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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    SweetCaroline2- sorry you have joined the ranks of people with breast cancer.  It is one day at a time; one step at a time and patience for me..  I had a partial masectomy which is considered a lumpectomy-- the breast surgeon also took healthy tissue besides the large nasty thing which had the cancer.  When you go see the surgeon and oncologist, take your significant other or friend to help take notes during your appt.  If not, get a recorder so you can play it back later.  Also, prepare for your appts by getting your questions together.  if you are feeling a little overwhelmed about what to ask, there is plenty of info on this website (questions to ask your doctor).  Just remember you are not alone throughout your journey..

    Sending you positive thoughts and lots of (((HUGS))) !!!

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    UPDATE-- Decison made today to have UMX next Wednesday.  Tumor Board looked at the MRI and all available info about me and the UMX is the best for my case.  Spent the day getting my left breast checked out and now have an infection in that breast.  Poor little boob.....  Anyway, did all the pre-op, getting some antibotics to get that infection cleared up and a different high blood pressure med.  It's been a whirlwind day but moving forward and trying to keep calm and taking one day at a time... one step at time.  So I have week to get myself prepared for the surgery and take care of whatever else I need to before then.  Staying positive and finding a little calm, a little peace and lots of good conversation, laughter and smiles as my journey continues.

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  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited March 2012

    Glad you have a plan in place!  One week is just great!!  You don't have to wait forever, and you still have time to get some things done. 

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Yes, it is a good thing to keep everything moving.  So it is UMX w/o recon because the tumor board said it wasn't a good idea since my cancer is rare.  I know that I will have chemo but not sure about the radiation.  It all depends upon the node biolpsy.  I'm fine with the no recon because having to make a decision like that right now was overwhelming me.   Next Tuesday I go in to get my bp checked, my breast infection checked (hopefully cleared up) and the node dye.  Then Wednesday morning, it will be UMX, node biopsy and portacath.  I'm good with all of this because it is what I have to do to get my body healthy again.  

    So I have an eye doctor appt on this Thursday and want to get a hair cut before the surgery.  This waist length hair has got to go so I can make my life easier post-op and with the chemo.  Lots of changes but all for the best. 

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  • Dulcie
    Dulcie Member Posts: 193
    edited March 2012

    Melrose xx i left you a message on the other thread....

    Please take good care of yourself and get plenty of rest and good food..build yourself up...be kind to you...and yep a support group sounds good....you are so calm and lovely  xxxx

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Thanks Dulcie--- we keep moving forward and doing what is best for each of us.  The team of doctors are looking after me;  I just have to show up and do what is asked of me.  Yes, I am scared and sometimes overwhelmed.  However, the logical side of my brain tells me to keep moving forward and be positive and have hope and so I do.  Please take care of yourself too!!!

    Sending you a little peace, a little calm, lots of good conversation, laughter and smiles and (((HUGS)))  Stay positive my friend.... stay positive.....

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  • Godlistens
    Godlistens Member Posts: 47
    edited March 2012

    You are on your way! Think of it as a journey that you have to travel. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. For awhile, you will feel like all you do is GO TO DOCTORS for tests, surgery, treatment, etc.....I remember when I was going through it, I would wake up some mornings and be THRILLED because I did not have a doctor appointment on that particular day!!! Those were great days!



    REmember never to underestimate the value of your human connections.....we breast cancer survivors are so programmed to obssess about diet and exercise to prevent recurrence, when nurturing our souls with human interaction is just as important.....call on your girlfriends, your family, your significant other for company, and laughter, and just plain support. WE NEED EACH OTHER.....

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Thanks for your supporting words.  My family has rallied behind me and my girl friends have already decided how they are going to take care of me and my husband and son while I go through the upcoming yuk parts (UMX & chemo to follow) of my BC journey.  I am getting lots of support because I do need them to help me hold me and my immediate family up and to get all of us through this.   I've down a little lately because I'm getting over a sinus infection and now have an infection in the excisional biopsy site ( this is where the nasty thing used to live).   Staying positive and hopeful.

    Sending lots of positive thoughts and good karma to all who support me and read my words.  Each of you has helped me get to this step of my BC journey with kindness and support. 

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    UPDATE- got antibotics for an infection from the lumpetomy/partial masectomy and of course I'm probably allergic to them since I now have a rash.  My UMX is scheduled for next Wednesday but that may change if that infection doesn't clear up asap.  Poor little left boob--- it's a hurting unit.  I've been a little down since I had the bilateral MRI because I had a reaction to the MRI only in that one boob.  However, I am determined to have a better day and be positive.  Sending lots of positive thoughts and hugs to all!!!!!

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  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited March 2012

    You are amazing!!!  I hope your boob feels better!

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

     Just have to get better so I can move on with my treatment.   It is definitely one day a time; one step at time for me and lots of patience  with myself and what is happening to my body.    

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  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited March 2012

    That's such a good approach.  I wallowed in self pity for a couple weeks, then got pissed at my cancer and fought it hard!  You will too!

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  • 1openheart
    1openheart Member Posts: 765
    edited March 2012

    Melrose....I hope you and the boob feel better soon.  Even though I don't know you, I can feel your spirit and positive energy through your posts.  I'm heading down to Houston for a girls' weekend tomorrow.  First time with just the girls in over a year.  I am really looking forward to just kicking back, having some good wine, laughing until we cry and just having some fun for a change.

    Sending you lots of healing energy.  

    edited for fat finger mistakes.... 

