How to Live?

Hi Everyone,

I'm writing this because I feel stuck at the moment. I am stage IV and not terminal. My problem is my current limitations and feeling like I am still doing Anything worthwhile. I had IBC in 2003. It came back in 2011 in my liver, lungs, bones, skin and of course lymphnodes. Treatment went great! My first PETscan after treatment showed it was gone in everything but a few spots in the bone, which were contained. Within one month from that scan it was already showing up in multiple places. Back on meds now.

Ok, history done, now my dilemma. My lungs are scarred and walking from one end of my hallway (not a long way) to the other leaves me out of breath. I don't have a car right now as someone hit it and it was totaled. I am not working due to disability. I live in the desert, so the outside temps are usually in the 100's during summer. I do love crafts, but hate just going from bed to couch and back. I feel so limited, but do NOT want to do nothing!! I am working on an afghan right now and am looking at possible sewing projects for the future. I wish I could do a garden but can't survive the outside heat. I can't walk to the bus stop and have no car to drive. I can "plan" to borrow a car, but do not have the freedom of "oh hey, I want to go pick up..." whatever catches my fancy I am going to talk to my oncologist about oxygen when I see him next week.

What I am hoping for is any suggestions of things to do. Ways to feel like I am still contributing to my family or even just still having a life. If I loved housework I would be set, but I don't lol. I love learning new things. I am considering learning how to invest. I'd just have to do it small as we don't have much extra money, that is the problem with crafts sometimes too. I am not trying to be negative, but realistic. Anything will be helpful, please!! Thank you to all in advance.