March 2012 chemo

Congrats TG! My last one is Thursday!

Januaryice- the pain has started in this morning in my legs and back so far just taking ibuprofen but we will see how long I make it before I give in and take a real pain pill. I think what kept it at bay was staying busy all day yesterday walking around outside a lot. May have to get back out there and see if it helps.

lanagraves- almost there!!!

TrailGirl-I can't wait to be able to say the LAST ONE!  

kltb-hope your coming out of your funk. It's too quiet on here with out your stories.

onvacation-hope your energy improves. How is your Dad doing? 

lanagraves-I would celebrate if I was you.

Made it most of the day, but I'm giving in and taking the pain pill. Hanging out on the couch the rest of the day.

Kim - glad your dad is doing well!  I hear you on the heat.  Our grass is totally dead.  DH is glad that he doesn't have to mow but it is just dangerously dry.

Sissydi - halfway there

Lost - stay ahead of the pain!  I do the same thing though - put it off as long as possible to take the pain pills.

lana -  yay on Thursday being your last chemo!!

TG - your last one was today, right? 

Thx all - yesterday after I posted I had a really productive day.  Not so much today.  My mom had to take my oldest for her 12 year old well child visit which included vaccination boosters and bloodwork.  And she got a referral to a dermatologist because she has a weird brown spot on her lower lip.  Which I have heavily researched and am convinced is nothing terrible but the dr referred her because of "my situation" - ????  If it was some kind of (God forbid) skin cancer precursor, that would have nothing at all to do with BC.  But anyway.

Busy couple of days coming up...MO tomorrow, then grocery store (hope my counts are up) to buy stuff for youngest DD's birthday party Thursday.  And have to help her clean up her room - it is just a disaster area.  She comes out yesterday (after she was supposed to be cleaning) with her head in her hands and said "I just can't focus."   I think she has heard us talking about her lack of organization, etc...and is using it now.  Then my mom tells me today that my aunt and cousin are coming to town Thursday as well and want to "come by and see me".  And my mil and DH's nephew may or may not be stopping here on their way to OK on Saturday.  So I go from nothing at all to do to a million things to do.

Kim- glad your dad is getting better. I gave up and put my wig in a drawer. It's even to hot for scarves but I keep on wearing them.  Get some rest.

kltb- you reminded me that my DS is due his checkup. Won't he be happy with you. lol

TrailGirl- glad everything went good for the last TX. And no shot!! But now I want cupcakes.

Took a pain pill earlier that sent me to a nap and now wide awake at 1.  What to do? Guess I should try to be productive and write something for our blog, but that's hard to do with chemo brain. Maybe just play solitaire. And wish for donuts. I've managed to gain almost 10 lbs since this started. That's a good thing for me I had lost way to much before.

Done rambling. 

Januaryice- sorry about the leg pain, I can relate that's where most of mine is. Makes me feel very old. I have had some numbness in my little fingers and toes but it doesn't last long, it comes and goes. I'm wondering if the fingers aren't from all the years I worked in a factory that cause carpal tunnel. I had issues with it before treatment when I still worked there. But not any since I left that job.

Went to put a pork roast in my crock pot for dinner tonight and it didn't fit. For some reason this completely overwhelmed me and I didn't know what to do, just wanted to cry. DH saved the day by taking it out to the smoker.

Ugh, I WAS feeling better until I went to the MO today.  Had a straightforward appt, nothing new, nothing bad and I was getting ready to leave when the nurse was going over the upcoming appts and labs with me.  Then she said "I am going to make a note to myself that your calcium levels are a little high."  And I literally felt ice cold fear running through my whole body.   I know that is a warning sign of bone mets. 

She said it was at 10.6 and the high threshhold of normal is 10.2.  Tried to reassure me that it could mean nothing, it could be diet related but I don't take any kind of calcium supplements or anything.  But I am not reassured   Nothing to do now but wait and see if they go down.

