It's dec 30th, let the truth be known about how i feel

Jabal, Good for you!!!  It's important to take a step (or 10) away.  I hope you don't read this until next year.

Ladies

I can say since 2/15/12 BC has changed and consumed my life and changed it in ways I didn't plan. For the last 3 days I have thought about what the new year will bring me.



So I am done letting BC rule my life. I'm still healing and have rads plus tomoxifen to do but I'm going to live my life as I did before. I'm done not drinking or partying like I use to. I'm done reading research that says drinking increases chances of BC yet people who never drink get it or stop it reoccurs. I'm tired of skipping fast or frozen food for the same reason. Going organic vegan ect still no guarantee I'm done that's it!



I will do my rads Monday- Friday like a job for 6 weeks than I'm done. Tomoxifen will be taken with my vitamins for 5 or 10 years whatever my MO says. I didn't drink or party a lot before no medical issues at all no medications. No diabetes high blood pressure ect and still here I am.



So my new year will equal a new life that resembles my prior life before BC. It can't be exactly the same but close.



Happy new year everyone!

I was dx in dec of 2010. I remember feeling the same way. Just know by this time next year you will be through the worst of it. Two years later life is wonderful. You will get there but until then I am praying for you my dear BC sister! Hugs!!!

jabal, I totally understand!  And I'm sure most everyone else here does, too.  And this is exactly the right spot to say whatever you want.  We get it.  Vent away!

I was just commenting to someone the other day about what a strange disease cancer is.  With most anything else, the disease makes you feel bad, and the treatment makes you feel better.  But cancer is the opposite.  I felt fine, healthy, great until that fateful mammogram!  Since then I've had to have surgery that caused pain (still), chemo that makes me sick, next up rads and tamoxifen which have their own horror stories.  All to make me better!  Yeah, that's the tough thing about this.

Pity parties may come and go. I don't know anyone who can stay positive all the time. Please take more time to list the pros and cons of treatment. Also, consider what at least two experts advise you to do. Not everyone has a horrible time. We are strong and take the treatment to help extend our years. We have no idea how long we will be here with or without treatment, but I believe most of us want to fight for more years. Treatment may keep you around for many years to come so you can see those grandchildren grow. That is worth it.

I am grateful that my surgeon started my journey with positive thinking...she said "First, you are not a victim, you are a survivor. Second, this is not a death sentence. And third, you are a strong, healthy woman who happens to have breast cancer, you are not a sick woman. We will fight this together."