February 2011 chemo pals

Ruff- thanks for the update!! So sorry about the pain...can you put a little alcohol on it?? Bacardi....Grey Goose....Miller....ya know...alcohol!! LOL. Just teasing...those docs are pretty sharp and I'm so happy you're trusting their judgment. My PS took one look at my breast and...didn't even touch me...and gave me the news...and I trust him with my heart and soul.

XOXO get some rest....its been a loooooooong week sweetie!

RUFFY, I didn't know your place hurt, and I think you're brave to stand up to it with just some Tylenol.  I'm always screaming to my docs, particularly when they cut me open for crying out loud, to give me something a tad stronger!  No can do.  SIGH.

FUZZY, ohhhhh, being in a barn is SO pleasant.  Years ago I rode horses, had one for a while named Eclipse because he had one white sock, and I loved being down at the stables.  And as for the wind blowing, yes yes yes, just yesterday I thrashed a bunch of weed stickers, and it was getting late, the moon was up, so I was finally done and just stood there leaning on my walking stick, and took in the view of pasture, woods, and ridges, sky just barely pink on the horizon, getting darker blue overhead, and I listened.  Only the sounds of nature, little birds, the neighbor's dog's tags telling me where he was, and the very slight breeze making the branches-swaying sound, it was truly divine.  So, I know, I know, those special places that always bring us peace.  You made me happy, Fuzz, when I was sad.

JENN, I am amazed at the power and strength you possess, you are a model of character to me, I'm so glad you can come here and chat away with us about this and that, SCREW all this cancer routine, your life is in front of you and you is gonna take it and just go go go.  GG

Thanks ladies the red is slowly fading. Must have been the grey goose



Jen, I share fuzzy's words and feelings 110%. Fuzzy, thank you for articulating them so exact and beautiful.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend xo

I love you guys!!!!

Fuzzy ... Yes we are!!!!!

What a great group of people.. I am honored to be a part of the family......

Lisa...take us with you tomorrow!! You all were with me every time I needed you: )

Here's a quickie I made up this morning, just trying to sum up how we all surely feel:

Sister, Sister c by GG 2012

Sister, sister, I remember when we first met
I was in the hospital and you in the next bed
We watched the seasons come and go
Thru the window of our illness, I love you so

Can I touch your hand tho we're far apart?
Put my arm around your shoulder in the rain and dark?

Sister, sister, sweet gift from heaven, I know you well
You've been where I've been, when we stood and fell
Let us always be close and truthful with our hearts,
Sister, sister, my soul's easy comfort and singing lark.

I'm sure there are better ways to say all this, but since I can rip a rhyme in no time, although usually I work on them endlessly to get them just right, I figure this one will do just fine.  I mean, I did wrangle with whether to put something about a star instead of a lark, but Shakespeare won't mind if I borrow his time's bird.  Hey, Valentine's is just one week away, and it's also the day I was diagnosed, so I send lots of hearts and hugs to all of you, on that day and every day of our long and beautiful lives.  Relax, breathe deeply, you deserve it.  And if you want it, just dream it, and it will come true.  GG

Congrats Lisa on your last hercepton ! What a relief

GG, love it. you're awesome.

And so is the whole lot of us xo

LisaGH - WTH? 

Hi everyone, I have started chemo Feb1  . I'm to be on AC x4 every 2 weeks with Neulasta the day after my treatment.

My next treatment Feb 15. First days I was fine and today and yesterday I feel awful.

Hi- wish you well braveheart- i had lots of ovarian cysts off and on prior to breast cancer- hope all goes well.

ella- we were where you were a year ago- one day at a time gets me through still.

specialk- can you believe it? when i had originally figured up my doses i thought w/ the one today i'd be 2/3 short a dose of 18. I then heard/read on here where it seems 17 or 18 is common, so I didn't think too much about it. got all feeling excited and dread both opposite emotions at this being the last dose. had my list of questions for my MO for the transition to every 3 or 6 month visits....then he said i had one more. husband said i looked relieved. i don't know how i feel. mixed emotions for sure. arimidex is kind of giving me fits- now my head stopped hurting a couple of days ago & my back hurts. MO offered to switch me to femara- not sure if that would be better or worse? what do yall think?????

GG...that is beautiful!! Thank you for finding the words and so gracefully (and naturally!!) aligning them to speak what our hearts want heard....for each other. I just loved every beautiful moment of your work.

fuzzy - how did you do with rads?  Probably will drive the timing with recon.  Sorry about the upcoming scanxiety.  Ending active treatment, but knowing you need more stuff (or stuffing) + PS appt + screening = one hot mess.  To be expected!  I think it is alternately interesting and fabulous that since we are in February again so many of us have come back home to this thread for some love.  Sending some to you...