Sept 2012 chemo

Cindi, thanks for bringing up movies! I also watched one that was good, but not good for right now. (We Have to Talk About Kevin - great film, but yikes, depressing!) You've probably already seen As Good as it Gets, but that's a great one. One I watched recently that I really liked is Jeff Who Lives at Home. Anyone else have any netflix recommendations?

I got my hair buzzed on Saturday, and have been thinking a lot about Ripley, so maybe the Alien movies are appropriate.

Just want to give another word of reassurance to people who are worried about taxol. I'm on it now, it's really not so bad. AC sounds much worse. My main SEs are tiredness, mouth sores and bad taste in my mouth. The hair loss is by far the worst thing.

Has anyone here tried restorative yoga? I've been going, and it's been really great. I've found it to be an important way to reconnect with my body...at times I feel like I'm at war with my body, so doing this has been good. It's different from regular yoga in that you do only about 7 or 8 long poses for the 2 hour class. You use props to help you get into the poses, and there are lots of adjustments the teacher can make if you can't do something. I started going about 5 weeks after my surgery.

It's also a great way to check in and really notice how I am recovering, because sometimes it feels like I'm not and I'll never get back to the way I was. But there really is a difference with what I can do in each class.

Hope everyone has a good day.

xoxo

Toastiecat, You are so beautiful.  The picture is like a modern medieval painting.  There should be some way to go commercial with it.  Thank you for sharing.  Did you have it commercially done?  The lighting, drapery, all come across as art.  Eye catching.

Your expression seems strong, a tiny arrogant, not at all like a victim.

A Wonderwoman in control.

I love it.

Cindi, Ahh, I wish that were a picture of me!! Sorry for not being clear....that's Ripley (aka Sigourney Weaver) from the movie Alien 3. She buzzes her hair in that movie, and I've been thinking about it a lot. You're right, she's completely gorgeous. In my opinion, all of us here look just as beautiful and tough with our bald heads.



xoxo

Good morning my beautiful sisters...........bearcub you made me laugh so hard i really can picture myself doing that!!!! i woke recharge and ready for this week with my visit to the onco  to see my WBC i hope its where it needs to be....im loosing my hair and i DONT CARE like bearcub said.. "its CHEMO HAIR"... i needed new hair any way cause i dye it so much and perm it that it was coming apart...my sister always thought that i was crazy for damaging my hair and i never cared...so thats how i feel now....when i had my avatar look ....i dyed blond..then pink...which came out orange!!!! lol...i guess i need to stop that habit...so with my BRAND new hair i wont dye it!!!!!!!!!!!

Cherioo I wish I was going for the last AC, I have 2 more. The fatigue is horrible, it's like sitting on a heated bus with no air conditioning....lethargic feeling. I often wonder how you ladies do it with young kids. You are amazing...sit in bed though until they are home from school, recharge....and yes to thinking people who cared making a disappearing act. Maybe she isn't handling it very well, but you just want to say buck up already, I am the one with cancer..just to see us makes them face there fears...and some just cant do it...it is sad.



Patricia we have to embrace the situation.....and laugh out loud!!!.....we will be okay!

When life gives....lmao!....love it!

I love that "mirror" and want it haha! 

The mirror is awesome...AC number 2 tomorrow, hoping for minimal side effects.

Hoping everyone has minimal SE's.

Carla 

My sister i went to me onco and she said im ready for my next chimo....so my tumor was 4cm and its 3cm..its working which im thankful.....my blood count is great but my hemoglobin is good but as much as last time....what shoud eat or drink to bring it back up........good night  my ladies!!!

WhenLife... You have found the perfect Mirror! Love it.

Patricia...I will be out of town so wanted to say give that BGC Hell sister! kick its ass! I will be thinking of you. Much Love

I am finally out of my fog had my last treatment on Wednesday and today I was suppose to attend the Look good feel Better seminar but just couldnt do it. I needed a break from Cancer. I will reschedule but as of this moment I am sick of Cancer and sick of receiving cancer oriented gifts. I have gotten plaques, bracelets, books, blankets.. you name it! I am sick of it buy me something fun! The last think I need to be reminded of is Cancer..... 

I have one last treatment of the dreaded A/C then Im hopeful that Taxol will be easy on me. My first Taxol is on Halloween BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I pray it treats me right so I can take my babies trick-or-treating (they are 4 and 7) boy and girl going to be batman and robin! 

I actually drank some wine today and it stayed down well and felt amazing to let loose..

Butterfly... Good luck tomorrow! 

