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  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited January 2012

    Mak - I reached out for help today...and Friday I have an appt that should help. Ugh...its sickening to think how many women know exactly what I'm talking about. Wow.

    I'm really trying to dig deep and I found something a little disturbing...I'm just not in a place that I'm familiar or comfortable. And, it changes...frequently...sometimes within hours...weird and wicked.

    I won $25 on a lottery ticket! I'll split it with ya!

  • maggiesuzanne
    maggiesuzanne Member Posts: 63
    edited January 2012

    Hi fuzzy lemon.....this, Oh you will get thru it as we take our meds to get us thru it every day the rest of our lives and pray tomorrow doesn't surprise us with 5 or 6 days of severe pain and fatigue that puts us completely under until we are rested enough to get up and cook and live again and prove to ourselves that we are still alive......!!!! I have known lots of people with breast cancer... I never got it til I got it!!!! So this is where I am right now! I hope this makes sense!

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited January 2012

    Fuzzy .............Is it that time of the year or is it just cancer in general.................I have been horrible this past week............Normally I come across as the funny, humorous, can handle anything type of person..........................not this week...............I have no husband to piss me off, he died 20 years ago ..................my kids as good as they are have their lives too......................I'm just so tired, so tired, of  a different ache each day, one day its thumbs, the next its achy back, then its swollen ankles and fluid retention...................tonight its so fucking dizzy I can't turn my head without the room spinning...........................when does this all end ...................when they close the lid.........................I'm so down in the dumps, I'm crying at things on TV, that I don't even care about...............why the crying jags, why the feeling of doom.....................I'm just so tired of it all....................I'm tired of cancer, tired of taking medicine, and tired of feeling like "shit" each and everyday...............................when is it my turn to feel "great".......................I don't ever see that happening again in my life.

    You keep your chin up Fuzzy.........................you have every right to bitch, and moan, and I for one will listen.......................In my lifetime (76 years), I have walked in your shoes.........

    When are the assholes we deal with everyday going to realize that "this is not over for us"....and we have earned the right to our "pity party"......................right now I can't find my "big girl panties", and I really need them...................hugs to everyone.............

  • Kate60
    Kate60 Member Posts: 597
    edited January 2012

    If one more person tells me 'this is a journey' I am going to throttle them! What journey? I'm sick of there being some deep an meaningful purpose to this (which BTW I don't get!!). It's not a journey at all. It's F****** cancer.

    I know people mean well and it's more about their view of it and how to handle it than ours, but can we get real here. It's a disease and it's horrible. Thats the way I see it.

    Rant over!

    Kate xx

  • maggiesuzanne
    maggiesuzanne Member Posts: 63
    edited January 2012

    Me, too....this whole 'journey thing' is a complete joke.....and feeling like I am a loser In the 'fight' or 'race' is insulting to me....some of us will succumb this year to breast cancer..but that is not the truth...many of us will die of this....I do not want to die and I work very very hard each and every day to be accountable to my loved ones to remain alive.....I just want another day free of pain and fatigue that I will cherish.......so that is a motivation to keep going..........and to think of many more things I need to do in this lovely world called earth which I love so very very much....we need some good days and a lot of unconditional love and support..someone to say that I matter to them today...not, oh , you are fine and you will get thru this!!! Each hour of each day matters right now!

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited January 2012

    I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like punching the shit out of people who think we are "well and on our way"............................they have no idea what we went through just to get to the "sad" state of affair, that our lives are right now..............................I feel like saying..................hey asshole, would you like to change places....................I went through all the bullshit, now are you ready to walk in my shoes from here on, and face a possible "death sentence"..........................what's that ,.............no you say............didn't think so..................so then do me a favor, and keep all your "cheery comments to yourself"...............Amen.....I need a drink........................

  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited January 2012

    Maggie, you matter to me!! You all matter to me!  Thats why we are here. 

    Fuzzy, glad you won the 25!!  Buy something nice (and cheap) for yourself!  How did your appointment go today?

    I recently joined a gym (sorry Ducky) and I think it is helping me feel better.  I think I needed to do something for  me, I do EVERYTHING for everyone else, and their kids.  My house is always filled with kids!  I know I should enjoy it, and most of the time I do, but sometimes I would like all the kids to be somewhere else.

    Ducky, pass the vodka!

