Anniversaries.......

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Shayne
Shayne Member Posts: 1,500
edited June 2014 in Life After Breast Cancer

in a couple weeks.....it will be 6 months since my dx.  It feels like 6 years, really.  All of a sudden Im depressed.....unsocial.....just sad.  Not sure if this is why, this upcoming date......or maybe the hormonal therapy.  Every bad thing in my life seems magnified.  I meditate, have a gratitude journal......and before this month was pretty happy and grateful.  Then several deaths happened in my family, community, neighborhood......and it all came crashing down.  I dont know whether to celebrate this 6 month anniversary......or mourn it.  

What do you do on these anniversaries?  Any rituals?  I really need to jumpstart my life again.   

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  • Hattie
    Hattie Member Posts: 414
    edited October 2012

    not sure how to answer. just that i thought i could maintain 24/7 happiness and gratitude the rest of my life, but then there are sad things in life and that is not possible.  (and also i could not maintain positivity and got bitchy at moments, disappointing myself, but have to be real.)  just constant balancing and readjustment.  and trying to remember to live in the now and express love and gratitude as much as possible.  because life is finite.  and loss is hard.  and cut yourself some slack for feeling down.  life is hard and beautiful both.  i did not mark any anniversaries myself .  but i do know to have little celebrations along the way, and realize that at times tears can be cleansing.  

    take care,

    hattie 

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