I am really losing it...

Jennifer, I think it's just anxiety with your check-up and your mom's surgery...that's alot on you.  It sounds like a panic attack to me, not lung mets.  I swear as soon as I saw my scan report and saw that I had a hot spot on my lung...I became breathless for several days and thought it was the spot causing it.  There have been few times in my past that I suffered from panic attacks and this sounds exactly what I experienced.  Our mind is so powerful, try not to let it run away with your sanity sweetie.  Sending you hugs and prayers.  Stress can play a role in hairloss and congrats on your lil' man's b-day!

Get thee to the nearest treadmill, or if you live where it's warm, simply put your sneakers on and go outside and run as far as you can without stopping, then stop and walk, then run some more, and repeat. Get your heart pounding for at least half an hour a day. It really quiets the mind.

If you can get to a gym with a punching bag, try that too.

Pure, you're dealing with so much right now, it's no wonder you're feeling anxious and stressed. As well as everything else that's stressing you, some medicines can cause anxiety. Read more about it at this link, including information about complementary and holistic medicine strategies that can help, antidepressants, other ways to help ease anxiety.

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i agree with the others...it sounds like panic attacks.  I've had many, panic attacks can really make you feel like you are having trouble breathing, you are having a heart attack, legs going numb...i've had it all

drugs are always the last resort but maybe some ativan to help you get through this tough time would be helpful

(((((((hugs))))))))

One word:  Xanax.

pure...how I wish I could give you what we all so desire...the promise that the cancer will never return...the ability to control the future...or removing the BC sorrow of the past... it just is not a gift given us.

I am not one who likes to give personal advise, but rather state advise from a medical source or such but, I wanted to share some tools I use to overcome some of the fear, worry and stress of BC. I agree with statement above about running/ walking to lift your spirit, but also add that I play at full volume the song "Calmer of the Storm" by Downhere...I run/walk with this blaring until the negative voice of my mind is silenced....over and over again I play it!!

I also have this werid little saying that a bird can land on your head, but you decided if it will build a nest...meaning a negitive thought can come to your mind, but DON'T let it build a nest in your mind...remove the negitive thought and exhalt only thoughts that are excellent or praiseworthy to your life!! ( if my four kids were reading this they would say I can't believe you wrote that mom..it's one of my many quotes to them..ha)

Battle the negative thoughts moment by moment and don't let them build up as than the battle is so much greater to over come!! I hear the wonderful love you have for your family. Hold fast to that and the joy it brings. Let BC and it's stress, fear and worry only have a rare moment than put it back and go live this amazing life you have and will have for years to come!!!

Pure, I can't add anymore than the advice already given. I hope you feel better soon and that all is well with mom and that your check up goes smoothly with nothing but good news!!! {{{PURE}}}

PS, sometimes just holding my children helps me breathe easier. Grab that little one of yours and squeeze!!!!!

I KNOW exactly what you mean about the breathing.  The more you worry the harder it is to get a deep breath.  Whenever I start getting that it snowballs and I really have to talk myself off the ledge.  It always makes me think the worst, but I have learned to lay flat on my back and focus on breathing down to my stomach first.  Then once I am able to get a couple deep breaths I convince my mind that if it were truly something there it wouldn't go away with proper breathing.  It doesn't fix all, but it helps a lot.  Another strategy is the tapping method for anxiety (this one you can google).  

During my Adriamyacin drips I had such bad acid reflux and heartburn (completely psychological because it started as soon as they pulled the stuff out).  I had to drink water the whole time they ran the drip and I still think that started a mental acid reflux problem for me.  All the pills I take now (herbals and vitamins) don't do my swallow a big favor either.  I am rambling, but just wanted to let you know how often I have come to these boards with the exact same concerns you are having now and none of them have amounted to anything

Big Hugs and Calming thoughts