying.....really am!!!!!! 

Ouch, Nihahi, that must have hurt!! So sorry you had that fall - find with those black ice slips there's no time to brace either. Hope you can ice any bruises and that this doesn't get in the way of physical and mental prep for Friday.

Hi all....

Nihahi.....I think we need to wrap you up in bubble wrap,and put a face filter over you!  I am so sorry you slipped and fell....I HATE that feeling where you can feel yourself slipping, and there's not a d**m thing you can do, because it all happens so fast!  I hope you are icing the bruised areas, and taking it easy.  Poor thing! I think you should at least consider forgoing all activities that are not necessary to ensure your surgery date doesn't change! 

Edi, you sound as though you had a wonderful day in front of you.....and I am sure you took advantage of it.  PLEASE come to Oregon and clean out my garage.....I pulled into it this afternoon, and got tired just looking at all the junk!  At the very least you should come and entertain me while I clean it!  

Websister, I know what you mean about doing some things to counteract the stress brought on by things you can't control.  Sometimes I feel doing MORE of what I like to do is the only thing that keeps me from going completely off the deep end.

Liefie, your menu for today's dinner sounded positively mouthwatering.......I think we all should plan a weekend getaway at YOUR place.....I would just sit around and wait for the delicious food to be served!  I am glad you are feeling a little better....hope you are not exhausted by the company, but I think that if we can take the focus off of "us" for a bit (and plan a dinner party for 10, for instance) we DO end up feeling at least somewhat better.  Hope it went well, but getting to know you on this forum, I am SURE it went very well.

Caitlin, what was your focus in Grad School?  How long did you live in Corvallis?  For some reason, I am thinking you are in Canada now?  I'm so sorry you are suffering from SE's......hope they even out and you can feel better soon.

Dakota-when is surgery?  Bet your weekend was busy as ever with your kidlets going in every direction!

Traii-hope you have tons of fun on your trip to Phillips Island.....please watch DS so he doesn't try to penguinnap a souvineer!  ( I am not sure I spelled that right-someone please correct me!)

Scottiee, glad you are doing okay! Class(School) is keeping you busy!

Well, I have had an intense day, and am exhausted.....may need to take a nap!

Namaste and God Bless - Jackie

Liefie-you are right......bet you were the best "speller" in class!  

Glad you are feeling a little better....the best we can ever do, is the best we can, right?

XO  

Namaste and God Bless - Jackie

Liefie-in MY past life (pre-Kid #4) I was an Interior Designer......should have been a better "speller".....but, there you have it!   :-)

I am glad you appreciate my posts-it makes me feel "wanted", but in a good way!

(((Hugs)))

Namaste and God Bless - Jackie

HELLO 
7 am here so crept down for tea and Sisters time.
Energy level dipped a bit yesterday but could be because DH decided to paint THE SHED and despite expecting a day of peace and pottering for me I was in and out, up and down like a fiddlers elbow !!
Don't mind supplying tea but every problem involved me having to find the solution
Sorted out my bench in the garden which sits inside an arbour, one of my favourite places. Seat lifts up and all my garden tools and gd's bits and bobs for play in garden there. Then cut fuschia back down to ground, it is a whole bed full and was really exhausting.
Have a rest DH says, off Edi goes like a rat down a drain and splatted on sofa.Put in roast when I woke up and that was my day.
Today have rads at midday followed by visit to my surgeon. Follow up after op, swear I can find new lumps in boob. Probably nerves ( I hope ).

Lefie, glad you picked up, your meal sounded sooo yum. Imagine us lot around your table  what a great event that would be.
Will happily sort your garage, do love sorting and organising stuff. Your garage sounds like most peoples cars outside, junk inside.
Hope you had a good BIG portion of that food and put feet up, sod the walk lol xx

Nihahi, movie right you need to stay safe in house until Friday !! Fall sounds horrendous , hope not too stiff and aching today.
Your comment about weather where you are struck a cord. My cousin in Dubai posted on f/b that it was pxxxxxg down there ! His lovely wife has just gone back for a well earned break from her chemo, bet she is not happy.She so wanted some sun.xx

Caitlin, Hope se's have subsided, you are getting there,  we all are going through this with you and you are being positive and cheerful despite everything xx

Scottie, busy lady, just pop on when you can. ((( HUG ))) xx

Websister, Hope MUGA goes well. So much still happening in everyone's life as well as the bxxxh fingers in so many pies, no wonder we are all tired. Do the nap thing to if only to rest weary bones.Twelve days of rads to go for me and dreading the follow on fatigue but at least that part will be over.
Hope Benny is getting through them ok. xx

Movie, enjoy your posts too. You have become so much more positive and spelling is not as important as hearing from you.
How is DD ? hope she has chilled out a bit.
Your garage next after Liefie's xx

Dakota, try and take it easy before surgery, sure with chicks it isnt that easy. xx

Traii, Hope you are having fun xx

Need another pint of tea !!

All sisters have a good day xxxx

Quick extra message   .
Just got back from hospital, Nihahi you were right ALL FINE !! Had a really thorough examination by my surgeon. Doesnt want to see me until September. YAY
10 more rads, one more chemo over two weeks then all finished.

When came on here never thought it would end, and I would not be able to cope with it, to anybody new to all this if I can do it so can you.  It is a long journey but with the Warrior Sisters by your side it is no longer scarey.
Our medics also are amazing and so empathic, Angels without wings is the best description.

