Rant on...

She even kinda rolled her eyes at me (the tech) and said maybe I'm just feeling a little hormonal today with some of my imbalances. You know...I have a 3 year old daughter, and when I would take her to her pediatric apps. THey would say things like 3rd door on the left (with no doors on the right) and then count for me. 1. 2. 3. There it is, thats the third one. I wanted to tell them...Did you know I'm in college level pre calc? I think I can count to 3! Its frustrating. I really appreciate the support because...I really need it.

My family I believe thinks I'm crazy, my husband complains that I feel tired all the time and I'm always getting swollen lymphnodes, and neausea. I think he's tired of me feeling sick. I dont want to feel this way. When my hormone tests showed elevated andgrogens I thought they would find the problem but they didnt. They dont seem to care how tired I am, just picking up my daughter gets me winded.  Then now...I'm just so. Frustrated. I feel like giving up, and crying, and giving up. Waiting sucks, and it seems I've been waiting for about a year. Waiting and paying for a doctor, so I can feel better. I really am a light hearted person. I don't take much too seriously. I just dont know anymore. Since the ultrasound tech said everything is fine, even with the palpable lump I guess I am in the wrong forum, although I much appreciate the women here.

Oh, by the way, my mother says: stop all caffeine, stop eating cheese, stop eating nuts, don't drink wine, AND YOU WILL BE CURED IN A WEEK! Good grief! For the record Mom, I don't drink wine. I don't eat nuts. I don't eat cheese very often. AND I AM NOT GIVING UP MY COFFEE! I, personally, don't buy into your healing techniques. You gave up all that stuff years ago and you still got breast cancer.



RANT OFF!

MissAyeplease don't give up--something is going on with u'r body, maybe it's not cancer but u should not feel like this and no one should disrespect u'r feelings about u'r body. Years ago I stsrted with a new Dr. and one time we were talking and he said don't think Drs. know everything trust u'r ow instincts because u know whst it should feel like. I never forgot that and I stayed withb him until he retired and still with his partner So find someone who will listen to u and act accordingly---That's how I found my Dr. and if it wasn't for him it would have turned into a nightmare cuz he sent me directly to the hospital for some tests and I had emergency surgery that nite. I had been to 4 other dr. that didn't take me seriously.

So don't give up

My rant----I probably did this before but don't remember --One rant over

I really don't know where to start, I'm seeing more Drs. and taking more meds now thatn ever and feel awfl most of the time--Alot of the things that are going on are things the Drs. just order tests but I hear I'm sure it's nothing, then tests come back and I have to either rush and stay in the hospital or take or change meds. All I hear is this is so unusual --My diarreha has been examined by at least 7 different Dr.s and no one can figure it out and I get violent bouts, which depletes everything, dehydrate me in one day and I'm eshausted. It makes no difference in what I eat, how I eat, when or anything. I have had every test under the sun and moon and nothing is wrong. Now the silly thing---My sister, and cousin have very similiar problems--they did tests and all and nothing. And I'm tired of hearing this shouldn't be happening. IT'S HSPPENING I take meds--they doubled up on them and it's still going on--stayed away from dairy--sill going on. Started with chemo and never stopped--so see there are no rules. U;d think I'd be as skinny as a rail, but I'm not I have no active thyroid so they doubled up on those pills--Every organ has been compromised since chemo and my bones and at first my new onc didn't think I remember right when I told her how much chemo I had, OK then she got my records, just ,like she thought I got the wrong number of nodes out. Then she saw 39 herself and they were located not just by y breat but behind something __I don't know--I know this sounds strange but I was not afraid of my cancer at all---I played no waiting game--My PCP told me from the mammo it was awful and he was so upset he made my app't immediately and ordered everything but of course I told him to calm down I'll be fine and he was yelling u never take me seriously--this is cancer not just a cycst-It never botheredme that he told me--we've been together 35 urs. And he yelled at me about my hysterectimy cuz I put things off.  But now I have to see a cardiologist and this scares me totally I see him tomorrow and I'm blamin all this on chemo and meds And that's my rant--My heart??? that is the heart of me  Cancer sucks and seems like it's enjoying takin our bodies apart little by little, step by step as they say. My rant is over for today. I'm sorry it was so long but I'm so upset by all these things.

leahlee... dont you hate those messages?   If they are so sorry and value us... ANSWER THE BLOODY PHONE!!  Definitely worth a rant.

So I do have some good news I want to share with you all.  Saw my BS yesterday and I am NED.   Also got rid of those bloody drains.   Now just waiting for my radiation sessions to be coordinated.  

hey my name is Taylor im 15 years old and im really scared  that i have breast cancer.i dont want to be that 15 year old teen that everybody looks at as the girl that has breast cancer. im so scared. im going to the doctor next week to get it looked at.....

Taylor sometimes things aren't as bad as they seem.  It's good u'r going to the Dr. and then u will know for sure. It might be a cyst of sometype thst is totally benign.  We're all here for u whenever u need to talk or ask questions.U'll know soon and hopefully it will be fine. 

My rant for right now----LOL----I've gotten a few calls from hosp. and Dr.s offices saying my medicar/or caid whatever is telling them Cigna is my main ins. so to contact them--and visa/versa so I called med. and they looked it up and said ??? We are u'r main carrier we don't know why they're getting those answers. OK now I have to tell everyone they need to resubmit--but who the heck is sending them back? ooooo another bump in the road.

Well I guess we haven't had a lot to rant about lately... good thing ?

My rant for today... #20/28 of rads today and I am sick and bloody tired of people saying "nearly done"... "soon over".   In fact it isn't soon over, this is something I will live with every day of my life.  Next 2-3 years on tamoxifen then another 2-3 years of something else. 

Rant, rant, rant !!

I completely agree!



My rant-



I'm a very patient person- too much so really, but WHY IS IT SO SLOW?! I'm still waiting to hear from the surgeon to book the damn biopsy!!!! Arg!!!!! I love Canada, I do NOT love feeling like I need to wait quietly like a good little woman. Piss me off.



Thank you- that is all.



*sigh*