Shockd2bhere...I like how you think... I will be writing it on the mirror tomorrow!

bearcub...It is hard dealing with the fatique and kids I am so out of my element I am or was supermom until cancer... I have relied so much on others help I cant stand it! Its hard letting go of the control and just flowing with it. 

Justegan...I am positive that you were with out a doubt beyond beautiful today on your way to CVS! I have came to the conclusion of this Screw Them! ha! I have been rocking the doorag like I invented it... My hubby actually calls me doo rag lmao gotta keep laughing..

Hi everyone!

   I got my bloodwork today.  My oncologist said my headscarf really brought out my big brown eyes.  Which was nice that he was joking with me, because I felt like crying through most of the visit.   My hematocrit was low (which was a little worrisome-if it doesn't go up, I may have to get a blood transfusion).  But all of the my other bloodwork was fine- so I got the okay for chemo tomorrow.  I am bringing my sister and my mom.  Then I will be 1/3 done.  Yes!

Toastiecat:  I  loved the picture of Ridley!!!! I posted her on my facebook page as something I would visualize while I am in my chemo chair:-)  Thanks so much for sharing.  The inspiration I feel on this board is incredible.

bearcub:  I love you snuck away with me to the tidepools:-)  It was lovely!  I took my new avatar with the water behind me.  Plus I got to see some sweet seals:-)  Another thing I love about this blog is how others are feeling what I am feeling- even though I haven't named it yet.  I too haven't gone to my regular grocery store.  I have been going to a grocery store I never go to.  I guess it feels like too much for everyone to see me, ask questions, feel sorry for me... best to avoid it.  Thanks for voicing what I was  feeling.

Cheerio:  I have also been really surprised by who isn't around supporting.  I have been trying very hard not to take it personally.  I am also equally surprised by who has really been hugely supportive!  People have emerged from my life in ways that I would have never imagined.  Which has been wonderful.

Whenlife:  I too will be writing that on my mirror.  (and printing out that picture of Ridlye to put next to it!)

Patricia:  Congratulations on the shrinkage!!!  I am visualizing all of our tumors becoming smaller and smaller until they disappear:-)  Stupid Cancer doesn't have a chance!

Butterfly14:  Good luck tomorrow!  Hopefully we both will get through without a hitch and feel good with no SE!!!!

 Now I have to figure out what to do with all of this steroid energy!!!!! Last time I painted a wall of my house red.   Maybe it is time to organize all of my junk drawers:-)

Hope everyone has a great Tuesday!

First round of mega steroids taken in preparation for Taxotere tomorrow and I'm feeling a bit like this:

Feel like I need to find some vines to swing off or some alligators to wrestle. This is going to be my most productive day at work EVER.

I'm so excited to see what side effects the Taxotere will bring me (not)!

Whenlife, that mirror is awesome.  Today I have made my first attempt to pencil in my eyebrows in preparation for their full departure, and with my dark red, pre-Taxotere finger nails, I feel like something out of a bad Christmas pantomime.  I'll definitely be avoiding all reflective surfaces today in case I scare myself.

Oh. My. God.

Eight 2mg tabs of dexamethosone now in my system and all I can say is thank goodness for the Diazepam which I will need to take when I get home.  Maybe I should try carrying my car home. With one hand. I'd probably be able to manage that and it might burn off a bit off this extra energy.

I am also wondering about the ladies we haven't heard from, hope all is well.  I was anxious to hear how Donna did.

If I ever fail to respond to anyone, it's not that I don't love you all.  My short term memory is "kaput".

Patricia - congrats your on your way to being cancer free.  YEAH BABY! 

Toastie - Ripley is my new inspiration.  If we add the Wonder Woman costume, are we invincible? 

English - Storm before the calm? 

Justine - Good luck with your conference. 

Best of luck to all who climb into the BGC this week! 

{5} my friend who has been battling breast cancer for 35 years takes claritin d  when the bone pain starts coming. and maybe for three days after. it really seems to help, and run it by your doctor. I don't know why, thet dont know why. I also take the hottest bath I can stand with epsom salts.  Also I found this creme called topricin, that really works for me, its online cheaper than the stores, a homeopathic, fragrance free non greasy solution to nerve, bone and muscle pain. Believe me, I was a sceptic, because I have bought and tried all the crud, and been dissapointed, any way for me it seems to work and wont stain your clothes or sheets. look it up. Drink lots of water! I just finished my second round of taxotere, herceptin, and doxetaxel. It is a little difficult but doable. They have so many more ways of making it easier on us than when my friend first started. welcome with love and you are not alone. 10*9*12