Hi ho, hi ho...it's off to scan I go!

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jennyboog
jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
edited June 2014 in Stage III Breast Cancer

I had an appt yesterday with my onc and she wants to do a PET, my last was 1 1/2 years ago, she says it's ok to do one once in a while.  I did mention my leg has been bothering me and I'm sure this is the real reason.  I don't want to, I'm just getting where I'm moving on and BC isn't on my mind every minute of the day.  My last TM's were good and she did more yesterday so I don't think they'll find anything but that "what if" is always there...do I even want to know...I'm so done with BC and yet it is never done with me :)  Just needed to vent sistahs, thanks!

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  • TectonicShift
    TectonicShift Member Posts: 752
    edited November 2018

    Sending good karma southward, Jenny!

  • kathleen1966
    kathleen1966 Member Posts: 793
    edited August 2012

    That sounds very stressful. Especially when everything is going soo well for you. I almost WISH my oncologist would do the same for me though.  Because I will NEVER ask for one but if I had this peace of mind, it would be a tremendous relief.  When I was first diagnosed I had zero scan anxiety.  I was not worried.  Now, I get soo nervous and worried every time I have to have blood drawn. So I'm sorry you have to have this scan anxiety.  I am also from the not wanting to know crowd. But....how nice it would be to get an all clear at the same time.  How else do they really know?  It DOES make sense.  I wish you wonderful clear results and then I will be jealous of the good nights sleep you will have that night!!!

  • sbelizabeth
    sbelizabeth Member Posts: 2,889
    edited August 2012

    We're in your pocket for the scan, Jenny.  Sorry you have to go through this.  You know Queen Victoria's advice about marital duties?  "Close your eyes and think of England."  There's something to be learned there.

  • Karina121293
    Karina121293 Member Posts: 370
    edited August 2012

    Jenny, good luck for the scan!!! The further we move, the more we get anxious about tests, don't we? I wish I never had to go for a check up. Last time I refused to do TMs, just can't handle the stress. I am turning from " want to know everything" to '' dont want to know anything''. You go ahead, get the clean results and that wonderful feeling of peace... Sending you lots of strength while you wait, my friend!!!!!

  • lkc
    lkc Member Posts: 1,203
    edited August 2012

    Jenny try to relax,

    I went thru have yrly Pets for 6 yrs!

    Sounds like your onc is just covering bases.

    Good luck and let us know when you get the all clear!

  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited August 2012

    Jenny,



    Good luck with the scans. Please keep us posted.



    (((Hugs)))



    The Mods

  • damazon
    damazon Member Posts: 66
    edited August 2012

    Hello,

    I was just newly diagnosed stage 3 breast cancer April of last year 2011,  and I have positive nodes.  I am worried, my neck and then after physio for it, my shoulder aches.  My body aches and I am scared.  I was hit by a, rearended by a truck (Chevy Tahoe SUV) last month (early July) and the doctor that checked me at the local clinic next door (the next day) said I had cervical whiplash.  However, the lady who hit me was cheery and said no damage but I am very worried.  I am to go for my first six month check up at the end of the month -- approximately two weeks.  Should I tell my oncologist I was hit or not mention it at all, what if, my spine has disintegrated, I have lobular cancer and I understand that is possible.  Do I have bone cancer that often comes with breast cancer, and that is why I have cervical problems with (my insurance call it a low velocity hit) or, ignore this idea with the oncologist and wait until my regular doctor comes back to service in September.  I am so confused and not just a little scared.  Any comments, experience, anyone.  Thanks,

  • bak94
    bak94 Member Posts: 1,846
    edited August 2012

    Jenny-We are with you for your scan! We all understand scanxiety, it sucks. But you will be so relieved when you get the all clear! I also have ct scan coming up, I stress as soon as I make the appointment. My insurance decided they would not pay for a pet scan because my last one was good, I don't really get it! My doc is mad!

    damazon-after my first bout with cancer I was in a collision. Went to the emergency room immediately and they did x rays right away. I was terrified they were going to find cancer, so I get your fear. It makes since that you hurt and not the lady who hit you, I think that is common. I would tell your oncologist, you should be checked out because of the accident. I also think I do not want to know and just go on until I have really bad symptoms, but I keep telling myself the scan doesn't change anything, either the cancer is there or it is not, and I guess I would really rather know than not know so I can fight it.

  • Elizabeth1959
    Elizabeth1959 Member Posts: 346
    edited August 2012

    Jenn

    I love your line. "I am so done with BC". I feel the same way. I'm sorry you have to worry. I'm looking for your update.

  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited August 2012

    Best of luck!!!

  • KSteve
    KSteve Member Posts: 486
    edited August 2012

    Jenny - I'm in the same boat as you.  Went to the breast surgeon on Weds for one year followup and mention headaches over the last 3-4 weeks and now I'm having an MRI on Monday with and without contrast just to make sure everything is ok.  Not sure I want a scan either.  I even tried to get out of it yesterday by calling back and telling her that I didn't have a headache for the first time in 3 weeks so maybe we could postpone the MRI.  She said no, she still wants a look.  Oh well, I guess I'll have my answer by Weds.  Bring on the scanxiety!  Good luck with yours too, Jenny.

