Stage III - HER2 - 2+ Years Out - Check In!

Dear Sisters …

1st - Thank you to others that have posted to this thread.

I don’t come to these forums much these days. Often, it’s because the job I have requires me to stare at a computer for 9 to 10 hours a day and by the time I come home the last thing I feel up for is opening my laptop. I’m fortunate to have a job and don’t mean for that to sound like a complaint. It is just hard on my old eyes most days. Anyway, the few times I have returned to the forums for a quick look around, I’ve been devastated to read about the loss of a member and ended up in tears and not able to post.

Last year when I logged in sometime around October I learned of the loss of a very cool lady, Marybe. She and I had chatted via PM a number of times and I followed her posts with such a sense of wonder.She had faced so much but her humor and good nature continued to be clearly present.Although I never met her, I just know she was an incredible lady and it really broke my heart to read that she was gone.

I tried to log back in in November to post but when I did I read of the loss of Lowrider. She was one of the first members that made an impression on me when I joined these forums in 2009. I know there have been many others … each one special and a terrible loss to those who loved them.

Today, when I logged in I guess I shouldn’t have started looking around because now I know that we’ve lost Athena. She reached out to support me when my son was having problems. I always loved to read her posts - they were always so well thought out.

I know there have been many others … too many others!

I HATE cancer!

So, with a very large degree of survivor’s guilt and through tears, I’m going to go ahead and post on this thread.

You see, I started this thread when I was so afraid I wouldn’t make it to see a third anniversary. Selfishly, I was hoping people would post and it would ease my fears and, perhaps in the future, ease the fears of others.

Although I really mark my "years" from the date I had my first chemo, November 23rd, 2009, I just didn't want to wait any longer to post. Since I was diagnosed the last week of October, 2009, I guess this will do.



I am four years out from my diagnosis - IDC, Stage IIIb ER/PR+, Her2+.

Although there is so much sadness in the loss of others & so much fear when you are diagnosed, I just want to tell those that are fighting now … hold on to hope. As the mosaic I made when I was first diagnosed states …