Why low now?

Oh look Lily, here we are again.

Can I give you my experiences without offending you? (joking by the way, sigh)

I found much the same thing as Carolyn. It was my time to let it all out, in a way I couldn't with anyone else. It was a funny time. Like you it didn't stop with what I did in the session but carried on into the rest of my days. It was a release and once opened it all needed to be clean out before it could heal.

It did change over weeks and got much better. It raised questions I could think about away from the therapist and I could mull over my thoughts and re-examine them at my leisure. See what was real and what were nameless fears.

Please keep going if you can, The beginning is a bit tricky but the results can be well worth it.

For what it is worth, cancer hasn't stolen your life, it has re-directed it but it is still there. You just have to find the path. It will be there and it is still worth walking.

My therapist made me a relaxation cd and when I feel wobbly I can put it on and listen to her voice talking me down and helping to focus my mind. Deep breathing and the techniques she suggests usually help to steady me.

Hugs Lily and keep going.

Moira

Hi Lily

Please know that you're not alone. Hugs to you.  

When I was diagnosed the doctors told me lots of stuff too and one of the things was that I had a 1 in 10 chance of surviving - period.  I set out to prove them wrong.  By the way I was diagnosed 12 years ago so I think I am doing that.  

In my experience what I found was that the period following the end of treatment was difficult, to say the least.  And certainly a time when you can feel very alone.   You get so much help during treatment but that pretty much goes when treatment is over.  People around you expect that you're "healed" but in reality that's when the healing really starts.  Friends may even seem to be insentitive to your needs but really they just don't know who to help you now.  

Although you may feel like crying a lot now, that will pass.  So for now just go with it and seek the help and support that you need for now and know that the tears will turn to laughter again before you now it.  

Reach out if you need support

Love

Gai

hi Lily i dont know if i understand completely but the way ive felt it was we go there as a body-part that need to be fixed. The rest of us just have to follow. To combat this "monster" which actually has arisen from ourselves we have to endure a lot of scary treatment. Its very scary. I sometimes felt like i was the only one concerned for the rest of my body's health. In the end of my chemo rounds I was more scared of dying from the treatment than from the disease. I know - its been studied - we should be safe. 
Dont feel bad about feeling this way. Its very understandable. The treatment in itself is a traumatic experience. Im shocked that we are just "released" as if everything is taken care of. In my opinion the journey has just begun. Lifestyle and mental issues influence this disease. It should be addressed more - both as a "treatment" and as a prevention.