Fuzzy's Romp Room

Nothing wrong with that fuzzy, at least i hope not as my meds are my best friends right after all of you wonderful ladies:-)



I am doing ok, havent looked at it dont want to, and its one of the weirdest things i've ever felt. Both the clippers and the newly shaved head. But whats done is done its not coming back anytime soon.



Hope you all have a peaceful evening and a restful night...love you all

Sas, I have begun changing bras at least twice each day. I must say it seems like it may be helping. That, plus I haven't been doing anything physical. I think the next time I do that kind of work I will be painting the ceilings of my downstairs. There's a place that could use some sanding, and a couple places that could use a little wet sanding. Possibly one place that could use a little more spackle. But I'll do all that the same day that I paint. Then that will be done for a while. I'll still have to paint the kitchen walls, but the ceiling is the part that really puts me off. I dread all that mess, all those drips, having to cover everything. Messy messy messy. I'll put it off a while longer. LOL

Fuzzy--must remember that "accidently drank a bottle of wine" What size? I'm working on "accidently drinking my fill of Vodlka". Hope not too much b/c I have to see eye doc tomorrow. Cancelled last appt. b/c I "accidently drank too much of something". The only one who has heard me after "accidently" drinking too much of something is SpecialK and I warn her--- I am drinking or not drinking when I call.

SpecialK--If I call and I say I've been drinking ----just be your sweet self and then say "i've gotta go cuz you told me that's what I should do" LOL, but at least let's talk for ten -15 minutes before you do that.

Rider--it gets better, you will be able to look in a few days. Somehow get G.I. Jane. She(Demi Moore) is so pumped up when she shaves her head, for God , Country, and the Corp. My Dh never got that film. He was always for equality, but hated seeing it in action that way. My Dh shaved my head in the bathroom, we then switched to the outside--I didn't want a mess. Gave the hair to the birds for their nests. I must be wierd, or may be a nurse thing. We laughed through the whole thing. When it came his time, he didn't trust me with the clippers--HuH--I was offended--he went to the barber. Off it was and then it grew back. Just another doo. Sounds terribly insensitive. May be there was part of me that was frightened--hated it--don't remember. Knew their was nothing else to do but shave it. But since I don't have my dear Greg to talk to about it--don't know. I do remember the laughing--God I loved the laughing.

Whomever, said there was a video on Youtube about scarves--Blessings. Makeup and earrings important with the scarf look. Earrings very important depending on scarf style---Medium to large loops very good. Think peasant look. Peasants may be offended, but it's an old term. The peasant look was "In" in the flower child era---60's and middle70's. I used it into the 80's as my mood took me. It sometimes takes me there now.

The turbins The only one that ever looked good in a centered turbin was Esther Williams(swimmer) from the 50's--- It can be so crafty, but--you have to think . Turn the turbin off center, add another scarf which is colorful, Turn two ends to center then roll it,  then tie around the head over turbin, tuck corners under crosspiece of turbin. Becomes quite sheek(that's really an old word-I guess I flipped into the 30-40's). Add a clip earring ( get from thrift stores). AND you have a gorgeous head piece. Can be as dressy or as everyday wear as your imagination allows. When the mood strikes me I do it now.

I'm into wearing mens hats now b/c they have a smaller brim than womens. Womens hats now have too much brim. The 60's styles are back in. Two much brim then, too much brim now. I am, however, considered in the scandolous talk at church. The women come to church as if the are ready to clean the bathrooms. What is so hard about putting a dress on and makeup. AND perhaps a Hat. This weekend, I'll do a scarf with you in mind Rider. I'd send you mine except that they have sentimental value, I've kept them since the 60's and still use them. I'll rustle through the stuff and see. 

