bipolar and newly diagnosed with bc

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ConnieGreene
ConnieGreene Member Posts: 348
edited June 2014 in Mental Health: Because Cancer Doesn't Just Affect Your Breasts

I was diagnosed with bipolar back in 2000...took me 7 years to find a medication regimine that worked for me - been on it ever since without a single day of missed medication..I KNOW better.....

I can feel myself losing control with every dr visit/phone call.. I keep getting told I "only a small percentage have this or have to do that and every.single.time I am in that percentage".....went from stage 0 DCIS to invasive  breast cancer and positive for lymph node cancer and a "spot" was found on my rib via testing. 

I have a wonderful family - hubby twin (almost) 7  yr old girls - 3 yr old girl, 27 yr old son who is married and has 2 girls of  his own.

My psychiatrist knows what is going on and tells me to keep hanging in there.....I'm doing my best...if I have a moment of negative feelings or sadness everyone around me panics.

How do you keep it together?????

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  • Traci-----TripNeg
    Traci-----TripNeg Member Posts: 2,298
    edited October 2012

    Hi Connie, I'm not bipolar, but wanted to give you a cyber ((((hug)))).

    When I feel like I'm about to lose it, I come to this website and the girls (and guys) here help me keep it together. :)

    Traci

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited October 2012

    we are sending you hugs as well. You are not alone! 

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  • 1Athena1
    1Athena1 Member Posts: 6,696
    edited October 2012

    Hello, Connie,

    I am not sure there is an easy answer to your "keeping it together" question. I am sorry about your cancer news - and hope that the "spot" turns out to be just that. Keep posting!

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  • SillyMama
    SillyMama Member Posts: 173
    edited October 2012

    Hi, Connie,

    I am SO sorry you're going through so many surprises!

    Cancer is a life-altering experience. I've been told that eskimos have a dozen words for snow. I think cancer patients should have a dozen words for fear. I've had a million different kinds: from concerned fear, all the way to abject fear. The day of my surgery an odd circumstance caused a day's delay, and I was completely hysterical. I've never cried so hard in my life.

    And the memory of being afraid doesn't really leave. I still know what it felt like.

    I think though, that having those feelings is unavoidable. Especially while you're waiting for test results and reeling when you keep finding out that there may be more. The people around you probably don't know what a basket full of fear looks or sounds like. They may be hyper-focuing on your bipolar diagnosis because they understand that better. That doesn't help you get through the scares much.

    Vent all you want here. It's a safe place.

    ((((hugs))))

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