Fuzzy's Romp Room

Fuzzy - You be careful going off your medicine. I worry about you when your not checking in. I am more than just silly pictures... I care.

Sas - I'll be thinking about you and your upcoming surgery. Sending you hugs. I care about you too. 

There are so many on here that I have come to care about and some that I never told like MBJ. Our diagnosis were originally so close. I hate this disease more and more each passing minute of every single day. I am thankful for the people here who share their journey and who cyber hug each other. 

Valerie

FUZZOLA!!!  So appreciate you saying hello to us rompers!  I'm all for getting off any medicine that creates problems.  Few years back, I had to get off two big ones, one after the other, took all my willpower, took some time, but I made it.  It was a swampland, to be sure, but the sense of relief when I was done was huge.  As for the big bad wolf, he is coming from a place of self-hatred and insecurity, so he picks the nicest person in the world to push around.  He has no earthly idea how to be pleasant, but you do. 

I enjoyed reading the two paragraphs of your story, and really zeroed in on it when that stream of terror words like "gangs and mafia" came up!  Ha!  I shouldn't laugh, but I'm warped.  Oh, I've spent lots of time reviewing the sleezy portions of my life, in an effort to forgive myself, and I simply cannot believe how in the world I came thru.  The main thing is I'm mostly good now, I try to focus on pleasant day-to-day stuff, making "dreams to remember" (John Mayer), and improving my spirit levels.  Fuzzy, I love you for always.

CINDY-LOU, I am glad you will be seeing the doc to review your cat wounds.  Of course your cat is sleeping without a care!  What won't we do for our pets?  I hope your face wound won't make you look too tough.  Oh, dear LAUREN, so many times thru this cancer ordeal I have totally lost it, feel awful about letting my temper out, but you are in pain, you are exhausted from it all, and I know somewhere in your children's heads they know you are a sick mom right now.  SHEILA ♥  I could only get it one time, so I have no idea how it got there!!!  Cooooool.  Well, kiddos, it's been real.  GG 

I have a mammo coming up the end of May, too far away for me. In an hour I leave for my appointment with my family doctor. I will get him to listen. We were his first patients when he took over the practice from a retiring doctor. I really don't think this pain is normal. I want answers.

Edited to say...

I wrote to the surgeon this morning and got a call back from the office. WOW! I see her this Wednesday. I need answers either good or bad.  I need to have a plan. I need to know.

My family doctor said it could go either way. He says that it might just be something I'll have for the rest of my life. Let's just hope it isn't anything to worry about. I'm going to try not to worry excessively the next two days. That is what Ativan is for. I'm glad I still have some left.

Thank you Sheila!

Just incase I don't get back on here before tomorrow morning (my appointment), I just want you all to know that I am taking you all with me. I am trying not to freak out yet.

Valerie

veggy....jumping in the pocket.....I attended lots of pocket parties this last few days.

Will be thinking of you my friend♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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Hi ladies - I am here to report that sas is doing great!  I was able to see her this afternoon - her surgery was very successful, tumor is benign, and her incision is in her hairline - from the top of her forehead and curving around to the top of her ear - her hair will completely cover it.  She is alert, we chatted, had some chocolate ( I brought emergency chocolate!), she ate dinner, we chatted some more, and then the nurses kicked me out!  I was absolutely amazed at how fabulous she was doing considering the kind of surgery she had - she was very happy with her care so far, she is clearly resilient, and she is going to be just fine.  She is a happy, friendly, beautiful person to everyone - but we already knew that, didn't we?  So very glad I was able to connect with her, and then to let all of you know!

Thanks for the report on SAS.  So very glad she is doing well.

Nancy, I don't know about Ducky but Grenny is off visting a GD.

Veggy - good luck today. You have me in your pocket for as long as you need me



SpecialK - thanks for the update. Great that you got to see her and she's doing well.



Not even 8 am and already a crazy morning. I'll be checking in here throughout the day knowing each post will bring a smile to my face!

Good to hear about Shiela.  Thank you for letting us know, was wondering yesterday all day how she was faring.  Checked this morn and there is the report.

Lauren - From a page back, the overwhelm comes and goes, there are so many feelings that will take over like the times of complete gratitude for being there with your children no matter what they are up to, you are grateful you get to deal with it and you just cannot help buut feel that way.  Then there are the times when you cannot help but feel the overwhelm and frustration.  My thing for a long time was, where is everyone, and I was quite angry because I am the one who drops my world to help others always and no one dropped their anything to help me or even call.   Now I've bounced to the gratitude, they give what they can, I am no different and I feel better.  But expect to swing, dear, swing high and low for awhile and give yourself some slack.

Fuzzy, I was pulled in by your naarative, wanted more, had the picture easily, when is the speech?  And Fuzzy, you are for real about the halucinations?  I have not read enough to know what that means to you and if you have been to the neurologist or if you know why these have happened.

Veeggy - after my excisional biopsy - ie lumpectomy - the first week I was not in pain in the breast, but then it woke up, I mean it really woke up, and the burning skin started, the bee stung feeling in nipple, the pain in breast incision, the feeling like I had been scraped inside and out.  I told the GP after two months of this that IF I had known the pain would be like this and unending, I would have had the mx, (naive of me to believe it would be better,  I have read now that that is the pain x 10 for mx) but GP checked and called bs who sent me for US but radiologist ordered 6 mammo films and a bit of us, and they proved to me and gave me peace of mind anyway that it was nothing.  But now, 4 mo out, the pain is often the same, I was told it would be a year like this getting better all the time.  BUT I think something is still there.  The bc hurt before surgery and the healing of any cancer cells or death of them has proven to hurt too, so I don't know either.  Just glad  you are on it and advocating your best treatment, we must make them pay attention to detail every step of the way, ladies, it's their job and career and even their passion, perhaps, but it is our lives.

Have a beautiful spring day!

Oh, veggy, I am so sorry you have to go through this. I wish there was something more I could do for you than being in your pocket. Please know I am sending lots of ((((hugs)))) and support your way.



I originally had a lumpectomy then a MX in January. I understand the emotions you must be going through now. It's a tough journey, but you're strong! I had the reconstruction as well, so let me know if you have questions on that, although I wish you didn't have to consider this option.



Best of luck on tuesday. I'll be thinking of you!

veggy - crap, I am so sorry that you have this worry again.  I also did BMX with recon - if you have questions ask away.

veggy....Sorry you have to wait until Tuesday.

Yes veggy.....It can be B9. The waiting is a torture.

We will be here for you no matter what.

I'm reserving my pocket space for Tuesday.

HUGS♥HUGS & more HUGS to my friend♥