  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited January 2012

    Maggie Aussie Duck and Mak. .... holy shit I needed to pop in here and read your posts today! Thank you...yeah...JOURNEY....HAHAHHHAAA!!! "Hey, Fuzzy...where ya want to go today?" Fuzzy replies, "I hear there's a cruiseship journey to Cancerland. Or was it to TheworstFING Islands? Hmmm, it may have been to Doped Up Bay?" Asshole responses, "You'll be so positive and look great!! Everyone on that cruise shaves their heads or something! And, just for you and your sisters....you get years of experience in ALL THREE DESTINATIONS!!!!" Asshole gets knocked out by Maggie, Aussie and Duck. Mak...I got the bottle...I just wanna watch...



    Shrink went well today. I laid it out and she knows I have a very troublesome situation. We talked about assholes...LOL I was so upset this week that I blacked out and apparently started repeating things over and over....super great...so, we're taking a few steps back and....waiting I guess..



    I loooove you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Best therapy group EVER!!!

  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited January 2012

    We love you too Fuzzy!!

    I want to go on that cruise  with you!  I want to beat the shit out of all the journey men and women!

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited January 2012

    Love ya too Fuzzy...................

  • dogeyed
    dogeyed Member Posts: 884
    edited January 2012

    Gee whiz, FUZZY, you blacked out and mumbled!?!  Methinks you need some unwind time, I assume from work, so IF possible, next weekend, perhaps you could take a couple days off for a LONG weekend (tell them you blacked out and need bloodwork), and just stay home and, well, drink.  Hahahaha.  NO, don't do that!  But some heavy sighing and music and a home-movie afternoon matinee with your puppy, a delicious meal, breathing in that coming spring air whilst on a walk thru a park at twilight.  Oh well, after all, you are quite a delicate girly girl, even tho you are perfectly capable of shredding concrete with your bare teeth.  Smile.  Actually, I wonder, if your protein is low, or if some drug you're on is pushing you around, or if frustration has burned up all your B vitamins.  Oh, leave it to me to want to fix things.  PAY NO ATTENTION TO ME.  Just remember, you are a cool person, cool as a cucumber, and you may need a brief break from the heat in the kitchen, by golly!  I just want our Fuzzy to be well and free.  GG

  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2012

    Fuzzy.....We love you my friend.

    Assholes will always exist....if we know how to avoid them..........

    If any SLAPPING requires we are all here for you.Wink

    Hugs ♥

  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited January 2012

    Hello hello...my shrink feels the same...too much to handle and I have to find a way...ya know, shredding concrete sounded pretty good!!! LOL and that cruise would totally make CNN. Hahaaahahaa!

    So, four am at fuzzys house and here's a sick and twisted thought and I feel like I might be the only person with it....(deep breath...here goes...)

    So, I don't know and don't ever want to know my statistics. But, I have an idea...when my one year was here, I really didn't think I should celebrate a marker that means I may have one less year...I know that might seem a little whacked...but that's what this place is for right?

    Oh, I hear ya on the vitamins. I haven't taken care of me at all. I try to take a multi. , a D and B12...need to do that more but pills are just tough to look at and "want". So. I try nuts, pumpkin seeds,fruit....and everything else is basically easy crap that doesn't require cooking, cleaning, preparing or anything. Usually, I don't eat til I get home at 6-7pm. Bullshit lifestyle, I agree....keeping my eyes open for my fix though. I swear I'll juice and walk daily...I just need to get past this....

    XOXOXO

    Oh dear...I have Gilligan's Island theme song in my head!!

  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited January 2012

    Hi hon,

    You're not the only one who doesn't celebrate those milestones.  I know there are a lot of women out there that had end of chemo celebrations.  For me personally, I was scared shitless!  I somehow thought, well now what's there to stop "it" from coming back now (even though I still had rads coming)?  It really is a personal mind set and decision only YOU can make.  I personally don't look at statistics either because think about it---there are SO many factors that will decide one way or the other, and it's out of our hands.  We've done what we can so far and it is what it is.  Of course trying to live a healthier lifestyle certainly couldn't hurt (and I still have about 30 pounds I'd like to get rid of) so we do what we do.

    So, sit right back and I'll tell a tale, a tale of a fateful trip..........lol, you cracked me up on that one, you realize that song is now going to be stuck in my head the rest of the day now??? 

    Love,

    Sharon

  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2012
  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited January 2012
  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited January 2012

    AWEOME....I Just got out of bed and now...

    I'm humming that song again!! LOL

  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited January 2012

    I always wanted to be Marinanne.  Can I please be her now?

    I don't celebrate either......not sure why.  I would like to forget, but can't!