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    1openheart--- have a marvy time in Houston for your girls' weekend!  Bring your rainboots though since it's supposed to be rainy all weekend.  Always good to take a break from the BC.

    Thanks to all who keep lifting my spirits when they are down!!!!  Positive thoughts and hugs to all!!!!.    

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    UPDATE-- My poor left boob is on the road to recovery; infection is getting better.  I just need to get rid of the hives after taking antibotics that I didn't know I was allergic to.  I'm hoping that I am well enough so the UMX on lefty will go forward on Wednesday.  Feeling a little down and find myself crying once in a while.  Decided to let those emotions come out so I can keep moving forward and stay positive.  

    I just got back from getting my waist length hair cut.  I now have a short bob which should be a lot easier to take care of after my UMX.  No tears here about the hair since it is just hair to me.

    Thanks always to those here who continue to support me and inspire me to keep the faith and move forward.  As always, trying to find a little calm, a little peace, lots of good conversation, laughter and smiles and moving forward....... Sending positive thoughts and support and hugs to all!!!! 

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  • IndigoMont11
    IndigoMont11 Member Posts: 1,095
    edited March 2012

    I'm here for you, Melrose!  I don't blame you for feeling down - not enough that you are all of a sudden dealing with cancer, but I imagine the infection and hives feel like insult to injury.  Here's a hug back to you!

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    (((HUGS))) to you!!!! It's been a rainy weekend here so maybe getting myself out of bed and getting a haircut lightened up my spirits.   I always have to remember that there is treatment for my BC and I got to do what I can do to help myself and stay positive. 

    As for the hives and the infection, thank goodness I can take medication to get better and definitely feel better....

    As always, thinking of my friends here who have comforted me when I need to be and sending out lots of positive thoughts and prayers......... 

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  • Godlistens
    Godlistens Member Posts: 47
    edited March 2012

    Hello again. is your UMX tomorrow? I am thinking of you and sending prayers, good wishes and positive thoughts!! Just think - you are cutting out this disease from your body!! That has to give you peace of mind! And yes, breast cancer is treatable - something to be thankful for. Stay positive.....thinking of you....

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  • IndigoMont11
    IndigoMont11 Member Posts: 1,095
    edited March 2012

    Praying for you too Melrose. Had apptsith surgeon todsy and surgery (bmx) next for me. Sending you purple healing thoughts! ((((((Melrose))))))

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Hey IndigoMont--- Feeling those purple healing thoughts and sending them right back at you!!!! Thinking of you and sending you LOTS OF (((HUGS))), positive thoughts and healing prayers!!!!  As always, trying to find a little calm, a little peace, lots of good conversation, laughter and smiles and moving forward.......

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Godlistens--- Yes, my UMX, node biopsy and portacath is tomorrow!!!!  I am ready for the day and trying to keep my positive attitude and thoughts.  I truly believe I am being blanketed with lots of love, support and prayers that will carry me through this from everyone.  There is treatment, so there is hope.  Thank you for continuing to support me with your kind words and thoughts and prayers.  I am so happy you found me and have given me help without me asking.  Sending hugs to you and positive thoughts and prayers. 

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  • 1openheart
    1openheart Member Posts: 765
    edited March 2012

    Melrose.....I hope you are feeling better.  I had a great time in Houston and yes, it was a rainy mess.  Going to the rodeo Friday night was awful.  It was so cold and windy.  The rain was coming down sideways and the wind kept flipping everyone's umbrellas.  But, we had fun anyway.

    I really needed to have some girlfriend time.  We had lots of laughs, lots of good red wine and even a few tears.  We decided that life is too short to drink bad wine!

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    1openheart-- Feeling much better .... so much better that my UMX, node biopsy and port is tomorrow!!!!  So glad you had your girls weekend and got a chance to take a BC break!!!  I think everyone needs to give herself one of those every day!!!!!  So tomorrow, I will try to find a little calm, a little peace , lots of good conversation, laughter and smiles and keep moving forward. 

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  • 1openheart
    1openheart Member Posts: 765
    edited March 2012

    I did not realize your day was tomorrow until I read another post after I sent my last one.  I know you will do great.  You seem to have such a wonderful attitude about all of this and sometimes that is half the battle.  Just remember to be gentle with yourself when things seem dark.  You will have some tough days ahead, but each step in the process is a step closer to being whole and well again.  I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and in the days ahead.  Try to get some rest tonight.

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  • IndigoMont11
    IndigoMont11 Member Posts: 1,095
    edited March 2012

    Life is too short to drink bad wine. Lol you're a genius! I'll have to remember that one ( not that I drink much but on principle).

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  • 1openheart
    1openheart Member Posts: 765
    edited March 2012

    i don't usually drink much either, but I did have a few more glasses than usual this weekend.  :)
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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Wish I could have had at least one!!!!!

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  • 1openheart
    1openheart Member Posts: 765
    edited March 2012

    I wish you could have too, Melrose.  Here's to stong women.  

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  • Melrosemelrose
    Melrosemelrose Member Posts: 3,018
    edited March 2012

    Here--- here---

    On another day, we will have that toast and celebrate how far we have come on our journeys...

    Hugs to you, my friend for your support and caring......

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  • Godlistens
    Godlistens Member Posts: 47
    edited March 2012

    It is my pleasure to be here for you!! I know what you are feeling which is why I am trying to give you support. I remember how these boards were a godsend when I was going through this ordeal. You are probably either having surgery at this minute or you are out of surgery.....waiting to hear from you...aren't you glad the surgery is over??

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