Was in denial

My mom called me 5/25/12 and tells me she found a lump in her breast. My response was "oh mom it's probably just fat" lol. My mom has BIG breast home grown and my mom having breast cancer is crazy we don't have family history. On 5/31/12 she tells me she has to have a biopsy and again I hear her but still on the it's probably just a growth. My bday was on 6/2 so she and u went to the casino and stayed out all night ( too much fun). On 6/6/12 she had the biopsy and on 6/8/12 it was confirmed. Now that should have been my wake up call but it wasn't still I felt as though I was dreaming. I didn't get the slap in the face until I went with her to a doctors appt. I sat across from the doctor and next to my mom. I looked at my mom who was talking with her hands she never does that and I remember her saying something about shock. I looked at her doctor who is old, old enough to be my grandad and thought he's been doing this for decades. I guess he could see I wasn't really there but his next jest ire woke me up. He looked at me and every wrinkle in his face got deeper and he pointed his finger at me and said, " NOW YOU HAVE TO GET TESTED." What? I threw my hands up and said this is padding Victoria's Secret miraculous bra all padding. At that moment my mom and him laughed so hard at me but I realized then this was really happening my mom has breast cancer.

Triple negative stage 3b grade 3 with her KI at 96%. A very aggressive cancer that will lose at whatever it thinks it has planned. I know she has to be strong and has to fight but it has always been me and her so my strength will be her strength to beat this thing she ain't going no where until I say ok and I ain't say ok. We haven't started treatment yet she goes in for her bilateral masctomy on 6/27/12. We go for a second opinion on the 25 just to make sure we really aren't dreaming and maybe a little hopeful wishing the old guy got it wrong. The journey is just starting but I know that at the end we will be stronger and closer than ever.