  • 1vamom
    1vamom Member Posts: 167
    edited January 2012

    Hey all, just wanted to drop in and beg for a membership card.

    It's jen, and I'm all of a sudden feeling at home...

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited January 2012

    Fuzzy...............just had a thought................speaking of Romper Rooms...........do any of you ladies remember the actual show Romper Room from years ago......it was like a kindergarden class, and at the end the "friggin" woman, who was the teacher would hold up a "mirror" without any glass in it, and proceed to say..............................

    Romper, Bumper, Stumper Boo.................tell me, tell me tell me do................Magic Mirror, tell me today ...............DID ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE FUN AT PLAY.....................ok, then she would continue saying every possible name you could think of.................it went kind of like this.....................OH I, SEE, MARY, AND I SEE JOAN, AND OH THERE'S EDDIE, AND I SEE JONATHAN, AND EMILY.................Well my kid, sat there each and everyday, waiting for her name to be called..........................Are you ready for this "NICASIA", now what the hell were the chances that this "wanna be teacher" was going to say that name.......................so each morning by 9am.............I was dealing with a 4 year old screaming ...........MOMMY, SHE DIDN'T SAY MY NAME TODAY EITHER"............................I wanted to either slit the teacher's throat, kick in the TV screen..............or open the oven door, turn on the gas, stick my head inside, as punishment for naming my kid "Nicasia"...........................which was only followed by  " MOMMY HOW COME THEY NEVER MAKE ANYTING WITH MY NAME ON IT".............................I tried to convicne her it was best, because petefiles, love to know the names of " little girls"

    This daughter is now 42, with 2  kids of her own...

  • ptdreamers
    ptdreamers Member Posts: 1,080
    edited January 2012

    Ducky, I have to ask what did your daughter name her kids? It reminds me of Johnny Cash's song"A Boy named Sue"

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2012

    I see Fuzzy Lemon, Makratz,1vamom, duckyb1,

    ptdreamers and I see NICASIA.

    Did all my friends have fun today?

  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited January 2012

    OMG!!!  The Romper Room Lady said my name!!!

  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited January 2012

    Holy God, I'm having a flashback from my childhood.  I SWEAR I was just thinking about this thread today and wondering if anyone remembered that show???? How freaky!  Ewww and that lady with the glassless mirror kind of creeps me out!

    Sharon

  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited January 2012

    Oh My GOOOOOOOD!!  How did you remember that entire line from that show!!!  LOLOLOLOLOL  AWESOME!!!!  Crazy 'ol Lady said my name, Mak ... Tongue out Well...she was talking about a guy but ... ok...she didn't say my name.  The joys of being named "Chris" (after a man, by the name of Christ ... not sure why or how or what but it is what it is!)

    Veggy ... looks like you're going to be in charge of the class in the Romp Room!!!  hee hee  You all made me laugh outloud!

  • thefuzzylemon
    thefuzzylemon Member Posts: 2,630
    edited January 2012

     Keepin' my eyes on the prize ....

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2012

    Can I just be a heckler in the background?

  • Makratz
    Makratz Member Posts: 12,678
    edited January 2012

    lol!!  Heckle away!!

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited January 2012

    Here we go ladies..............all together now...............

    I ALWAYS DO WHAT'S RIGHT.........I NEVER DO ANYTHING WRONG.......I'M A GOOD LITTLE

    DO-BEE, A DO BEE ALL DAY LONG..........................HAHAHAHAHAHA............

    Veggie, I love your Mirror..........peeing my pants............

    Oh my daughter named her kids...............Sean........and........Makayla.........she said no way was she naming her daughter Nicasia............several incidents

    1. Teachers never got her name right,

    2. She remembers us walking around the grocery store, and I was looking for her and her sister............she was little, keep in mind she is 42 now, and back then that was a real unusual name..........................she went around the corner of the aisle to another aisle, and I hollered for her..................Nik, Nik, come here.......again, Nik, Nik, get over here..............now my daughter a few years older was with me.................this man stopped, stared at me, and then said .........................WHAT IS HER SISTER'S NAME............FRED...............she never forgot it................

    'Now that unusual names are the "in thing"......everyone loves her name...........I guess I was a little ahead of my time...................hahahaha

  • 1vamom
    1vamom Member Posts: 167
    edited January 2012

    I have to admit I was NEVER a doo-bee.   More like a don't-bee.

    I was into Mr. Greenjeans, maybe a precursor to my love of gardening, and all things green?

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