Doctors not caring anymore.

I will try to make this short. Truly. Quick History: Dx 1/1981 with AML, (Luekemia) at age 20. Symptom: Swollen Right Ankle. Tx with Adrimicyn and others I do not remember. Remission right away. Had option for BMT, (Bone Marrow Transplant). Figured, what did I have to lose, back then it was a 50/50. My brother was the doner. More Chemo and TBI, Total Body Irradiation. No GVH, rejection of the marrow. At one of my clinic visits post Transplant, I explained to my Dr. that I did not feel right, like a women, you know. His response, "well you are now damaged goods"!! I will never ever forget that. I felt the need to let that out. In any case 2001 I had to treat with pegintron for HEPC I got from all the blood transfusions in 1981. Thankfully, cleared that. March of 2007 my husband felt a lump. October 2007- the news BC!! I thought I had my share with AML back in 1981. Oh well, did Toxatere + Carboplatin x 4. Had both breat removed with exp/silicone. No Rads for me because of all the Rads I had for my BMT in 1981.Muga scan came back low, (heart damage from Adrimicyn in 1981). HER2+++, so no Herceptin for me. I have been so overwhelmed this past year I can't begin to describe. Now in Therapy. She says it is PTSD. I mention what has been going on to my Doctors and I really feel like they do not even care. My recent Neuro Dr. kind of just dropped me. I mentioned other Dr.'s and recent happenings and He is like. Dr...., I am like yes, the BS!! It is all in my chart. That was just one. Even My Onc. He new from the get go in 2007 with my BC Dx that my Muga Scan came back not good. He even said back then b-4 my tx stared that he would set me up w/Cardio Dr. Never happened. I just recently saw my BS, LOVE, Love her! She gave me the name. I will see that Cardio Dr. Tuesday. I also pushed my Gastro Dr. to to another CT Scan of Chest, Ab & Pelvis, (tomorrow am), to compare to May 2011 that indicated Fatty Liver and 2mm Pulmonary Nodule in my lower right lung. I also have low B12 and recently Vitamin D, level 6!!!! Onc. take 5,000 units a day. You don't go in the sun. I havn't been in the sun since 1981!! I would really love to know what caused this low D. Just venting. Sorry to all. Anyone feel this way? I just feel so done. In my gut, you know. Just so done. I am 51 and felt better when I was doing the BC Tx. I am so exhausted, I feel muscle wasting, overwhelmed. Burnt out. Again, thank you.