    Kathy

  • clariceak
    clariceak Member Posts: 752
    edited August 2012

    Jenny - I agree with Karina.  Yes, scans suck and I'm sorry you have to have one.  But, it will be an awesome feeling when you get clear results.  A clear pet scan trumps tumor markers.  We'll be thinking of you.

  • Katharine2411
    Katharine2411 Member Posts: 48
    edited August 2012

    Good luck with the scans!!!! 

    I going for my second chemo round next week. Lost my hair this morning. Cried like a baby as hubby was buzzing my head. But it sure beats being dead. Plus, it grows back.. just hate looking like a cancer patient. Have scarves, turbins and wig ... but still. Cancer sucks. However, since all my tests were negative at least it didn't spread. Thanks for letting me vent. The only people that really get "it" are women with breast cancer, so thank you!!  I'm stage III too and intend to be around for many years to come!!

  • mary625
    mary625 Member Posts: 1,056
    edited August 2012

    I'm waiting on scan results from Monday. I was told it would be 3 business days and to start calling the onc on Wednesday. No word yet. He typically calls in the evening. I have bugged his poor assistant every day since Wednesday. Today, I said that I'd be willing to talk to one of the Fellows, but still no call. It was a CT scan, by the way, of the chest, I sure hope I don't have to go through the weekend not knowing. And to make matters worse, one of my cats has had oral cancer since April and is being put down tomorrow morning. Plus yesterday I found out I have gluten intolerance and will not be eating bread, cake, pasta (at least the regular ones) again. Thankfully, Whole Foods has a really good GF cupcake, and I may be having to have one this evening if this waiting goes on much longer!!!!

  • MaxineO
    MaxineO Member Posts: 555
    edited August 2012

    Good luck, Jenny. I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way! Just get this scan done and then you can go back to not thinking about BC every minute of the day.

    kSteve: best of luck to you too!

    mary625: I hope you get a cal soon. That is so frustrating.  They owe you timely results. Hoping for great outcomes!

  • mary625
    mary625 Member Posts: 1,056
    edited August 2012

    Got the call---everything was normal! Yippee! But I learned I have surgical staples in the area of my ALND. Didn't know that. No wonder it bothers me so much!

  • faithfulheart
    faithfulheart Member Posts: 544
    edited August 2012

    Jenn, sweeti..................This crapy pest.......What kind of pain is your leg in? I just wonder if that is the reason, and if so, my leg hurts all the time and my shoulder and so on....That scan is going to add years to your life...You will be so relieved to find out it's nothing!!!! you will be in my prayers, big time..............xo

    steph 

  • jennyboog
    jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
    edited August 2012

    Thanks so much everyone.  I am thinking hard about canceling it, I got so much going on right now and I just can't deal with it.  I'm finally feeling normal again and I don't want to go back down that road, I guess.  Thanks again for your well wishes and prayers.

    @faithful...I was told I have piriformis syndrome (sciatica).  My leg has a dull ache that feels deep within but when it's massaged it feels better.  It comes and goes from day to day and with different activites, I never know when.  I don't think it's BC, it started the day after my ooph and has hurt worse then anything I've dealt with from BC.  I kind of regret doing the ooph because of it but what's done is done. I think it's the positioning during surgery and I was told there is no cure...just exercises/stretching.   

  • Elizabeth1959
    Elizabeth1959 Member Posts: 346
    edited August 2012

    I faced something similar recently with elevated alk phos and elevated calcium. I decided not to scan. I figure mets wont go away. If present. I will have more symptoms. I also felt like I am having a good life right now. I'm not ready to walk down that road again. I'm on an AI so it's not like I'm on no tx. I think it is reasonable not to scan

  • faithfulheart
    faithfulheart Member Posts: 544
    edited August 2012

    Jenn , I have the same pain sweeti,  all the time. When I wear heels or am on my feet to long sometimes the pain is so bad, I have to take serious pain meds....I HAVE HAD A BONE SCAN AND I  think it is left over from chemo and tamox................This is the gift that keeps on giving love,  however,  we are here to deal with it....I just thank the Lord every day for that!

    You will be fine...IF YOU ARE NOT READY RIGHT NOW FOR A SCAN,  WAIT TILL YOU ARE IN THE RIGHT PLACE.....XO

    PM ME ANYTIME...LOVE YA!

    STEPH 

  • damazon
    damazon Member Posts: 66
    edited August 2012

    Hi,
    Thanks so much for replying. I might talk to my oncologist but she has made it clear (because I want the stats) that if it returns I will eventually die from breast cancer (if nothing else takes me first). So, do I really want to know? I think so, but I am afraid but then again, I like to think of myself as a warrior, hence, my name. Your note is encouraging.  Our future is uncertain, but, perhaps, our present will be the only reflection. I hope so and thanks again for your comments.

