Even the STRONG get tired

Debbie,

Thank you.  I am better today.  Spent time with my family and laughed and felt surrounded by love.  As I sat in my chair and looked around the room - I could see happiness, laughter, love and though I didn't say anything I felt it breath life and strength within me.  If I was to sit down and let all this over take me  - how much I would miss in my family's life.  I am strong.  I am here for a purpose in my life, their life and who ever else I am to support in this journey.

Your kind words and hug - where also a part of that rebuild. 

Hugs to you too!

Dawn

Evergreen9 - thank you.  This forum is so great! You can express your true feelings and not feel like you have to fix and help those who read it as - they may have been there too!

Know laughter and kindship are the greatest remedies in life.

CoolBreeze,

I know this is easier for me to say, but it is what I tried to live my life.  If it came to cleaning my house and sitting down and playing a game with my kids....I played the game.  The dirt will be there tomorrow - the people in our lives might not.  I PROMISE you - I have never seen a headstone that read great housekeeper - kept the cleanest house.  Honey please spend your time enjoying time with family, friends and living the most in your life. 

I am not saying I am right, but maybe you feel your time is less then you want and you want to make sure your family learns the "right" way to take care of a house and themselves.  I know sometimes what bothers me the most isn't the actual thing bothering me but something more being expressed through this small bothersome action.

I will pray for you.  I will pray for strength and guidance and for a miracle.  Stay positive....smell the roses....see the beauty in as much as you can.  When I sit back, quitely and watch life I see the most amazing things.  I see a little child smiling and hear the laughter.  I see a squirrel eating out of the bird feeder tormenting a dog.  There is so much happening around us - it gives me a mental break from myself, my problems, my health, my finances. 

Honey I don't know you but I love you just the same.  If I could come wipe your crumbs I would, but most importantly I make you laugh and enjoy today. 

I was trying to think of something to make you at least smile.  I love Dunkin Donuts coffee and would reward myself with a large cup every once in a while.  I always went to the same drive through DD.  There usually was a line and there was a trash can with a curved lid allowing you to throw your trash away from your car.  So one morning I pulled up for my coffee reward...there was no line so I pulled up and waited for them to take my order.  I wait, I wait....then I start saying HELLOOOO!  HHHHEEEELLLLLOOOO! No one was answering.  So I asked rather curtly "Is ANY ONE going to take my order?".....Then I realized I was at the trash can trying to place an order.  The girl taking the orders was looking out the window watching this crazy, baldhead woman - yelling at a trash can.  I started laughing so hard at myself......relieved that no one was there filming me....when I actually pulled up I couldn't stop laughing at myself.  The woman thought I was really crazy now.  I got my coffee and left. 

I hope that made you at least smiled.  Try to find something to laugh about everyday.

Lean on us, we are with you.

Dawn

My husband is still delaying things.  I am waiting my results from my tests.  I am having the lump checked Thursday along with varicose vein surgery. 

I have some good prospects on possible jobs.  I spent today with a good friend, who we adopted after her husband died of lung cancer.  She turned 80 so we made a dinner and my kids and their boy/girl friends, my mom and I went to her house and celebrated with her.  She was so happy and in turn it made me happy.  So I am hanging in there.  Tomorrow is another day.

Tomorrow is today and I have a job interview this afternoon.  So cross whatever ya got to cross that it goes well.

If you need an instant smile....say the word bubbles!  Bet ya cant say BUBBLES and not smile! 

Besides BUBBLES are in champagne and champagne is always good.  Bubbles think of how much fun BUBBLES bring to a child.  See it just one of those words that just makes you smile!

BUBBLES BUBBLES BUBBLES

Dawn

okay I just had to share this....it made me smile......

if you're feeling blue....try painting yourself a new color!  Hannah Cheathem - age 8........

Well went to the doctor and she did a biosopy of the new lump...will know next week.  Still waiting on STD results.  I did get the IRA paperwork from my husband and getting the money transferred is under way.  Thursday I have my varicose vein procedure...don't know what that will be like.

Job interview went well...I think it would be a great fit for me.

Smile.....it's campaign commercial end night.

CoolBreeze - you are right - we are who we are and we are not magically transformed.  I found this site so helpful with my depression.  Every one in my life doesn't seem to understand how I could be depressed - I survived cancer.  Like that makes me invincible to everything else.  I know when I see your journey - I feel guilty about being depressed too!  My fight isn't your fight but it doesn't make mine any less significant in my life. 

You know what - you HAVE the right to feel how you feel.  You HAVE the right to be pissy, witchy, happy, irresponsible, sad, angry....what ever you feel - you HAVE that right.  Don't let any one (including me) deny you of your RIGHT! 

I know you are not a believer and I hope I don't offend you if I offer to pray for the best for you.  I don't know how you feel, I know how I felt, but I have loss many to cancer and I have empathy for you. If I can bring a little laugh to one part of your day, I am happy.  Laughter gets me through my day.

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