MIDDLE-AGED WOMEN 40-60ish

I was 2 months pfc yesterday. I had my hair trimmed as it was like wire on the ends. The new hair is much softer and it looks fuller now that the ends are gone. I am not used to short hair, but at least it is growing. It's about an inch long now.

I will be done rads soon. I have 7 left. I am having what feels like panic attacks as the end of treatments grows closer. I was trying to think about why and I think it is because while in some sort of treatment I feel like I am doing something to fight and when it is over I feel like at time bomb just waiting to go off again. Has anyone else felt like this and any suggestions to get past this?

Dianarose ~ I have the same feeling.  I just finished my 3rd round of chemo with one more to go and discussed it with my MO and the chemo nurse.  I even asked if we should do a couple of more rounds of chemo.  I won't be doing rads, so after my last round of chemo, it will just be Tamoxifen, but I still fear that won't be enough.

Cindyl ~ thanks for the link. 

Ok..just read Diana's next post, forgot it was your second go round hon. It sucks, for sure, but you still have control. Please do NOT let this change your hopes and dreams. None of us have a clue what tomorrow will bring. I used to have a saying as my tag line along the lines of 'worry doesn't empty tomorrow of its problems, it robs today of its joys' Hugs

JoC - good luck today! Don't worry if you hear some strange noises and odd movements in your pockets. It's just us girls hanging out with you to provide you some encouragement and support.

((hugs))

Marlegal, your new tag line actually makes me cry. I remember when I first read it and it really hit home for some reason. Really put compassion into the equation.

And...caught up!  It's hard to just jump back in where the thread is at.  I usually put my foot in my mouth when I do because I don't know all the details in someone's situation.  So, I try to make sure I catch up.

I'm with you all who are going through tests and tx.

Eph3 12-

Eli can correct me if I'm wrong, but the women in the above shot all just had a successful BM after consuming several cinnamon rolls provided by Eli.  Eli, I LOVE a good cinnamon roll, but prefer chopped, toasted pecans on top.  Of course, I understand why nuts were left off of yours...so happy to read that things are getting better!

Thinking of you, Jo C...

I am going to the State level on Wednesday for the blueberry pie contest. I will make an extra one for Jo's pocket. Between that and the cinnamon rolls we better bring some wipes because you know we will make a mess.

I treated myself to some silk pj's today. They feel so much better on my burnt skin. Wish I could wear them to work.

I can't stand Krispy Kreme doughnuts.  I don't get the attraction.  THEY ARE WET!! Bleeeeech!

i agree Mary, but we have people here that do fund-raisers with Krispy Kreme donuts (or doughnut).  They'll pre-sale, & then some parent will do a SIX HOUR run to Reno & 6 hours back. That's how I had my 1st (& only KK).  A friend's child was doing the fund-raiser, they went to Reno, got back in time for me to pick up on my way to church.  I was all stoked cause I'd always heard they were wonderful; took a bite, threw it away & took the remaining 11 in the box into the hospitality room at the church. 

Eph - while my son was working at Microsoft over the summer, he had a friend that drove down to Portland a few times to bring these donuts to work:

http://voodoodoughnut.com/doughnuts.html

Man, they look good!  So funny, I always thought of KK donuts as wet, too.  I would dry them off with a paper towel if I had to eat one.

Momine - yum, Copenhagen bakery?  Oooh, how nice.  I would be afraid to have that close-by.  In no time, it would probably be a regular stop for me.  Yep, same with Elimar - nothing around here but KK and DD.

Elimar - did you get back on the chemo today?  Glad to hear you are healing up!  Yeah, I meant to call about the bone scan results again today, but since I have my regular MO appointment coming up soon I may just wait until then.  

About positive thinking - I am an eternally "the glass is half-full" kind of girl.  My brothers and I talked about that over Christmas and I said I'm like that song by Chumbawamba - "I get knocked down, but I get up again.  They're never going to keep me down."  I love my attitude, partially because it annoys certain negative people who can't believe that I dare to be so happy, haha.

JoC - hope chemo went well for you and I hope you are feeling okay - stay on top of the nausea meds.  I took them by the clock, not as needed.

Meece - I didn't know about ports either before I started.  No one said a word - I would have done it if I had known.

Donuts --- those voodoos look wonderful -- I am slightly partial to Tim Hortons being from Canada.  They are so MUCH better then KK.

Eph -- what a wonderful time for you to meet one of your chemo angels --

Elimar- I don't even know what the prize is. I just want the state ribbon to add to my collection of ribbons. It is held at the annual agricultural trade show so it should be fun. It's a 2 hour drive, but it will do me good to get out of town for a bit.

Have you started your treatments again? I have 5 more rads and then I am done with that.  I got my foot caught on a piece of furniture and I think I broke my baby toe and maybe some other bones in my foot. It is not pretty. If it is not better on Friday they will take some xrays. I went to work and just walked on my heel of that foot. It took the focus off anything else that was hurting today.