Is There A September 2011 Chemo Group?

Sitting at the hospital waiting to be called back for my 6 month scans...just to make sure the cancer hasn't come back. Scanxiety is hitting BIG TIME. I hate this feeling. I have felt great recently and so I am not expecting bad news. But - we all know how that goes. I expect that I will have scanxiety for the rest of my life.



So ladies.... Pray for me and that my results come back clean. My 3 month scans did so I don't have any reason to think these will be any different. I think I'll feel better the mo clean scans I have under my belt.



I'll keep you posted. I should have my results when I see my MO on Friday.



Hugs to all my BC sisters!

Hello everyone, I was just checking in to say Happy Thanksgiving and to say I think of you often. Today marks 1 year since my last chemo treatment, and i have much to be be thankful for...especially all the support that got me through to this point.  Hope you are all well.  Cheers, Anne

You guys gave me a lot of strength that I don't think I would have otherwise had to get through treatment.  Pat yourself on your shoulders, that you fished someone else out when they would have gone under. Love you September ladies.  Kimberly.

well i ventured back on today because i am freaking out and you ladies had been such a support to me in the past. i thought things were going well, though i seemed to have hurt my hip exercising with my personal trainer. i went to a random orthopedist today to see about a physical therapy referral, and he noted a suspicious lesion on my femur near my hip socket. he would like me to get a bone scan and hip mri immediately. he had no bedside manner and immediately went to dictating the note without saying anything more or seeing if i had any questions. i feel like breaking down crying and am waiting for my oncologist to get back to me. in the meantime, he told me to use crutches or something so i don't fracture my femur. i feel like this is a nightmare....just like at the beginning of this ordeal. i hate being negative at this point of the game but i can't help my mind venturing there. though i hate to burden any of you, i just felt like putting it out there to people that can understand. i hope that 2013 has started out well for all of you.

RJ- thank you! you will be in my thoughts tomorrow, too. i will definitely keep you posted. hoping we both get positive results tomorrow. xo

CJRT,

I am very sorry to hear you are going through this.  Fingers crossed that all is well and you don't have long to wait and wonder.

best,

anne

RJ- Hoping you have already gotten good news!

Cooka and CCJJ- Thanks for your positive thoughts!

Belle- I am so sorry that in my self-indulgence I did not notice your last post. I am so glad for you and your family that your niece is finally getting some justice. May this bring some peace to your family. It kind of parallels the cancer, in a way, with the ongoing trauma at each stage of the process. But I am hoping that 2013 brings you health, happiness, and peace.

an update- my MRI showed a severe tear in my hip and a suspicious 2 cm spot "highly suspicious of malignancy." However, my bone scan showed inflammation but did not suggest metastisis. My oncologist said it would be unusual to have a clean bone scan and that the pain is most likely the tear. However, she ordered a PET scan for tomorrow for clarification. Asking for all your positive thoughts/prayers!

Thanks so much, ccjj. I will probably get the results tomorrow.

cjrt and rj,my thoughts and prayers are with you both. I'm in the waitng game again,too. Had a breast MRI done yesterday,24th, after taking the last "picture" he said i don't like how that turned out,we need to redo it! I was thinking CRAP,i know i didn't move or breathe deep or anything to mess it up!!! so had MO appt today-3 month check-up,while waiting for her,my mind was going back and forth like a yo-yo, she's going to say they saw something- no,she's going to come in and say it was normal!!! you all know what i'm talking about!

well,she came in and said,you had an mri-yesterday,it showed a suspicious line not a lump,they recommended a biopsy and i do too.

report says,(1)right breast 1.5 cm suspicious linear area of non masslike enhancement directly below the nipple. Additionally,there has been interval nipple retraction.2nd look ultrasound with biopsy is recommended.

(2) benign postsurgical changes in superior medial right breast.

(3) no evidence of malignancy in the left breast.

Bi-rads catergory 4:suspicious abnormality -biopsy should be considered.

ok,from what i've read lobular breast cancer presents itself as a line not a lump,does not show up on mammogram,it is usually found by breast mri or ultrasound.

still hoping and praying it is not malignant, I had a lumpectomy last time,if it is back I am going to be pissed I let that surgeon talk me out of a mastectomy!!!

cjrt and rj,my thoughts and prayers are with you both. I'm in the waitng game again,too. Had a breast MRI done yesterday,24th, after taking the last "picture" he said i don't like how that turned out,we need to redo it! I was thinking CRAP,i know i didn't move or breathe deep or anything to mess it up!!! so had MO appt today-3 month check-up,while waiting for her,my mind was going back and forth like a yo-yo, she's going to say they saw something- no,she's going to come in and say it was normal!!! you all know what i'm talking about!

well,she came in and said,you had an mri-yesterday,it showed a suspicious line not a lump,they recommended a biopsy and i do too.

report says,(1)right breast 1.5 cm suspicious linear area of non maselike enhancement directly below the nipple. Additionally,there has been interval nipple retraction.2nd look ultrasound with biopsy is recommended.

(2) benign postsurgical changes in superior medial right breast.

(3) no evidence of malignancy in the left breast.

Bi-rads catergory 4:suspicious abnormality -biopsy should be considered.

ok,from what i've read lobular breast cancer presents itself as a line not a lump,does not show up on mammogram,it is usually found by breast mri or ultrasound.

still hoping and praying it is not malignant, I had a lumpectomy last time,if it is back I am going to be pissed I let that surgeon talk me out of a mastectomy!!!

thanks,Kate! I didn't want to post all that on facebook,I just wanted my Sept gals who have been there and truly understand what it is like to know the details! It just sucks thinking about going thru this again! I have finally started feeling good,hair is starting to grow better. I am walking at least 1 mile a day with leslie sansone walking dvd to get healthy and lose weight! 

from my research on MRI results,I think it is a 50/50 chance of going either way! if it was a mass,it would have better chance of being benign. being a non-mass,it could go either way plus with my nipple inverting doesn't help. I told my MO 6 months ago it was changing arrrrgggghh!

the last couple visits,her exams checking my breast have been what i call a lick and promise!! Not this time LOL i don't think i've ever had a more thorough exam ha,ha guess this woke her up LOL! she was like i don't feel anything,i said good. then later when i got a copy of the report- I thought maybe because there isn't a mass,it's a non-mass linear. my confidence and good feelings went down!!

enough of my venting,I am watching a couple of the grandkids today and this evening,so they'll keep me busy!

CJRT,thinking of you,i can imagine what you are going thru,hoping,praying for good results for you.

RJ,how did your tests go? hoping,praying for you,too!

Ugh, Belle, I am so sorry! Unfortunately I can relate all too well. I felt like I was being the "downer" posting my stuff here, but when you all were such a support to me at the start of this, I felt that this was the place to share. I know exactly how you are feeling....like life is finally going well and now being terrified that the nightmare isn't really over. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us posted.

I got a phone call at 4:45 Friday from my oncologist's PA saying that it will be Monday before I get anything definitive because the oncologist wants to go over all the imaging "frame by frame" with the radiologists Monday morning because the top ones were out on Friday afternoon. Of course I am running through the scenarios and trying to psychoanalyze why I don't already have the results and of course I jump to the most negative conclusions. I appreciate all of the concern and support. Please keep me in your prayers Monday. I am terrified of that call.