Fuzzy's Romp Room

Oh GrannyDuke I hope everything comes back good. I'll be praying for Brian. Good Luck!

I have something I need to vent about - my sister. We're 5 years apart and she lives in Flordia. We're very different people, but that's no excuse... I had my BMX January 23 and still no visit. So I told her last week that I was feeling bad that she didn't come, and she was chock full of excuses. She couldn't get time of work, she was trying to figure out what to do about her son's school and financial aid, and she thought her husband might lose his job. So I felt a little bad that I said something (even though she and the kids went on a week cruise last month). Today i see on Facebook that they booked a weekend trip to Legoland!!!! Really???? What kind of problems is she really having, other than she's a Selfish bitch? I am so hurt and offended and am not sure what to do at this point. I'm almost at the point of never wanting to speak to her again. Which is extra sad because our kids are close and they love each other so much. I'm so sad, and angry, and sick feeling. I never thought this would happen between me and my sister...

Lauren......is it possible the Cruise was already booked, and Legoland is in Fl., and maybe a flight to NY was an expense she hadn't planned on.........................Her excuses did sound "lame"...and she almost seemed prepared as to what she would say, if you ever asked why she didn't come.................Don't let this destroy your relationship with your sister.........as a mother of 6 it breaks my heart when I see my kids having problems with each other.........especially since your children and hers are so close............it happened to my husband, and it has happened to my son-in=law...................plus Sheila is right, (although I think it is a shitty excuse for not being there for someone when they need you.......................some people can't handle a cancer diagnosis................hugs to you.

Ladies.........so sorry your not going to be able to see each other tomorrow........but we all know "family comes first"...............................just hope  Granny, Annette, Brian and Annette's mother are going to be ok.........................you will get to meet again..................

Fuzzy, the thought og no insurance must be so very frightening.  I do so hope you find a solution.  Good luck my friend.  Wish I could just add you to mine as a dependent!

LAUREN, don't know if my experience with my brother will help, but during the decade of 2000, my fractured back from an old car wreck got worse then, plus I was in my 50s, and I got to where I couldn't work anymore.  My brother did not take this very seriously, but of course he lived in another state, so he didn't have much real-time info, until my mother told me she told him I had been very sick for several years.  It was like night and day, the way he treated me was much kinder after that.

I'm just thinking, Lauren, that taking your sister into your confidence via phone call might help clear the air.  Perhaps if you can find a way to express your love for your sister, and "reveal" how frightening all this has been to you, and how alone you are with this rather personal illness without your sister right now, the one person who knows you better than anyone on account of growing up together, I thought if you bared your soul to her like that, expressed love rather than upset, maybe this appeal to her softer nature and recall of the old days, will have a positive effect on her and she'll take a low-price flight on up to see you... if it's possible for you, you could even offer to pay some of at least her plane ticket (so you don't get trapped into paying for everybody). 

Oh, FUZZOLA, I hate it that your work life is so blatantly stressing you out, dear one.  Some jobs just get to the point where they are no good anymore.  I'm sure you are aware of Cobra and also some rather inexpensive "supplemental" insurance cards that will cover you in case of catastrophic illness (and even some other expensive items, too).  I wonder if it's even possible to make a deal where you can work for the same company, maybe in a diff but similar position, but so you can do your job from home.  And really and truly, it seems to me you can generalize what you do on a resume and present yourself as a worker for any number of places that need a version of you.  I don't know exactly what's going on, but I just wanted to encourage you in some manner, lady. 

Oh, and in case anyone finds themselves in the boat I was in, and that was when I started taking the anti-hormone drugs, while I do not advise this whatsoever, I simply could not take those medicines.  Diff people report diff symptoms, and for me, it was a kind of madness that visited on me, I was so depressed and freaked out, way down deep in a dark hole, screaming and throwing things.  Last time I felt that horrible was when I was in my 20s, when my first husband and I got into an argument, and I punched my hand through a very hard window in the bedroom, had to go to the ER, and the docs there told my husband to take me to the mental health clinic. 

Now, they covered me up in antidepressants, but what I needed was tranquilizers, for crying out loud.  But even they are a concern as a medicine, on account of a person can grow to like them too much, so it takes careful control if you want to have them.  Otherwise you cannot take them.  In other words, you can keep wanting more and more, not unlike the pain killers.  I'm just trying to make suggestions to diff people here about any wierdness ya'll might be experiencing.  And FUZZ, right on time as usual, just yesterday after I had a troubling phone call (really no big deal), I got in a deep funk and saw nothing beautiful out the window, I was SO SAD.  After about 20 mins of that routine, I returned to my way of dealing with buuuuusheet and thought about the creative things I do, things I want to do in the garden and around the house, being blessed by a good dog and a good man, that same sort of thing you do too, Fuzzy.  I was fine after that, fog just melted away. 