  • Robyn_S
    Robyn_S Member Posts: 197
    edited August 2012

    Hi Damazon- I noticed that you and I were diagnosed on the same day with almost identical stats ( my ILC is Prog +) curious!

    I am in a study and get yearly CT and bone scans which give peace of mind for a year if they show nothing! My first ones were three months ago and the Ct showed up a PE ( lung blood clot) a liver thingy? ? and a ground glass opacity in the lung .... I was feeling great until then!! Now on warfarin having regular blood clotting tests and waiting for CT scan results to see if the opacity is smaller or growing... And this was my first year! The liver thing was ultrasound examined - clear! I really get the whole scanxiety thing now! The bone scan was clear so I am positive that it will all be fine- but I will be going through this next year for every lump and bump to be checked and rechecked. I thought that being in the trial would give me peace of mind by being vigilant. I feel healthy now so will consider myself that until proven otherwise!!!

  • damazon
    damazon Member Posts: 66
    edited August 2012

    Hi Robyn,

    That is a coincidence and I live in Canada! I too had a liver thingy on my first scan, prior to chemo and after surgery. They called it TSTC (too small to classify). Like you, further testing with ultrasound found simple cyst. Very happy. My bone scan after chemo also all clear. Sorry to hear you have additional concerns but I plan to follow your lead -- good to go unless told otherwise. I had that attitude but I folded after bing hit by the big car. I like another member's quote, "Courage is not choosing to be brave, but standing firm in the face of adversity when options are limited."

    Robyn, may I ask why they did not send you for a completion ALND after your SNB? As I was clinically node negative at time of SNB surgery, and only node positive with macrometastes on IHC staining later after path report the felt they did not to wait longer to provide chemo as determining the actual count of positive nodes would not change my treatment plan.



  • damazon
    damazon Member Posts: 66
    edited August 2012

    Hi Robyn,

    That is a coincidence and I live in Canada! I too had a liver thingy on my first scan, prior to chemo and after surgery. They called it TSTC (too small to classify). Like you, further testing with ultrasound found simple cyst. Very happy. My bone scan after chemo also all clear. Sorry to hear you have additional concerns but I plan to follow your lead -- good to go unless told otherwise. I had that attitude but I folded after being hit by the big car. I like another member's quote, "Courage is not choosing to be brave, but standing firm in the face of adversity when options are limited."

    Robyn, may I ask why they did not send you for a completion ALND after your SNB? As I was clinically node negative at time of SNB surgery, and only node positive with macrometastes on IHC staining later after path report received they felt they did not to wait longer to provide chemo as determining the actual count of positive nodes would not change my treatment plan.



  • lanagraves
    lanagraves Member Posts: 596
    edited August 2012

    Scanxiety sucks!!!! So sorry you're having to deal with this, jenny and others. I am in the same boat right now. Just finished chemo late June, about to finish rads, and my RO freaked me out about a spot they found on my rib a couple of months back, which wasn't there on my pre-chemo PET. He repeated rib detail x-rays and it hasn't changed or grown, but it's still there. And I have to wait until I finish rads to get a PET, which I'm not even sure I want. I go back and forth, one day I want to know, the next day I don't. This beast never really leaves us alone, does it? (((Hugs))) to all dealing with scanxiety right now.

  • KSteve
    KSteve Member Posts: 486
    edited August 2012

    Had my brain MRI yesterday and just got a call from my dr.  All clear!  No mets in my brain at this time.  Woo hoo!  Doing the happy dance.  What a relief. 

    What about you, Jenny?  And lanagraves, I highly recommend getting the scan when you're able.  Remember, knowledge is power when it comes to this beast.  But I do understand your hesitation because I tried to talk my way out of mine last week too.  Luckily, my dr said we needed to do the scan.  Now I can breathe again.  But if it had been bad news, at least I could have started fighting sooner, than later.

    Hugs to all,

    Kathy

  • Robyn_S
    Robyn_S Member Posts: 197
    edited August 2012

    Good on you Kathy for a clear scan!!! Such a relief!! I got the all clear after my follow up CT so feeling fantastic! No reason not to feel healthy now!!!

    Hi Damazon! I was offered an ALND after the sentinel returned positive but I the research before shows that it would not improve survival rate and I was going to need chemo regardless. I had to stand my ground a bit on that one as the board was 50/50 on ALND. LE is not a trifling issue for me and the SN gave me the information we needed for TX.

    All clear scans - yahoo!! I am 100% cancer free Till next year !!! :)

  • damazon
    damazon Member Posts: 66
    edited August 2012

    Great news Robyn, very happy for you!!! Thanks for your details on ALND. My team recommended not to do an ALND on the same logic you provided. I am very happy that I did not do a completion ALND but was anxious initially as I was one of the first in British Columbia to follow this route. The team based their recommendation on the basis of Z0011 trials and I was concerned. Stage 3 and women with mastectomies were not allowed to be part of that trial. Thank you so much for your note, I am eternally grateful.

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