I don't give a flying fiddlers, I'm venting and for good reason!

April 30th I ranted here and said............. http://community.breastcancer.org/forum/102/topic/765804?page=10

"Where do I start!!!

I was diagnosed August 3rd of last year. I come from a family of 8(3sisters and 4 brothers). One of my sisters came back into my life after an exit of nearly 5 years(she wasn't talking to most of the family for yrs). During the course of 3 months she kept hinting at me to cast members of my family out of my life because according to her they are not christian and do not lead a christian life, so when I told her I will not she dumped me in November last year.Saying that she was frothing at the mouth because another one of my sisters walked out on me and she had the nerve to say if she bumps into her she will give her a piece of her mind walking out on her sister who has cancer!!!!!!!! I bumped into her and her husband over a month ago and she totally ignored me when I said hello to her and looked right through me like I wasn't there, heard afterwards that she was complaining that I should have be out of the bed and making dinner or tending to my daughters as her neighbour was peeling potatoes and getting on with things when she had her chemo and look at me in the bed(in bed becuse of side effects of chemo and neulasta)!!!!Not to mention she didn't have a good word to say about me behind my back. My other sister when I was having the BMX told another sister that I've always been an attention seeker and that when I come around from the surgery she said that I'm(me) hoping it's terminal for the attention!!. I didn't find out my other sister said that until 3 weeks after the surgery when for months she had been planning a baby naming ceremony for her daughter who was born in June of last year and because it was a pagan ceremony, I told her I can't attend because I'm a christian, I found my faith in Christ and he has been holding me together since my diagnosis and I didn't wish to attend. Well she started roaring at me in my own home at 11.15pm calling me names and stormed out of my house with the baby and said she was never speaking to me again, that was the same day I got my drains removed. Then she proceeded to overstep her boundaries and call into a friend of mine whom I had been friends with for many years. To make matters worse my so called friend let her in to her home and my sister talked all about herself and never asked about me once. My sister called into my friend a few times and my friend called into her and my friend entertained her and phoned her to run errands for her having known how upset I was the way my sister treated me. My sister didn't talk to me for nearly 7 months and sent me a text in February asking can we be friends(after I finished chemo mind you). I met her in a coffee shop and she proceeded to tell me that she knows things will never be the same between us but would like her daughter to know my four daughters and me.I have forgiven my sister but I'm not close to her the way I used to be at all.

I have today let my friend go because I felt that she has been totally disloyal to me calling into my sister and even found out today that my sister picked her daughter up from montessori when she wasn't talking to me!! and she called into my sister a few times and had coffees with her, is it just me overreacting and being too sensitive?????I have always been there for my friend over the years and when it was her turn to be there for me she wasn't. She called in not so often and and a few phonecalls since my diagnosis,never once dropping by when I was going through chemo with a dinner or an offer to take my younger daughters out to the park or wherever.

Well that's my extra long rant over!

I do however have two family members I can depend on. My eldest sister has been there for me through thick and thin and my eldest brother. My other brothers do their own thing and are busy with their lives. I do not have the pleasure of parents to fall back on at all as I was raised in an orphanage and my parents live in England(Long story!)

What I do have is a wonderful supportive husband whom I love dearly and he is amazing and I can depend on him 24/7 and wonderful children. I am truly blessed with the other friends I have who have been there for me and some who have come back into my life.

Blessings Everyone

Maria

NOW! Today I was invited to my niece's birthday party. I went along with my DH and four DD's. There I was minding my own business and actually enjoying catching up with family and low and behold who walks in the door only my EX friend who I cut loose out of my life after being my friend for many many yrs. My SISTER invited her to her daughters party . After two hours this ex friend comes over to me and tries to strike up a conversation with me and I turned around to my other sister and said " She has a bloody Nerve".Oh well drama queen ex friend had the neck to call my sister who invited her and say"Your sister is starting on me".........

 I AM SO UPSET and livid at the same time. 

I had been a fantastic friend to her for over 14 years . I  feel both betrayed by my sister and my ex best friend.

SOME PEOPLE really go out of their way to feck with peoples heads.

I'll have to repent for the sailors mouth on me this afternoon.

Maria