Please someone talk me down!

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Rachel1
Rachel1 Member Posts: 363
edited June 2014 in Not Diagnosed With a Recurrence or Metastases but Concerned

I finished treatment a little over a year ago -- chemo in October 2010 and rads in Dec. 2010. I had my PET/CT in January 2011 NED. I had a hysterectomy in Feb. 2011 and my obgyn even took photos of my pink liver and remarked at how it looked good. In Sept 2012 I had three CT scans in the last 6 months because of having a diep reconstruction. All looked good. I also had my colonscopy and endoscopy in Sept. 2012. They found ulcers in the top of my stomach -- not caused by the bacteria h-pylorie  sp.??-- They put me on a once a day med. for two or three wks.  And it seemed to help. Note: The pain from it drove me to the emergency room before I was dx with ulcer. They did a CT at that time to rule out cancer.

Fast forward:  Last week I finally go back to Curves since my diep in Sept. I've not done any abdominal exercises since Sept. I'm doing some crunch type machine and twisting.  I notice that on my right side I've been having the pulling sensitivity on my ribs that usually indicates my scar tissue needs to be worked on and I've got some of that stomach pain mid to right side.  My mind goes to those deep dark places. You'd think with two CT scans and my labs from 2 wks ago being normal, I could rest easy. But no, I have two days of aches and I'm thinking mets. 

Ugh...what do I do?  I so badly want a break from all this. Sometimes I wish that I could take my brain off and leave it in another time zone.  Remember when a head ache was a head ache and stomach pain meant you ate something funky???

Thanks for any insights.

Rachel

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  • LisaMomOfFour
    LisaMomOfFour Member Posts: 465
    edited March 2012

    Rachel -- I'm right there with you...  I felt really lousy all weekend....   just had a nasty headache and a bit of nausea.   Hard not to go right to the dark place... could it be just a simple headache or do I have brain mets?  I don't know that I have any advice, as I still feel like I have to fight every day to deal with this issue.  I just try  to remind myself that worrying myself sick over every ache and pain won't change the outcome, so why do it?  Woke up today feeling fine and went to the gym.   I'm sure my knees will hurt tomorrow and I'll be thinking about knee mets....   

    I don't have any real advice to offer just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in thinking these thoughts... the way cancer messes with my mind is, in some ways, the worst part...   

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited March 2012

    You used muscles that you haven't used in awhile.  It is NORMAL for them to ache for a few days, even a week.  Is the pain changing?  Even pain that gets worse is probably an indication of an (use) injury, not mets, especially if it gets worse when you use a muscle.

    A good rule of thumb that I used to see frequently when I first joined these boards was that anything (pain etc) new that lasted for at least two weeks deserved to be checked out, but that anything that resolved itself before then was not worth worrying about. 

    I'm four years out, and my mind still goes "there", when a new pain, or a cough pops up, but I look for the normal explanation, like plants I'm allergic to being in bloom.  So far, nothing has lasted for more than two weeks.  I hope that your current issues resolve even more quickly than that. 

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