Blame on carer advice

   Ok so my brother and sister reported me to hygeine and tried to get me a shrink. We have people coming round to check everything I am doing! Apparantly I cna't cope and need ot be committed according to my brother's wife. Issue is she lost her mother as a child form cancer and wants to do as much as she can. Problem is these people haven't been here for her this year when she started getting symptoms never called anyone either.

  

   Now the house is spotless ridiculously so! hey I even Detol or use anti bacterial washes organic. Issues is they reported that as think Organic is tripe and feeding my mum salmon is stupid so is rice. They think I have gone crackers! Anyway, yesterday it blew up brother tried to beat me up infront of mum I dialled 911/999 got cops round had him thrown out pressed charges. Sister has started getting violent too have reported her also. I'm not going to be hit for them saying Im to blame for her cancer, me having leukemia has made her ill and me even being born has caused it. Ok we have different parents she didn't want a younger sister and my mum after 6 months when I was 6 months old my dad left her and yes she got breast cancer. I somehow am to blame for that.

 My mother in the meantime is heart broken from this all. she doesn't blame me but is shocked by their attitude,

 

do you know the other day my mother went to ER choking fit not my fault but somehow mine. 6Am she decided to pull inhaler cap off with teeth use the old one id put in a drawer. She wanted the old one that was that.

 I rang 999 ambulance and they said item would dissolve, family called me and her senile Dr's too she hadn't swallowed it cos didn't show up on x ray they didn't do a proper test with a scope they said they would.

 Anyhow later that day  when she was home she had ginger tea with honey- she started coughing

and the item was expelled but melted so I saw it but family won't believe us. I definately saw it!

 Sister was angry at going to hospital with her and brother when I can't as I have been told you could pick up germs and it's bad for immune so they reported me as NON COOPING. I have to now see counscellors in my home for grief...OMG fair! shrugs

 Other thing is phone call from sister graphically telling me hospital details swearing at me, I asked politely not to know as I see enough of mum being ill now, no more. She swore and swore so I said Im very sorry got to go and goodby hung up. she came round attacked me verbally and swung her hand in my face which i grabbed to stop her form hitting me. violent.. she kept swearing at me and calling me nasty and she told me info infront of my mum from the hospital graphically I felt sick and said you're so wrong-- she called me cruel and stupid and said im insane for not wanting to know. then ran upstairs screamed at mum asleep yelling at her how I shoudl know that Dr's say she could die in 2 weeks time. --which is an exaggeration and wrong as oncologist don't know how long Femara takes to work...Oncologist was just saying it without proof of any kind told my mum to get her things together. However lumps not grown and Dr has found she is only fatigued.

 

I am sworn at for not being at the hospital- being useless carer-feeding her organi foods- and for living as caused her to have breast cancer when born.-- 

 

so Im quite stressed so is my mum who is disgusted-- as im ill myself I didnt' need them telling me gorey details- heck I can't watch CSI without feeling sick myself yea Im squeamish but you don't go upto your mother tell her she will die in 2 weeks and stand there staring at the bed like she iwll die in ten minutes, theyhave been of no help other than to depress her and give her no hope.

 

I said to them my god you'd make the worst Patch Adams in history try smiling when u see her...smiling will help her recover

 

instead they said to her she won't she has no hope at all...

 

Im disgusted and it's unforgiveable. My sister wants money from ym car accident told me too id not given them enough im stingey I got very little money infact and it went on my hospital fees and my mother meds. I got next to nothing and I gave them alot. I gave everyone more than I felt I could afford and my mother helped me I was advised didn't have to give anything, but I did and I don't regret it as I was generous always have been and will buy people anything, but learnt it wont make them liek you, the more you buy the more they want. If they love you they are there because they love you, not for items. 

My neice not seen for a year since she wanted me to go with her too look at jeans..I did she asked me for £45.00 to buy them I said no..she sulked went home made up lies not seen her since brother's wedding where she spent her money ona  pendant then tried to get me to load her up at the bar with drinks. I refused and so she locked me out of hotel room.

 

needless ot say not fond of my family feel they are bludgers I never have been always worked my bum off for what I need neevr taken from anyone...but always given-- sorry to rant justs o anoyed at them being selfish as I said to them all now's not the time..smile move on and give her hope.