Sorry for all the preaching.  And sorry for singing to the choir.  I think we all know pretty much how to handle stuff, BUT just a little support now and then can't hurt.  Besides, I just care, is all.  I really just want to say to my cancer sisters:  I CARE.  I know your individual stories, I've experienced many of the same things, and one thing is for sure, nothing takes the place of love and common sense when it comes to dealing with the harsh realities out there, we're like lonely planets with no atmosphere and so meteors strike us regularly.  We're all tore up.  But we're still here.  Smile.  Love always, Gail

Here's a U-Tube song that will make you cry... Eva Cassidy was born in 1963, she was a talented artist and musician, the link takes you to the live performance in 1996 that is treasured by those who knew her.  Bone cancer was discovered after this recording, she died three months later. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RDmXsGeiF8&feature=related

((((HUGS))))) I have nothing constructive to offer but my strength and support, so I'll leave it at that. 

dogeyed - And that is why I fired the tamoxifen. That was an evil, dark place and I could not be in that place for FIVE YEARS!!! Still creeps me out to think how mentally bad I felt.  Call me reckless and alternative, but that's what I am doing. 

((((Fuzzy)))) sorry for crazy happening I tried to add some randomness to make you smile but it didn't work. So I'll have to try for something different. My DH just text me and said "I live you" so I responded "Well then live better! What are you doing to me?!" Sometimes typos are fun

Fuzzy, I'm envious.  Haven't been on a farm since the 80's.  We lived on the family homestead in ND for two years before moving to Washington when I was 7.  Pretty primitive, no electricity or running water.  We went back for two months or so every summer untill I finished high school, and stayed at my Aunts.  I've only made a couple of trips back since then, the last in the early eighties when I stayed on a cousin's ranch.  I always enjoyed the animals and spending time out in the barns which were always clean and sweet smelling.  The ranchers in the family raised cattle and horses.  The horses were working stock but the cattle were prize winning breeding stock. 

One year one of my cousin' kids decided to raise pigs for 4H.  He built a cement pool for them which they loved and which kept them clean.  He even installed plumbing and a pump to circulate fresh water in to keep it clean and cool. It was so much fun to watch the pigs splashing around.

SASSY, thank you so much for the info, and I am wondering, to take this a step further in thought, you said Genelex test showed your heart medicine enhanced your AI Aromatose Inhibitor 25 percent, which explains why you couldn't handle AI meds.  So, does it follow, in a roundabout way, your heart medicine WITHOUT AIs might be good for blocking hormones?  I wish there was a test that showed how come my estrogen was up so high that I had to take AIs in the first place since I'm postmenopausal, since I cannot take them because of side effect #431 Madness.  And I was amazed that AIs can reduce immunity, good to know, even tho I quit them.

I will say this, I read at one point when I was looking for foods that could block cancer in various biochemical ways (all kinda wild stuff concerning peptides and p53s), and one item that blocks estrogen is spinach (if I recall correctly).  I happen to love spinach, eat it right out of the can, so at least I feel better about the decision to quit AIs.  We need some underground chemists in here!!  Oh, and just like I said don't everybody go and quit AIs, plez also don't triple the stock value of spinach on account of some quick study I did about it...you must do your own due diligence, becuz I don't have ANY faith in my thinking these days.  LOVE TO MY SISTERS, GG

FINILLY, I GET IT FUZZY'S RETIRING I MISSED A MEMO. YA TAKE ONE DAY OFF AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENS. tHE BIG ISSUE IS INSURANCE AND THAT'S WHY PEOPLE ARE SUGGESTING DIFFERENT ROUTES. AM i CAUGHT UP. WHEW-------((((((( FUZZY)))))))). wELL THE ONE QUESTION  I KNOW YOU WILL ASK YOU SELF AND YOUR MH DOC " SHOULD i HAVE MY HEAD EXAMINED FOR STAYING SO LONG"?        I DID, IT WAS --"WHY DID i ALLOW MY SELF TO ACCEPT HER ABUSE FOR SO LONG"? bE FRUGAL. wHATEVER COMES WHEN YOU ARE AWAY FROM THOSE SICKOS YOU WILL FEEL MUCH BETTER

MUCH BETTER--------COURSE THE NUCHETTER THAT I FIRST WROTE WAS BETTER , SO HAD TO BRING IT BACK L&H&P'S SAS

Am back - last post was 15 pages back, so just read the last day's post. Missed Fuzzy's Place so much.

My big English blunder was when I was 23.  A letter and envelope for a large company.  Typed to another company.

Company Name and Ass.

ETA - that kind of sits there and stares back at you.   Typed into three places, so they knew I didn't know any better.  But for twenty years I have been editing my own novels and blogs, so am better now, I hope.

My granddaughter made up her own language, we called it Chloean, she spoke it until she was four.  She can do puzzles that make adults cry.  I finally told her, Chloe, you have to speak English, no one can understand you and we want to talk to you.  And she quit.  She knew fluent English by then but she just never said a word in English, only Chloean.

And now i am hungry for steamed spinach.  And chocolat.  The chocolat I have.  Rarely eat any but today, it is Sunday, my Internet via satellite is up and I am moved to new house.  I will do bco, eat European crispy milk chocolat and nap.

Lauren, my son is now 14, but when he was two, he would constantly ask for ju peeze.  (Juice please).  Try to enjoy the juice please.....

Been having a hard time catching up with you all. So many posts, so little time.  The kids are keeping me busy.  Thanks to Nancynow, I am back to say hello!

Sorry to hear about the shitstorm, Fuzzy.  I sure hope it all works out.  No insurance sucks big time.