I am of course, very worried but feeling somewhat at peace with the whole situation...there is nothing I can do to change it.  I went to Wal-Mart right after and a lady who worked there was stocking shelves and said something along the lines of you look very pretty or nice or something.  I just smiled at her and said thank you.  A few seconds later she called out to me and said "M'am, I just wanted to let you know that things will be ok, you are a survivor."  I immediately teared up said "I sure hope so, I got what might be bad news today" and she just said something along the lines of God being bigger than any bad news I had gotten and it would be ok.  Makes me tear up again now just thinking about it.

Ktlb: whoa! What a day! Glad that it turned out to be nothing after all but Sheesh! A little roller coaster, right?

My birthday tomorrow. 44. On some level of course having a day to celebrate getting older is a gift... And I FEEL that intensely, grateful for all of every day. (except when

I feel particularly like crap)

Yet I find myself getting teary

about it for some reason.....don't get it. Just tired, I guess. Really tired.

Birthday aside, I am feeling less able to be gracious and "handle" everything well... Again probably just tired and have fewer resources as time goes on...

kltb - whew!  Glad that worked out ok, but sheesh they should have called you.  The walmart story is great, lovely, caring people out there!

WOOHOO to those finishing treatment and hugs to those having some SE.

 I still have numb fingers and toes and bad nails, but I hope that will pass after I finish up next week, or shortly there after!

Hot has heck her 105!  UGH - no relief in site!  I will be staying indoors for sure! 

Yay Gabbi!  I am 2 weeks PFC and it seems like the last one wore me out the most.  Hopefully, your last one was a breeze.  Now, it's time to get the body/immune system back strong.  Take care!

That was suppose to be a pic of my thermometer. It's 115 outside here.

OMG!  That has to be some kind of record too!  We are cooler here today, clouds and some rain again this p.m. - hoping the fires stay under control! 

Hi Love74!  Good to hear from you!  I hope your swelling and soreness goes away soon.  I'll be interested to see how the tamoxifen works for you; that's ahead for me, too.

lana - Awesome news on the cracked rib, lol!  Wish mine was, ha!  But I guess that would've showed up in the xray so I will just keep telling myself it is either muscular or mild truncal LE   And so glad you are done with chemo!

Love, good to hear from you and glad you are doing well.

Indigo, glad you all got some rain.  I have come to the conclusion it is never going to rain here again.

lost - 115 - aargh!  It was 108 here yesterday.  My dad is building a shop at their new house and he can only work for a very few hours in the early mornings because of the heat.

Happy Belated Birthday KCB - I know what you mean about mixed emotions.  I am all for having birthdays and getting older now.

Kim - I am staying in too - the only time I leave is for drs appts.  And my hot black van seems to take forever to cool down.

Gabbi - congrats on last TX!

tc - hopefully you are feeling stronger and better ever day.

Well, after I posted on Wednesday, the orginal nurse that I saw that day DID call me back and said that she was going to call me once the redone results came through but I beat her to it.  I still don't know what it was before and how much it HAS risen but 9.2 is well within the normal limits.  I am just going to have to work on this aspect of my personality as it is something that I am going to have to deal with from now on and not assume worst case scenario.

Finally had youngest's DD birthday party yesterday - just family but it turned out cute - I will post a couple pics in a bit.  The theme was potbellied pigs.  Then my kids begged for my neices and nephew to stay over for the night and I gave in and let them.  They all come as a package deal because the nieces are twins (and only 8 months older than my youngest) and then the nephew is a year younger so he really feels excluded if he doesn't get to participate (and being the only boy).

Then today is my DH's birthday and it kind of got pushed to the side with all the planning for DD's party.  But I got my brother to stop in and buy me a cake mix on the way to pick up the kids this morning so we are at least doing that and the kids are making cards.  Then my mom offered to babysit tomorrow if we want to go somewhere.   His gift is some computer game that I could never remember the name of to buy so I guess I will just let him get it himself

Next TX is Monday and I will be getting Nuelasta this time around so looking forward to a lovely week of SE's next week!