No attorney will help me, because of divided opinion!

Thank you for your replies.  I didn't realize I had replies.

I was diagnosed with DCIS in 2009.  My first surgery was partial mastec. (lumpectomy), at Fallbrook Hospital.  The technician that was supposed to locate the titanium implant could not find it... she struggled for quite a while, asked for help, I was x-rayed over and over and over for a good hour while she tried to find it.  Next, she asked for help with an ultrasound; he couldn't find the titanium ball either.  Finally, another tech came in about the same time my surgeon called wanting to know why his patient had not presented to the surgical suite.  All this had taken almost two hours and I was late for my surgery.  The tech explained what was happening, and because I had an implant, she stated fearing having to rupture the implant.  My surgeon told her to not worry about rupturing the implant, because it was going to be removed during the lumpectomy.  The original tech and the new one that came to assist subsequently and almost immediately after the phone call decided that they had seen the titanium ball, injected me with the blue dye that marks biopsy area.  I presented for surgery and had my lumpectomy.  The tissue excised was negative for cancer.  I next went for seven weeks of radiation.  Following radiation I underwent reconstruction and moved on with my life, or so I thought.  My first mammogram showed "there still remains" or "recurrence..." as I stated above.  This was in May 2010.  It took me until July to communicate again with my first surgeon (referrals, trying to find a radiologist willing to biopsy, etc.), and he told me that because the radiologist was afraid of rupturing the new implant (following reconstruction), to biopsy, that he would either find me a Dr. willing to biopsy or I could wait until November (six months) and mammogram again, because it just seemed impossible that recurrence would be evident so soon with such low grade DCIS on first biopsy.  I consulted with my PCP, told him the story about what had happened at Fallbrook and he told us that he thought that maybe the first surgeon may not have "gotten it all," which would have been a possible explanation for the tissue excised with no evidence of cancer for the lumpectomy.  I began to wonder if the techs had marked the wrong place during the attempt to discover the titanium ball... but my surgeon stated quite firmly that could not be the case because the titanium ball was identified upon excision.  I waited until November to repeat mammogram and it was the same: biopsy, so I biopsied and it was DCIS again.  I went to UCI, they wanted full mastectomy, I felt that was not exactly the correct answer, so I went to Loma Linda, and it was at Loma Linda where I gave up... I didn't know what the truth was, I told my surgeon at Loma Linda everything, but she simply agreed with UCI.  When I asked her how long I would have, she told me that I should have a mastectomy within six months.  I found out later that amount of time (six months) was kind of arbitrary.  And now, now I am how I am, missing my right breast, still going through reconstruction.  I feel like there is nobody that I can talk to, nobody that cares... and I wonder how many other women have been through the same thing: lumpectomy, radiation (skin compromised--issues down the road with lungs is a risk--) constaint pain, lack of strength, and depression.  I spent a mini-fortune buying tons of clothes until I finally realized that I was purchasing clothes in an attempt to redefine myself.  Now I feel like crawling in a corner and hiding until I can truly just be myself again, which I will never be.  I work and I do well, but it is hard, it is a daily struggle, and I feel ashamed of myself, because I know so well how many tons and tons of other ladies are struggling with "real" cancer, how many people are maimed on a daily basis... which means to me that I have no right to feel sorry for myself.  Today, I hate all surgeons and all lawyers that think of the money only; not one seems willing to understand... something obviously happened and it should not happen to anyone again, ever, which is why I am posting this here.  It is the only thing that I think I can do.