Now a story, I was buying something off ebay. Ends up I won. Turns out the seller was about 3 miles away. She had Ovarian CA. and bald. Was returning to work the next day or day after. I spent about 2 hours with her and her DH showing them how to do scarves. She was amazed that she just didn't have to tie it back. Saw her several months later. She used the techniques I showed her. Said that__________I forget. I just remember she was happy and hugged me and said it made her so much less self conscious. She said other nice things, I also can't remember. I just remember her happiness and that it made me feel good.

Make-up with scarves and perhaps eyebrow and eyelash loss---must be attended to with great care. Use products that agree with you both politically and skin wise. Foundation--depending on locale, may or may not need it. I rarely use foundation. Moisturize first---with all the chemicals with anesthesia, antibx's, chemo you may find that your skin becomes sensitive to many products. I was sensitive way before chemo and anesthesia. I use Cetaphil. It loves my skin from head to toes. Someone after the BC beginning--told me about Cetaphil--Let a blessing be upon them. Then I brush on powder---one of those things that has three colors. Medium color on the face then the darker shade over the eyelid, then on the checks, at jawline, then the neck. Cheek color next based on dress color. Then eye color. Somtimes one , sometimes two, sometime three. I lost much of my eyelashes, but rarely use eyelash stuff. What can I say, I always cry at church(Mass) not just sicne DH died, it's been since my 20's. In Florida heat, those that wear allot of mascara--I don't get it. Besides within 5 minutes my eyes are red---so must be allergic/sensitive to something--happened after I got to Florida in '92. A wee streak of pink or yellow under the brow(mine stayed) and done except for lips. Lips based on dress tone. Sounds like a fairly normal routine. But with scarves you must take a wee bit more care, the look  " Pyhsically Well " with scarves may take a bit more color than you are used too. Right scarf look, with right make-up, right earrings, right clothes----whew your a fashion dream. No matter what you are feeling inside. I refused to let those that were outside, see my inside...........I actually took more care of how I looked during this time, than I did in the last 16 years of nursing. But I was Nursing. Just as I said in the last statement,  they(all others) weren't going to see what was inside. That was private, only open to a few. Odd never said that before, never knew that was my motivation. As a younger in the 60's and 70's it was just putting together a package. HMMMMMMM       Soo, wish MY MHc would read this stuff.

Rarely, do seasoned nurses working directly with patients, bother with make-up. Why they work ungodly long shifts, raise families, run the households unless they are partnered with a mate that gets helping----I did, I was a princess in that regard--Bless DH. Younger nurses do--I did---then Life and time hit like gangbusters. Just needed to add that b/c when you look at a seasoned nurse-----the are juggling soooo much-----looking like they are a fashion statement, does NOT enter their consciousness any longer--they haven't got time for it. Except, for the shoes, we should do better on the shoes, they look like shit. But I believe we could reduce cross contamination by wearing shoe covers---those blue thingy's. Also, no jewelry, no watches, no nail Stuff( finally ruled a no no by Joint Commission, it took about 8 years after data came out).Hmmmmm Lots of opinions coming out tonight.

Rider dear woman-----I'm on a roll with some accidental Vodlka.--and Blues on the waves. SOOOO, back to you woman---give it time. Try to think of it as a new experience that you will learn about. It soon will turn around.  Namaste L&H&P's sheila----sassy

Pm I'll catch that ,otherwise I'm going to wander . If we were both up we could accidently talk to each other.  I'm going to Insomnia thread next, If they aren't active>> then to Pinktober

Ginger---still here girl? Going to Insomnia

Fuzzy which Part?---I do have allot to be scandolous about recently, I just need to know which one you are referring to now? Looked back and wonder? Not going to admit to fun stuff unless I already told you. Up all night. talked with an Austarlian friend. ChrissyB. She Is so much fun. That can't be scandolous. Ain't talking about early evening---that's scandoulous and fun too and seriously no ones business(Psst if you call me, I'll tell you all the details) NOT, LOL's or may be.

To all--Pm talked with Gracie1----she's on a break, sends love to everyone here. I told her whenever she wants too drop back in she's part of us. Fuzzy wuzzy's little family.

