Long wait

Hi ! I have been looking in this website for past month and was very shy to come out until now. I'm deaf but I can read lips. When I was first diagnosed with breast cancer last november from core needle biopsy. I was in shock because I had no one in family on both sides of my Mom and Dad. I was the first one! Worst part is that I canceled my health insurance 3 months prior!!! Biopsy and pathology report cost me over $5000. My husband and I were so confused what to do. Meanwhile we already got plane tickets to go Argentna for a month to spend with his family for the holidays (that was before I found out I was diagnosed with BC). after many days of thoughts and confusions, we came up that I was to get treated in Argentina because my husband's cousin's husband is head of oncology also my hsuabnd's nephew is also oncologist. So for the 2 weeks prior to our trip to Argentina my Sister in law made all the appts as per his cousin that I get all head to toe checked for any cancer other than tumor in my right breast . When I got there , I had 8 tests in 4 days period!!! No question asked only asked for my drivers license and prescription notes from his cousin. I had cat scan, sonogram on both breasts , stomach, heart (all different dr offices ), ekg, bone scan , blood work, xray. All cleared!!! All of these tests taken on me where actual doctors not techs or nurses. They were awesome!!! And I got two opinions from both his cousin and his nephew's boss both recommended same thing about treatments chemo , radiation, and hormone treatment cause I have her2+ and recommended that I get lumpectomy. Cousin recommend surgeon so we met him I fell in love with him I felt so comfortable !! He got me scheduled for lumpectomy the following week! The clinic is like a hotel, beautiful setting! With the radioactive inject to locate tumor and 3 lymph nodes on that morning of the surgery that was the most painful of all tests I had but I toughed it out. I have never been in surgery or put me under to sleep, I woke up with little pain but was extremely happy that my lymph nodes were all clear, margin was all clear ! He did great job doing it, only difference is one cup smaller than other but I didn't care not for now. He prescripted me antibiotic and pain killer (only used one pain pill!) and drainage only for 4 days. I followed up with surgeon every 2 days until end a day before we went back home to states . Cousin the oncologist said I would stay and do chemo for a year with the small amount of $$. Oh I forgot to mention, 8 tests and surgery at clinic for the day all for only 2800 dollars!? We paid cash! It could have easily cost me over 50,000 dollars or more right?? But I wanted to try and do chemo at home because my life is here my dog my house my Mom, family etc etc. it was hard! So when I went back to see my surgeon here in the states (who did the biopsy) to see if he can help me find oncologist who can accept me without insurance. I was so taken back when I saw my surgeon how he wasn't too nice with me because I had the surgery in Argentina instead he would have understood why but he wasn't . I was in tears!!! I was so brave all the past 5 weeks in Argentina during tests , surgery, and being away from my family. My hsuabnd's family are awesome!!! So this surgeon referred me to an oncologist so had an appt the following week (last Monday feb 3). I was soooo nervous !!! Unlike in Argentina where I was so calm (-why? I don't know?). Then met him he was so nice! I bawled and cried I guess it all came out. He was very understanding. We showed him all the tests I had in Argentina but one thing caught his eye was an sample of my tumor sealed in a box that the pathologist saved for me in Argentina . He said he would use that to take to the lab in California (oncotype), we told him we don't gave money to pay for that lab he told me not to worry! So the assistant later told my husband maybe the lab doing for free??? Then upon the result of oncotype the oncologist will tell us what kind if treatment I should get and how much it will cost me, etc. so to this day, I am still waiting for the call from them! And this morning I woke up feeling like shit, colds, sore throat maybe flu? Maybe just allergy??? So will that be a problem with starting of the treatments if they call??? I was brave and feeling positive since my diagnosed with BC in nov 2011, now I'm waiting and wondering and in fears of treatments , am I thinking too much?? But not depressed at all thank god for my anti anxiety meds I have been taking for 7 years (Effexor) it's my life saver!!! I wanted to say I love everyone in here, everyone here is so brave !!! Xoxox for everyone! Thanks for reading!!!