it's been quite a year

Reality- I know how scary it is.  I had my bone scan come back with 3 abnormal spots (on the sternum) so am in that limbo state as well waiting on further testing.  I can tell myself a hundred times a day it is probably "nothing" but once you know your body is capable of "something" it is difficult to convince yourself completely.  I like your screen name, though, because the reality is it is probably nothing on mine and I hope for you, too.  I know these difficult days of worrying are just part of my new horizon, though.

Crystal- I don't mind at all.  I've been having pain in the sternum area so my GP sent me for a chest x-ray which came back normal.  She was being extra cautious she said in ordering the bone scan but it came back abnormal so next was a cat scan which showed abnormalities, too.  So now she's passing me back to my oncologist who told me today it looks "suspicious" but could be something benign.  She's reviewing everything right now to see what's next.  I thought I knew my new normal.  Guess this is my new new normal- for awhile anyway.  

I had lots of weird little lumps and bumps, almost swollen little tunnels, after microfatgrafting this past summer.  They are gone now.  I still have twinges of pain at times in the fat grafted areas.

Maddie- It would never be butting in.  I think on all the threads, but especially this one, everyone's posts are helping everyone else.  I know every time I read about someone else feeling these same emotions it makes me feel a little more normal.  I think this is the best support group in the world.  Sometimes I show up every hour and share.  Other times I hide in the corner in my p.j.'s and just listen.  Either way it's helps.  Just don't know what I would do without this place.

Maddie- They actually got a hold of me the Friday before the holiday even though their recording said they were gone until Tuesday.  

Today marks one year from when I returned to work after two and a half months off for my lumpectomy and bilateral mastectomy. I started the day by completing questionaires for the Dr. Susan Love Research Foundation's HOW breast cancer starts and HOW to prevent it: the Health of Women Study (HOW). Often, I still seem to think about cancer most all the time and am not sure I will ever move much further beyond where I am now but reflecting back on a year ago - I have done pretty well. I used my juicer last night (beet and pineapple juice!) and am heading out for my three mile walk this morning in my new clothes that look pretty good! I miss my old breasts but in a bra or a t-shirt, my new ones aren't so bad. I take my Tamoxifen twice a day and will switch to an aromatase inhibitor down the road even though yesterday, my bone density scan wasn't as good as I'd hoped. I've lost ten pounds. In spite of it all, I got a promotion at work last month too.

Here's the link for info on the HOW study: http://www.armyofwomen.org/?utm_content=How+launch+2&utm_campaign=Mailings&utm_source=iPost&utm_medium=email

I just passed my 1 year since diagnosed date. i am still getting herceptin, i have my mammogram scheduled for November 26th ..and i still feel like mybee333 its on my mind all the time unless someone else in the family is in crisis. Then I think how far I have come and for awhile I am OK. I keep thinking i want this all behind me, but not so sure that will ever be the case 

Mybee, I feel exactly the same thing. I am fine for a few weeks and then it "sharply" hits me...once again. maybe because I am coming up to the 1 year anniversary?

I am reworking my thinking, this won't even be completely behind me. More likely, it is a y in the road of life and I am in a new direction now. I am ok with this, taking better care of myself, seeing doctors, and de-stressing as best I can.

I still stay close to these boards...

Well, today has just been not to good and just need to vent a moment if that's okay.  Went on October 22 for my first set of PetScans and CTScans since my diagnoses last year.  Oncologist office  called and would like me to have an ultrasound of the left lymphnode's under my left arm.  I was originally diagnose in the right breast, had a bilateral mastectomy, chemo and tamoxifen.  Makes one a little angry. Thanks for the vent!!

Mstrouble, I am sorry. I would be angry too. In fact, I was...I had my second mastectomy 18 months after my first. *something* showed up just like in your scans, so I had more scans and it was *unidentified* so I had a biopsy and that came back *unidentifiable*. I was so angry...I decided to have my second breast removed.

It turned out there was no cancer, but I am glad to be free from all the cancer stuff.

My thoughts are with you.

It looks pretty good in the pic.  You look great

Well that sounds very good   Nerve calming is always a plus!

And the results are in....can I get a B9!!!!!!   Woohoo!!!!  So freaking happy great way to start a weekend!!!

Yeah on the b9 results!!!!! No sweeter words.....

Hey, congrats on a B9 result!

wahoo and do celebrate this weekend

you know they get so careful with us guys, good but sure is nerve wracking~