Hmmm still searching for scandolous, must reread posts. It's Friday right. Miss a nights sleep and it gets screwy. AM going to restart Melatonin Fuzzy, I really enjoyed sleeping---I don't take it I don't sleep.

I HOPE YOU ALL DON'T MIND, BUT i GOT A LOT TO SAY TO FUZZY.  I'LL DO ANOTHER POST AFTER THIS ONE THAT MENTIONS BUNCHES OF OTHER FUZZY FAMILY FRIENDS....

FUZZY, before I talk of your wonder, your magic, the ever-growing spirit that is yours, my lovely best girl, I cry too over you.  I think we will always be together but a long ways apart.  Remmeber that divine Henri Mancini song from the movie "Breakfast at Tiffany's"?

"Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me."

Let's see, your baldy photo was NO WAY funny; it was gorgeous (except for perhaps that amazing dent), and I saved it in the PROPER size in my pictures, and I could make it close-up, and I'm tellng you, girl, those eyes and lashes of yours are show stoppers.  Bu even in that picture, while they were all goofed up, sleep in your eyes, dust and dirt, and you were hiding your eyes.  When people hide their eyes, it's because they're under some sort of stress.  But Fuzzy, girl, whenever you put on makeup and a hat or scarf, or a simple clip in your hair, pictures where you are completely relaxed, like that stunning one your hubby took of you looking up from the bedroom pillow (you used it as an avatar for a short while)... I thought what a gorgeous creature we got here.  Have you considered being an eye model?  SMILE.  I wonder if there are books or magazines with stuff like that in it.  And I wonder how did you not become an actress?  Maybe it's because you are some sort of intelligence officer with the CIA or whatever. Switch to NASA, they must be a little nicer within each group... but their gangster hyerarchy can probably get a little intense, tho.  The thing of THAT is, it's sort of "I am the boss of you," it's in every dang company, and I was the best there was and it was like high school the way I was treated.  When I left they had to hire TWO people to do the job I was doing.  Well, they can all go straight to hell. 

I had just enough time at the end of my ability to work, to do some neat stuff I had always wanted to do, tho.  My last REAL plan was to become a dog groomer, which was halfway done by working with Animal Control (like TV).  Your dog reminds me of a Tibetan Spaniel, I think related to one of my favs the Lhasa Apso, but yours has fur much easier to ake care of.  My fav pic you showed us was the tiny baby skunk in hand, oh my gosh, tooo cute, it's right before the cat in the bag, and I also felt the soft fur or your puppy and the devotion he has for you.

This picture is from Facebook about a man and his elder dog who found his only comfort when he took the dog into the lake and let him float with him until he fell to sleep.  The photo went viral, donations poured in, and dog will now get to live more comfortably for several more years.

I'm glad you and husbad are geting closer by talking about all this emotional stuff.  Its all a big puzzle to all of us , and disease will bring it right out of us, to where we must trust each other's feelings enough so we can open up without gettting too excited.  Your husband loves you SO much, that he understands very well that you are just plain sick.  I just had a very sad experience with my husband, whom I love dearly.  After living with unbelievable pain for about ten years now, one small increase in meds during that time was all.  So, finally, I knew my cancer was gone (And by the way, a CT scan I requested showed No Evidence of Disease, talk about crying a river!  I felt so relieved!).  So, I decided I would only think of myself and not be all polite and repectful, because for so long I had done things the docs' stupid ways, and now we were going to do things my way.

So, one of my meds was changed, some were doubled in dose (magically made me myself again), and one pill was added to two of my drugs.  Took me two awful weeks to become a regular person again after getting used to all that, but talk about pain relief.  It was finally mine.  I slept and slept and slept.  But I kept falling down, and I couldn't talk well because I was getting used to the sleepiness of the meds, and I couldn't remember a single thing, and finally husband sat down and talked with me and said the drugs were screwing me up big-time and he couldn't take it anymore.  Oh, the fear was huge of his demand.  But I knew there was not one damn thing I could do about it, only time would make things right.  He suggested maybe I should take less medicine.  So, I said I would try that.  I lied. 

