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Thanks ladies...........appreciate all your thoughts and prayers.............talked to her this morning...she called the hosp. they told her a suspicious spot in the left breast seen by both the Dr.and the Radio., so they want a retake......only 2 days a week do they do it, which is Mon, and Fri, and she is leaving for Chicago to see her sons on Thursday, not returning till Tuesday, so it will be done Tuesday................never heard of 2 day a week retakes.......told her to go to the Breast Cancer Center where I went and to see my BC surgeon, and they will do it today, or tomorrow.........she said "no"............although if it is something, that is where she will end up...my BC surgeon was "the best".....................but its her body, I can only suggest..............will keep everyone informed as to how she does..............they know I have had BC so maybe they are just being extra careful...............I was called back 2 times.........the first time nothing..........second time cancer..................she was called back 2 years ago, it was aspirated, and said was nothing...........this is her second time call back after a mam, but it is the other breast...........last time it was the right side........now the left...........time will tell......

Thanks to my Dr's I've never had a call back on a mammo.  When I saw my PCP after I found the lump he wrote the order for a "mammogram to be followed immediately by an ultrasound if indicated".  My surgeon and my MO write their orders the same way.  The Radiologist at the Imaging Center always talks to me after the appointment to give me the results. 

This last time two small lumps that had been there (found by me and confirmed by my MO) the time before and appeared to be of no concern were gone.  I had just seen my surgeon a couple of months before my last mammo and he couldn't find the lumps.  The Dr. at Imaging told me Dr M is legendary for many reasons and his sensitive fingers are one of them. According to him, Dr M is more accurate at determining the size and type of a mass in the breast than he can be with the best instruments available.

Ladies.........I asked her to go to the "Breast Center" where I went, which is connected to Fox Chase Hospital in Philly which is one of the major cancer centers in this area.........she did what she wanted............I do belive she is still going to think about it the whole time she is in Chicago......at lest had she gone today to the Breast Center, she would have known either way..............from my experience with BC, not knowing is worse then knowing................but it is her body...............and she will do what she wants.........she never was one to take my advice....guess she thinks I just fell off the back of the "turnip truck".............but then again she is "college" educatated, and thinks she knows it all................................Me I would have wanted to find out right away, if it were possible...................her choice...............

Today I was out shopping and found flowers for 75% off. I bought 2 different rose bushes and flower bulbs. I'll have to dig some holes in my yard tonight. I always wanted rose bushes of all colors especially yellow.

Been awhile since I posted, but have read some.  Too tired to anything, even pop.

Sassy - yes, I am a skunk person but those baby skunks were not from my pics.  I did have a baby rehab once that I got to keep.  Sequoia, we called him Pooh.  I wrote abook about him and baby (Jeronimo).  They got desaced, it's like fixing them, no big deal unless the sac breaks during then the vet hates that.  Some vets do it in the field just in case LOL...

Ducky, so sorry to hear about your daughter needing more tests.

Veggy, sounds like you feel a little better to be digging holes.  I have been gardening ever since we moved here at mid-April, I missed it so much after being locked into my house away from the wood boiler and fumes, I am gardening it up even when I don't have the energy, will take pics some day.

I thought the end of the month was next week. It is the following the week. So, I have to stay strong a bit longer. I am taking off tomorrow because of a couple of doctor's appointments, but I am hoping to work throughout the rest of the month. I had a hard time last week, and I took of Monday and Friday. Oh well. I am going to do my best to go out strong, and if I must take off, then I will.

What a lovely day today! Such a nice cool breeze was blowing through my front window. This was a real treat after the hot weather we had been having. It also means I may not have to use my AC tonight, which is a money saver. That's my attitude of gratitude for today.

I planted two big rows of radishes and my two rose plants. I also cleared out part of the yard that was overgrown with stink weeds. I stil have bulbs to plant, but that's for another day. I must be feeling a little better today (mentally).

Hugs to everyone!

I've always wanted rose bushes maybe one day my husband will plant them for me. I don't so gardening...

Tonight was the first time I took off the bandages and bra after my exchange. I showered (finally) and put on my pjs. I looked at myself and just started crying. I don't know why. I didn't know what to expect. I just want to cry again. I'm afraid if I turn off the tv I'm going to cry again. Hopefully I'll just fall asleep with it on.

Not sure. Maybe I was expecting to feel like a hot mama with my new boobs. Not feeling that at all. I feel crappy.

I hope someone else comes on here and gives you some feedback Lauren. I still have my TE. I do know about falling apart, though, about going from being positive and upbeat about the whole process to freaking out when the worst is over. For me, the crying and all is about losing who I was before and knowing that I have to deal with this forever -- and not knowing how to do that. I encourage you to keep talking about it. I was stuck in that place for, I don't know how long, maybe a month? I just don't know. I'm beginning to come out of it. So if this has any relevance for you, it is not a permanent feeling.

Maybe im coming to the realization that this is the new me. A year ago I was saying how my kids sucked the life out of my boobs, but I'd never get a boob job voluntarily. How stupid was I to say something like that? I almost feel like I was punished for saying that. Now look at me - I got my new boobs,but all this crap that comes along with it. I also did something not so great last year (way long story, but I'm lucky I have a great husband) and I also feel liked was punished for that, too. It's been just an overwhelmingly emotional 8 months...

I agree, shit happens and you in know way caused this and sides MY God does not punish.  No way does She ever do that.  She did send you to this site and sent to you all the ladies on these boards to help you.

so there!♥

That is so true, Wren. The last time I walked out of the hospital after all the treatments I thought, "That's it?" No fanfare. No diploma. No bell to ring. I've been seeing a counselor. It helps. HUGS.

Thanks, to each and every one of you. For making me feel like I'm not alone in this. I'm not sure what's going on, or why I continue to cry like a baby, even now. But I know I have my sisters here, which I appreciate more than you will ever know.



Love, Lauren