Laters x

Nihahi, you sound good, but how are you after the fall yesterday? Yes, that pie crust came out really well. Crunchy, flaky, delicious. The herbs made it even more tasty. Never made it before, but will certainly make it again. Love cooking/baking, and made recipe scrap books as a little girl mainly because I love eating so much - LOL.

Edi, after you have sorted out my garage and my house, Movie can move in to decorate. Wouldn't that be nice? Wish I can have you here to help me sort out the tax papers. Every year this time I have to do this, and it is the bane of my existence. DH does most of the admin, but he gives me the job of doing the tax papers. Feel like a blind person in a dark room, because it's totally out of my comfort zone, some papers are always missing, accountant keeps phoning me, and I'm clueless - often don't even know what he's referring to and feels like a fool. . . Did I say I hate it?  So happy your check-up went well, and the finish line is in sight for you, Edi. What a ride, hey?

Websister and the others, hope you all have a good day!

Morning to my favorite ladies!

Edi, your posts are always a treat!  I am so glad your treatments are going well, and that you will be finished in two weeks!  And no Dr. until September, yay!  Now you can focus on getting your garden back after all the cold, nasty weather you have had.  I think that since you had that "teaser" sunny day, where you sat outside and drank tea, you probably cannot wait to get back out there and enjoy the Spring and Summer!  You must post pics when you can-I would love to see your little arbor espcially.  I used to think I liked to garden, but DH is a little girl when it comes to yardwork, and so over the years I have gotten away from it.  I will have to try harder to get back into it, as I used to find it very theraputic(sp? - again!) for my soul. Heaven knows I could use therapy for it NOW!

Nihahi-the countdown has begun!  Getting excited for you to join us DIEP ladies on the "dark side" lol. Have you located body bubblewrap and a face mask yet?? if not, get on it.....I dont want to see a delay-TWCBN needs to be evicted, and soon!  I may be having Stage 2a in May.....we may be able to take that hike to Iceberg Lake in Glacier together this summer-but you CAN NOT get sick, or hurt anymore in order to have surgery this week and have time to recover!

Liefie, I'm sorry you get stuck with the tax c**p.  I can say that with great authority, as my DH is a CPA, and right now he is buried up to his eyeballs in tax c**p......before my 96 year old mother came to live with us and I was not a full-time caregiver, I would work in his office during the months of March and April......(actually s**t is more like it!  I hate numbers!)  So, I can't spell, and I can't do math.....obviously a grade school reject here!

Websister-I hope your scan goes well.....and that you are doing okay.  How is mom?  I can only imagine that even though your mother does not live with you, that you have some of the same issues as I do with my mother......it's really hard to watch them "crumble" in front of us......I get stressed out over her a lot.....and am sure that stress did not help me in avoiding BC.

Carla- I hope that you have a better day today than you are anticipating.  I have not done chemo, so can only imagine how hard it can be.  Since you live in the San Diego area-have you ever attended a play at the Old Globe in Balboa Park?  My DD#1 was in a production of "The Pleasure of His Company" there a few years ago.  My husband and I flew down twice to see it during its summer run.  It was delightful (I'm biased) and I loved Balboa Park, and hanging out in San Diego was a treat!

Dakota-busy weekend?  Surgery this week?  I am thinking of you, and hope all is well.

Traii-you had better be enjoying your holiday with the penguins......send pics please!

To everyone else-I hope your week is starting out well, and that it continues that way!

(((Hugs))) to you all!

Namaste and God Bless - Jackie 

Thanks, Edi! I sincerely believe those words. All of you have become like dear friends to me, and I love you all.

Movie, you'd better begin to make some spelling mistakes if you can't spell, otherwise we won't believe you - lol. As for Math, was I ever grateful when I could leave that behind! Phew! Simply had no interest in it whatsoever. Was a hopeless bookworm who used to quickly hide my story books when I heard my mom coming down the passage to check on me doing homework, almost like Edi hides her netbook when DH approaches . . . lol.

Now I have to sit down and apply for a passport renewal for my DS. I've known this customer since birth. If I leave it to him, it will not get done, and he may miss his brother's wedding in South Africa on 30 November. It will be really bad if the best man is a no-show. Nihahi, I know you will understand the situation - lol. Lots of paperwork in my near future . . . sigh!

Hello sisters!  Hope all doing well today.  Rads going fine, 2 weeks down, 5 to go, no SEs yet.  But it sure eats up a big part of each day.  I feel a little bit like a hamster on a wheel, running and running but never really going anywhere.  LOL.

Benny, hope you are fine, hope computer gets fixed soon!!  You are always in our thoughts & prayers.

Good to have a moment to sit down and connect with you all. Spent yesterday taking daughter to appointment, then did combination of loading and unloading boxes into my car-over to the rental storage-go back and do it over and over again. Hubby finally joined us after work. At this point she was packing while we waited, for a box at a time. Didn't finish until 8:00.....both she and I were at the point of tears, but we got through it somehow. I probably would have handled it better if I hadn't bounced off the sidewalk yesterday, but it's done. Now she has the task of sorted through stuff and getting rid of much of it. I am going to be around, but will leave (try to at aleast) that to her. I could have screamed several times yesterday to both her and hubby, that I told you this would happen if you didn't get started.....but kept my mouth shut). 

The sun is trying to show its face today, and thankfully no snow in the forecast, so maybe I can get a walk in. Missed the entire weekend due to all the commotion and crashes. 

Dakota....I was worried you'd gone awol on us......Friday's getting close.....don't know about you...I cannot wait for it. ByeBye alien, hello sleep!