But our talk did not get out of control, altho he was about to blow, and I also explained to him that I had waited for SO long to get these medicines, I hurt so much all the time, and I needed those drugs.  I told him if I had to drive, I only took my morning dose (I take four doses), so that I would drive well enough.  But as for recalling things and not knowing what day it was, I noticed he had the identical problem.  He knew I was right.  So, that was cleared off the table, and in fact became a laughing issue.  I said I'd keep a little black booklet so that each time he screwed up, I'd say, "Where is that booklet, let me get that down on your list."  Hahahahah.

Milky Way, Image Credit: Kerry-Ann Lecky Hepburn (Weather and Sky Photography)          Job 38:31-33 [New King James Version (NKJV) 31 "Can you bind the cluster of the Pleiades, Or loose the belt of Orion? 32 Can you bring out Mazzaroth (Constellations) in its season?  Or can you guide the Great Bear with its cubs?  33 Do you know the ordinances of the heavens?  Can you set their dominion over the earth?"

Well, to sort of end this quandry, I got more and more normal because I got used to the drugs, I paid a lot more attention to not falling down (not too good at that still), and my memory and ability to talk has returned for at least the mornings.  Well, I thought I was putting on a pretty good impression, but one early morning when I'm stiff, and I decided I wanted to bend over and pet the dog on the head, and so of course I lost my balance and fell against this smallish plastic bin for all my books and mags I keep by the couch.  When I hit the edge of it, the plastic snapped off very loudly, and it woke up husband and he was very concerned if I was okay.  I got a big butt, so no harm done.  Smile.  Later I told him my butt would protect me in most falling disasters.  But he was still worried.  Later after he went back asleep, I leaned against the kitchen counter and just cried my eyes out, for I had failed in my efforts to do better with my meds.  Well, I can only do what I can do.  And these medicines are good for me.  There are other stories, conversations, amazing tales, but I'm trying to stick to one per post.  And by the by, many days I don't take all my meds.

Perhaps your husband can help bring out your softer side, Fuzzy, and when you get eough strength, resuming kick boxing might NOT work right  now, but ju-jitsu is easier, requires strength but not too much... you use your enemy's power against them.  It's a position thing, but a lot of work, and it could get some tension out.  Oh, hell, just turn on the TV and do one of those silly exercise programs where they punch out at stuff, and you just punch the hell out of the air, dah'lin, could be done in perhaps a type of ladylike way?  And if there's ANY medicine that is making your life miserable, you're gonna HAVE to get rid of it.  If a medicine makes you feel good, take it.  But the ones that help not one bit, out they gotta go.  Also, some relaxation is in order, lots and lots of it.  It's OKAY to sleep in the afternoon with your soft puppy, it's okay to not feel like answering the phone or going to see the doc.  You may cancel a couple days and just do nothing except play with your dog.  Put on some mood music, light candles, put on a shiny necklace and make them eyelashes LOOOOOONG, and fix your husband's favorite meal.  Hon, there are lots of things to do that don't require any sort of exactness or perfectness or strength or proof of majesty.  You are my majesty.  Fuzzy Baby, you are my Princess, you are one of the most beautiful girls I've ever known, a whole cluster of stars did God make you, and I'm talking to your soul, to you sitting in the barn, to you typing these little notes to me, and being open about sharing all the sister love we have together without even saying a word.  I love you, Fuzzy, and I always will.  Plus you're ridiculously pretty, too.  No woder your doggie loves you.  Altho I don't think dogs know what people look like; they jus knows who we are.  Sister love always, Gail

GG sweetie you oh so posted your heart out to everyone. The MIL diatriabes ended when she died. Everything you said was true so I don't have to reiterate. How DH was such a good kind person don't know, but he was.

