I'm bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

I finally got the connection between what I put in my mouth and the reaction my body has -- i.e., higher blood sugar.  I am  a bit slow but finally got it!  My blood sugar, fasting, is running under 100 - this morning it was 79 which is a little low.  I had blood drawn last Thursday, waiting for doctor to call about my A1C (blood sugar).  I lost 40 pounds (still going on to lose an additional 30) by good old fashioned will power and a lot of sugar-free gum!  Every day is a struggle.  I sympathize with anyone trying to lose weight!  I keep mentally reminding myself - food is NOT you friend, food will not solve any problem, comstant grazing is for cow and if I don't want to look like one stop eating everything in sight.  I continuously remind myself that food is a choice.  I am not dieting, just making a choice.  I can rationalize anything!

Good luck!

Prayers EWB! Those quilts are beautiful!!!! Kathleen...40 pounds?? That is amazing. I so need to loose it too, but like Barbe...NO willpower.

Now I am really confused.  I met with a vascular surgeon yesterday.  For those just joining us I have been told that I need to have a "rotor rooter" job on my legs.  I went in for what I thought was resolution to this problem only to have the guy "map" my legs and do nothing to fix the problem!  And then I could not get anyone to call me back!  I finally got the report from my primary care doctor.  Guess what?  This one says it would have been an 'easy fix' but that with diet and exercise I probably didn't need it!  I have also been told that I need my carotid artery fixed - his tests showed that it wasn't bad enough to do anything about it.

I made an appointment with an orthopedist to inquire about a hip replacement - I see him on March 16th.  The pain in my legs is getting intolerable.  If he tells me I don't need a hip replacement I'm going to wave the white flag!

When I went to the ER for stroke-like symptoms at the end of October, they told me my CAT scan and MRI were normal.  The neurologist came in and said I had, in fact, had a stroke!  When I again went to the ER in January the ER doctor said there were significant changes in the CAT scan from October and ordered another MRI.  The neurologist said I did not have a stroke.  What the hell is going on?

Barbe ... thanks ... sorry you have had to go through this too!  It gets more complicated but its not worth the time to write about.  I feel like my health care is being performed by committee!

Thanks Pat.  I am really fed up with all of them!  What gets me is that two different doctors are saying something different about the same medical problem.  It just seems to me that if my legs are blocked, tests would say the same thing and there would be an agreement no matter who looked at the test - and the same test should have the same outcome no matter who read it.  I am going to have a hip replacement because that pain in getting intolerable - unless two separate sets of x-rays are interpreted differently!

When I read some of these stories about "families" it makes me cringe..........thank God for mine.............they were so attentive, they smothered me...............the hospital Dr.s and staff would laugh and say "she has her own entourage"............and this was every Dr. visit, surgery, biopsy, and even though I could drive 15 minutes to my Rad treatments (33)...........I never went to one alone....................what the hell is family for..........but I guess the old saying is true................One mother can raise 6 children......but 6 children can't take care of one mother.........I had 6..............some missed nothing.....others were there for most...............I am blessed.........

But your right about friends...........look what I found here.........I 'couldn't ask for better.....hugs.

My family sucks except my daughter, she is 18 but such a sweetheart. My sister is a B***** and my brothers and their wives never come. my dad too old my mom cares but again too old.

yes I am mad and ....

bela 

I, too just found this topic.  This last year has been awful.. I am so sick of people saying I love your hair, you look so good with gray hair. To me, It is a neon sign of the year I just got through.  I am on the generic of Arimidex and have the most awful shoulder aches.  Sometime I just want to cry. My energy is shot and I do not handle stress at all. I cannot sleep with out help and have heat attacks,  not flashes.  People who have not experienced this do not understand.  I try to be strong, but all I really want to do is curl up on the couch and stay there.  I know I am not going to die (at least not now) from this and I am thankful it was found early,but two little spots caused a mascetomy, chemo, and all this other crap.  BC is a witch!!!

Today I am consulting with an orthopedic surgeon about a hip replacement.  The pain in my hip and legs is getting to the point of extremely annoying!  I used to walk a mile or two (taking my sister's dogs for a walk) and lately I can't make it to the end of the driveway!  My conflicting medical needs are frustrating to say the least.  I have a diabetic foot ulcer that has stubbornly refused to close and I am told to put as little pressure as possible on it.  A vascular surgeon and my cardiologist tell me to walk 30 minutes a day.  My hip kills me walking any distance at all.  Would any other medical professional care to weigh in?

I'm sorry that there are so many problems out there.  Family does suck.  I learned very early in life that if I wanted to rely on anyone it had better be me!  My journey with breast cancer was no exception.

Harley ... congrats!

I love this forum. U go girls!

So, what miracle ends this thread?? did everyone suddenly and dramatically get happy? do l need to regurgitate the last year of misery, heartache, medical mayhem and family horrors to get y'all bitchin again??? how bout the one where the car battery blows up? Oh, yeah.. In my sisters driveway. OOh.. The one where the old and very weird now-ex bf of DD1 stalked her apt eventually breaking in a third floor window at 7 am because a nice guy from work walked her home and they fell asleep talking. ...he was armed too. Wait.. The one where the elderly mom is so mean to one of her three kids that those grown up grandkids are afraid of her. Or maybe the one about the Major ins co canceling our 28 yr old policy because it had a $100 deductible & blamed it on some rust spots on the garage door, which we fixed. the computer crashed, the dog died, the test results were inconclusive .. But continue expensive treatment anyway.

IT NEVER LET'S UP! I figure when the drama/trauma ends - - I'll be a goner.



I think l missed my boat. You know, the one where you are all grown up and border on being financially successful? THAT boat. Can l get a do-over? My boat sank.



~Connie

when i can't bitch, it will be over..  you go girl!

Connie...............congrats girlfriend................wow....5 years.............If for no other reason I wish I was 5 years (except at 77 I might not see 5 more years).........but if I do, I will be off Femara...................hate that shit, hate the aches, pains, LE, thin hair.............and finding myself "crying" at a hallmark commercial...............oh Lord, let me feel like my "old self" for just 1 day.......................1 day without pain somewhere................even I'm sick of listening to myself "bitch".....................hugs Connie, and congrats again......................here's hoping for many more cancerversary years for you.

Connie..................this website, and yo ladies have kept me from going off the deep end many times........face it, after everyone thinks "she's doing great" ..........................they have no idea...............If only they knew......................I think.....................look into my eyes...........do they look like the eys of a person that is "happy"................yes it beats the alternative, but I think sometimes...............does it really...............then reality shakes me back into my senses, and I think......................yes I need to be here, if not for me........for everyone else......................and I go on, into another day.....of not knowing...................hugs Connie

God help us....................SHE'S NOT HEAVY.........SHE'S MY SISTER..........LOVE YA.