Great saying about depression

LinSea, my psychiatrist was a "she"!! Figures, eh?? Hugs to you for your grief. That validates your love, don't hide it.

mac, I know what you mean about going out and it NOT being a doctor appointment...wierd, eh?

Thanks Stanzie and Barbe. Grief is interesting. It feels like a rolling sea.



The funeral was...uh, how do I say this nicely. It was a very Christian service with the pastor asking everyone about answering the call to Christ. My sorrow is that Rhonda was not a Christian, so it missed the "essence" of who she was. The sermon lasted at least 30-40 minutes. Finally he asked people in the audience to speak and three of Rhonda's best friends spoke and it was wonderful, sad, funny, and real. Too bad that wasn't the whole service! the pastor started again and 10 minutes later I wanted to yell "You are missing the laughter and joy and feisty woman we are hear to celebrate and grieve."



I told my DH driving away, don't make me something in death that I was not in life. I was glad to see her DH and DDs and say goodbye. Rhonda RIP.



Mac, it was our dog who rolled in the dead seal. We had had a big storm here in CA and the seal looked like it had been attacked my a shark or something and then rolled up on shore during the storm. Murphy was soooo intrigued and was able to roll INSIDE the thing. He was covered in this slick goo. Oh, I can smell it just typing. :-0



Did you say get off the island? Are you in Hawaii? :-)



Yep Barbe, it figures that it was a woman. Nurturing and empathetic is what we need!

Hello everyone, Hope you are doing well. I am in my final week of prednisone. yay!!!

maddie, I am glad you are feeling more comfortable already. How exciting to meet Will and Kate. Did you meet them at hospital or your place of work?

barbe, I am trying to change my out look, from sick to becoming healthy. But it is hard when I am going to doc appts every other week. Now I have to have a tooth pulled, sheesh. 

Linsea, I live on Martha's Vineyard in MA. So even though it is only 8 miles off shore, we have to either take a boat or plane to get anywhere. Makes treatment more difficult, but I love living here. Right now I am wishing I lived in HI, another snow storm is coming.

Grief is very surprising. Just when you think you are "over" it the feelings overwhelm us again. That's too bad the service for your cousin was not very representative of your cousin. 

My sister had enough time before she passed to plan out her whole "funeral". She wrote her own eulogy. She wanted us to be happy and have a "party". We went to a party store and got smiles on stick so when the grief took a hold we could hold them up in front of our faces. She taught me a lot about living and dying on your own terms.

I've been having some trouble sleeping lately. sigh. I hope everyone else gets a good night's sleep.

Hi mac and LinSea- thanks for the good wishes after the operation. I met Will and Kate at the hospital, but it is my place of work, so was not a patient at that time!! She is lovely up close, but much taller than I thought. She could easily have been a model. Linsea - I love your Avatar. It looks like our breasts - tired but hanging in there!! Is it an actual sea shell or a wooden sculpture of a shell?

Maddie, that is a real sea shell. They are called Moon Shells and are about 3 inches across. They are found on beaches on the west coast of Vancouver Island, Canada. We were in a city called Ucluelet. The picture is a little dark, but yep, looks like a pretty good foob!

maddie, no, don't have any movement from my implants with those moves. If I bend over, the implant that has the Lat dorsi flap feels like it shifts a bit and I'll held my hand on the outside and it does move just the tiniest bit.  You may want to tell your surgeon this.

mac I LOVE the idea of smiles on a stick!!! I may just buy some now for the winter blues. It's been a VERY, VERY gray winter here!!! I'm sure weather maps would show a cloud over our city since December!! When the sun comes out we all go out just to feel it. I don't get the SAD affects, but do find my energy level raises in sun. I'm suffering from constipation because I'm not walking and moving around. I have narcotic gut which basically paralyzes my gut. I've even taken Lactulose which is hospital-level meds!!! Having a hard time with this....

mac, have you considered that weaning off the steroids has made you shakey? That too, will pass, sweetie!

mac, it might not be low energy, but just normal energy! Remember, the steroids would have given you lots of energy!! I LOVE getting new windows!! Such a difference they make!

I love that you met Kate and William Maddie- How wonderful!

Sorry I've been gone again. I just seem to get everything done at all so I've been trying to limit my time on the computer but then I really miss you all!

Mac- love the yogi-lemur! I got to go to Madagascar a long time ago and got to play with the lemurs. They climbed all over us and were so sweet. We fed them bananas and they would sit on your head or shoulder. At one point, my mom had 6 of them on her!

I feel like I'm sort of just passing through these days. Just getting through one day to the next. My cat is peeing all over the floors in the house  as I had to keep her inside for a while as coyotes were all over the neighborhood. They ended up trapping 8 of them! My neighbors are turning their yard into urgan agriculture and organic gardening and will have chickens soon. The chicks were just hatched last weekend and they are adorable. It is in conjuction with my kid's school and the teacher wants to see if Alfie my sheltie could learn to heard chickens? Wouldn't that be a hoot!

Anyway, Mac glad your new windows are in and are wonderful! Sorry about the achiness... I had my recent bone scan and I'm now in osteoperosis - worst in my hips.I had thought it was all from my car accident but maybe it is the lack of bone? This disease keeps on giving.... Will be trying hard to check in more regularly!

Mac- Hope the storm isn't as bad as they think. Interesting about steriods masking pain, I didn't know they could do that. Did she give you any other pain meds?

I've been through a few blizzards and they are one of the reasons I've lived in a temperate clime most of my life.  My sympathy and prayers are with all of you in the path of this storm.

hi gals:  I earned an ambulane ride to the hospital this week: we ALL were sure iwas having heart attack 1 thank you, god, no dmage to the heart.. they think i've just gotten all worked up lately, and that causes my heart to "flutter" this one was bad enough i agreed to go..

  while i was there, they gave me the flu and pnenoumonia (sp) shot: it was so bad, it froze the shoulder they used, I had to stay another day! Boy, I was soo glad to see "my little man" when i got hone. my son said he cried on/off the whole time I was gone.. Glad to be hoe.

  they're keeping me on high amts of blood presure meds, and nitro.. more !3jays

3jays, so good to hear from you! I was thinking about you just yesterday!!! Of course, the little man was so happy to have you home, too. I got the flu and the pneunomia shot also, just not at the same time. Your poor shoulder! I echo chabba, please take care of yourself.

Stanzie - we do have storms, just not snow storms.  No hurricanes or typhoons but we do get storms with high winds that cause damage.  In the 23 years we have lived here  there has only been one bad one with gusts to at least 90--that was what the anometer was reading when it broke!  No where near the devastation the east snd gulf coasts get but we were cut off from all communication cell and radio for a few days.