March 2012 chemo

Haven't had the chance to post much since the start of tx--you gals move quick!--but did want to share that today was my LAST CHEMO INFUSION (hopefully forever). The whole experience was much easier than I imagined, with fatigue and hair loss being the only side fx of note. I think I was very lucky. Now, on to Tamoxifen...and back to my running.

Hope all my sisters here are doing well--or at least as well as can be expected. 

Tc- couldn't agree more. Just have to do what we can to reduce the exposure to one of these. I throw my shampoo out and got paraben free Burt's bee. Decided I will do yoga after chemo to keep my stress levels down. Let's see how long these resolutions hold.

Indigo- love your words too.

Michelle- good luk with your port appointment

KCB- glad things are slowly moving back on track

Sissydi- yeah, on to Taxol

Kadia- great to hear your done.

Continuing on funny- not sure if you guys have seen the thread 'you know you have cancer when' on Stage III forum. Hilarious... Here us one that cracked me up.... 'you know you have cancer when your boobs have been photographed more often than Pamela Anderson'

Along that note- I had Tram reconstruction along with BMX in Feb right before chemo. My PS like others takes lots of pictures of his "art work". One time the intern said something funny and I smiled just as the camera clicked. While my PS makes it clear that the camera is only focused in his art work, I was so shocked/embarrassed that I smiled for the camera while posing nearly naked!!!

I don't know what I would do with out all of you.  You somehow always seem to know what's on my mind.  I'm once again coming out of my "dark days".  I really just try to hide on these days.  It's not the prognosis I think of, my MO on my first meeting said "we can beat this" and I'm taking his word on it. Actually I haven't given it any other option in my mind.  I think of when this is over and I'm free again! My DH is supportive of me and somehow that makes me cry.  I think of how unfair I'm being to him having to put up with this crap. Better days are ahead!

Kadia Yippie for being done!

KCB so glad things are moving forward for you!

Michelle-good luck with the port.

Kltb try to stay positive through this. I know it's hard.

Everyone else have a good day with minimal SE's.

I"m hungry and just want something that has flavor! Not cardboard or dough!!!!

Sorry all I had to let it out.

thanks for stopping in MDG and giving us and update!  8miles!  impressive!

My heart is breaking tonight.  Just found out my friend who is stage 4 with non hodgekins (SP?) lymphoma is in the hospital on a respirator and not expected to make it.  I just talked to her last week and she was fighting and I thought turning a corner.  Sorry to be a downer. 

CANCER SUCKS 

kltb thanks, impressed you are at the band concert. hope tomorrow is a better day!

Kim, so sorry about your friend. ((((((Kim)))))))

Kim- very sorry.

Lostinmo-I found this last go around that I could taste warm lettuce.  Yummm.  Did you get your washer?

Okay I have a new SE.  I am dumb.  I am sitting here trying to peck this out, really want to respond to people but I have the memory of a gnat.  It seems like every go round has been a bit different, but this one just feels like I had a brain transplant.  In all it's not bad though, kind of funny.  and I can totally rewatch anything on tv!

Kim-sorry it's one of those days for you. Sending you a great big hug my friend.

Kim

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend, how devastasting.  F'ing cancer!!  I wish I could say more to comfort you but there are no words,

lostinmo

Where do you think you'll head to first??

I think it was Indigo and it was a dishwasher.



Laying here feeling sorry for myself. Had to send my mom on a field trip with youngest DD. not that I really wanted to go but it's the principle of the matter. Hungry but can't think of anything to eat. And day after nuelasta shot soreness is starting. (((whine)))

kltb and everyone else with the post-treatment yuck - hoping today goes by quickly and that you find something good to eat/think about!  I still haven't started shopping for a dishwasher for real - surfed a few sites like Home Depot, Lowe's and Sears - geez, who would want to pay a thousand bucks for a dishwasher unless you were running a catering service? 

I am holding onto my plans for us to run away to Vegas to celebrate our anniversary - our 30th is 5/29 (I got married at 21 - where did all the time go???).  Obviously we can't do it in the middle of chemo - so at this point, I am making whatever plans I can to do it later this year or when chemo is done.  (Not sure yet when rads has to start - but there WILL be a way to do it).   The men who run the shop where I bought my wigs are in the entertainment business also and have another store in Vegas, and when I told them my story, they said when we make our Vegas trip to let them know and they'd hook us up with some fun stuff - like show tickets.  I just want to dress up in my gorgeous purple film noir pinup style dress, DH can wear whatever he pleases - and drive through one of those wedding chapels to renew our vows.  And eat good food and shop.  I'm not a big gambler (I'd rather shop!), but I'll play a few slots with DH.  

I have lived in the western U.S. for 30 years now - but never yet been to Yellowstone, can you believe it?  We used to talk about going with the boys when they were younger, but never managed to do it.  Most of our vacations have been to visit family who live in other states.  

I have been to Rapid City on business twice over the last couple of years, and managed to visit Mount Rushmore and Crazy Horse on our last day.  And Wall Drug... world's best tourist trap ever.  

The chemo brain thing - I'm already on the ding-y side and have to write stuff down.  I can just see what's coming.  Oh, well.

and.... today my hair has finally started coming out.   I tugged on a lock of it and it came off in my hand... cried just a little and sucked it up.  I'll keep an eye on it today and tomorrow, but I don't want to shed all over the place - already constantly cleaning up hair from our two dogs - so most likely this will get buzzed before the weekend.  It's weird, though - it's mostly coming out on the right side.  Hmmm.