Rider, Glad that wig makes you feel so much better. YAY. A blessing on the girl that gave it too you.

 Fuzzy---yes, need home repairs , some are scheduled for near future.------Did however FOMCALOL. Needed that feeling, cuz a bit emotional and don't know the reason? Ativan to the rescue.

Veggy--GG is so so right.

Dunes--GG and I basically said the same thing----The work could be causing the swelling. Time will help once you get this under control. As time went on I could do more work with less swelling.

 Ginger missed you the other night. I know you post with CrissyB allot. We had so much fun, but I think I'm still paying for it. Migraines, missed that. If you don't mind talking by phone, seriously, I've had many call and we work through stuff. I am a good Sherlock Holmes. Oncology is not my strength, but many other areas are. Also, Glad you joined the family.

Crog-Gracie wanted you know that she wants everything good for you and misses you allot. AND is praying for your recovery. Me too.

 Nancy-GG hit so many right points, try and read it several times. sweetie

Lauren--miss you, hope work is going good and all those people giving you trouble straighted out.

SPecialK---Continued success on the vaccine. Love to hear you were able to be with DS and Family for last visit  for vaccine. DD status quo? So is DS? He comes with the right name---I know you will laugh with that one. He did win another Summary Judgement recently. Highly unusual. He says many lawyers go their entire carreers and never have one. He's had two in less than two years. The lawyering community takes notice of these types of things. Reputations grow on such things.

Granny You are everyone's cheerleader, raising us all up, not just here , but on other threads to, special hug

PTd---hope all is commensing the way you want:)))

 Gracie:) many many hugs

Luvmygoats--I think it might be 5 weeks and counting. Don't let the bastards get you down, just keep plugging and counting.

essa any new shit going on , we are all with you and Dannyboy and the skunks. Do they use litter boxes?

Mamma so sorry, Which functions are they checking for thyroid? should be at least TSH & T3, May want to check Parathyroid also. The recommended dose for Thyroid has recently be revised to new standards. It's a change in dose based a reduced excepted normal range . The new normal rangs is smaller than the old.

LOVE to all Namaste sassy

Whoa!! Lots to read!

Sas - have had thyroid issues since I was 12! Chemo and menopause have just screwed it up so much!!!!!

Mama go to an endorchronogist that specilizes in thyroid with oncology patients and menopause ---values have changed----locall PCP's don't know. This is laughable b/c I say I need a certain specialist. You need one that is board certfied in endocrinology with a specialty in oncology. Thats a specilaist. I need someone in GYN-urology thats a female--not too specific lol. If you had an understanding of specilaties of the American Medical Association, what i'm suggesting is tough to come by , but can be had with enough research. If anything they will be found at the biggest centers.

The NIH(national institute of health) that has desiginated 17 centers in the USA as National Cancer Centers. The need for weird things can best be addressed at these centers. Find one near you. Then let's talk by phone. namaste sassy

This is the third time I've had to retype this.  I'll have to shorten it, which is probably best anyhow.  Ginger, you may be able to work with your doc and pharmacist where he will write out two scripts (enuf for one week) and you give them all to the pharmacy.  Might even get it to a month's worth.  Fuzzy, love'in them stories about the soft fur of your puppy, how he snuggles to your neck to fall to sleep, soooooo adorable.  You're in an "empty nest" thing at the moment, but forging ahead.  I'm concerned about your meds.  Opiates are really the best (I'm on 60mg codeine), and yet docs are idiots for not giving them out.  I also HAVE to take tranquilizers, good old Valium.  I take a couple more, but those are my main ones.  Aside from that, tho, I have noticed that smooth, soft part of you more. Can you find that pick of you looking up from the pillow and post it in one of these messages one day?  Love to all my sweet sisters, my best friends I ever had all in one place.  GG