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  • barbiecorn
    barbiecorn Member Posts: 437
    edited January 2012

    Does Feb. 1st count to post here...I will be in the hospital getting my double mass.

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  • pbebow
    pbebow Member Posts: 575
    edited January 2012

    Barbiecorn, we are all from January 2010, I'm sure that there is another thread for January 2012 and there will probably be a February 2012 also, I am sure that you will be welcome at either one.  You are welcome here but I feel that you would get more out of one where everyone is going through the same thing you are right now.  We all have come to mean a lot to each other so we have kept the thread going, I hope that you get as much support as we all have gotten from each other.  Good luck with your surgery, stay strong and stay positive!  You will be there for your daughter!

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  • ReginaR
    ReginaR Member Posts: 287
    edited January 2012
    Barbiecorn, wanted to say welcome & we are here for you, But Paula is right,there is also a group for 2012 Jan surgery, you may want to check it out here is the site.

    http://community.breastcancer.org/forum/91/topic/779236?page=1#post_2764763

    {{{{{{{{{"Team January" Group Hug}}}}}}}}}}

    Love ya all my Pink  Sisters!Kiss

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    Donna, Welcome Back!   I am glad to see you here - we've missed you Smile 

    (((Kat))) I have been thinking of you today, hoping you are feeling better. 

    Love ya Team Jan - Hugs !

    Sally

    Never Surrender !!!!

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  • ariesrottie
    ariesrottie Member Posts: 260
    edited January 2012

    Kat- Hope you are feeling good today. 

    Missed everyone and sending {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} to my January sisters. Boy is it cold outside.

    DonnaKiss 

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2012

    Hi Team

    Kat how are you doing? That is so frustrating that you had to go through you medical information like that only to find out they still have medications listed from 2 years ago! But good that you got it all cleaned up now. Like you don't have enough to think about!

    Gina great news about your husband, and hoping you get the same from your results.

    I am just back from being on a cruise, and thinking of Team January. Thank goodness our cruise was in the caribbean and not in Italy......that is horrible.  I went with my kids, parents, brother and his family. We had a really nice time. I even splurged and opted to pay the extra for a balcony, and I am so glad I did. A couple of years ago we went to Florida and being the cheap person I usually am, I opted for saving the few bucks and not getting my hotel on the beach. I so clearly remember getting to the hotel and just crying and thinking "why didn't I spend the few extra bucks for a place right on the beach" I don't want to have regrets like that, so decided to splurge this time. That is one thing this disease has done for/to me!

    Hard to believe we are celebrating our 2nd anniversay this month!

    Take Care and stay warm (we are going into a deep freeze here in Canada)

    Cathy

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  • bcincolorado
    bcincolorado Member Posts: 5,758
    edited January 2012

    Kat and Gina and Lola and everyone having their surgery anniversary this week, you are on my mind.

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    ((Kat)) Thinking of you today (and always).

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  • grdnslve
    grdnslve Member Posts: 310
    edited January 2012

    Wow, what an anniversary month this is.  What a lot has happened to all of us in the last two years. 

    Friday the 13th ( my DS birthday) brother went into hospital - couldn't walk.  They told him by the results of the scans the chemo isn't doing anything so he is choosing to stop.  They sent him home on his birthday a few days later.  Hospice is being arranged.  We have all agreed there is no point in telling our mother.  I know some may disagree, but she is settled & happy in her routine as long as nothing rocks her world. 

    I think I'm depressed........and that scares me. Trying so hard to be optomistic and keep looking on the bright side....... Pollyanna ... and I don't want to say anything to upset him or sound unsupportive of his decision, but can't help wondering if he would hear a different story were he here in the states.  Can anyone from Canada reassure me?

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  • jizogarden
    jizogarden Member Posts: 375
    edited January 2012

    I want to send good thoughts to everyone..I feel like I am rapidly falling behind.  

    Gina so glad your husbands tests have come back cancer free...I hope you get your own results soon and that everything is completely fine....crossing all fingers and toes for you.

    Kat I wish lumps would stop appearing...all go away....leave you alone and that you wouldn't have to worry about any of this. =\

    I wish I could saw sawdust...maybe that's why I'm constantly covered in the stuff ;) Love the story....and so true.....Debbie.

    Donna so nice to hear from you...we all get busy with life...isn't that how's is suppose to be :) 

    Lola I'm so sorry about your brother....my brother has also been very ill for a long time and we are just marking time.....it is difficult....wishing you strength. 

    also Lola your puppy is so so cute! (((((((Hugs to Sally and Kathy...and everyone))))))

    I went in to surgery this past Monday for some scar repair and to remove a little extra skin on my left breast which was creating a weird shape and allowing my implant it to creep under my armpit a bit. The bad scaring and shape occured after the bad infections I got this past summer :(  From what I've seen under the bandages (which will be removed tomorrow) it is not pretty! I'm pretty sad and upset because I don't want to go under the knife any more....I think my PS may have put some inner stiches to keep my implant more forward in too far forward and now my boob has a big divot and facing too forward...if that makes any sence =(  I hope he can reassure me tomorrow and that what I'm seeing now will relax into a better shape when given time and after the swelling goes down.....arghhhhhh!!!!!!!! >=o(

    So please accept mountains of strength and good thoughts to all....

    xox Laura and Smudgy's waggy tail...... 

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  • ariesrottie
    ariesrottie Member Posts: 260
    edited January 2012

    Hello to all my January Sisters. Hope everyone is doing okay. I prayed alot today for all of us.

    Sent DD back up to College yesterday. all with brand new snow tires that my DH put on her car on Monday for her. Well she wasn't even up at school 12 hours she calls this morning with a sad voice. Mother instinct set in and said " what's wrong ??" Mom I have 2 flat tires. She had 2 tires slashed in her Boyfriends driveway. I have ins. on tires but they aren't covered because it was vandalized. So I had to call State Farm. They will cover half. So instead of paying 495.00 I will pay half. Her DBF said he would pay for it. He only has 500.00 in his account for school. Am I to take it from him? How could I? Everyday it seems like you can never get ahead. DH business not doing as well as it used to because of the economy. I work 42 to 47 Hrs a week. and it still seems like its not enough. Sometimes I wish I can run away... I know I'm rattling and I have no right too. Some of us are going through stuff that we shouldn't have to do again. I'm sorry. Just needed to vent. 

    Getting so snow tonight and then again over the weekend. I guess the winter is finally upon us. I hate it. Please take care everyone.

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{KAT}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}. Wishing you strength and courage.

    XOXO- Donna 

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  • bcincolorado
    bcincolorado Member Posts: 5,758
    edited January 2012

    Thinking of you Kat.

    Lola, I'm so sorry about your brother.  You can feel free to tell us about your feelings.  We have been there or know someone ourselves in the same situation. 

    Donna, I hope your snow lets up.  How crummy they slashed her tires!  There is never a good time for those things.

    Paula

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  • pbebow
    pbebow Member Posts: 575
    edited January 2012

    Donna, you are allowed to vent here... that's what we are here for.  That just plain sucks, I don't understand what people get out of doing things like that.  Why can't people just be nice!

     Laura, no peeking!  LOL!  You know that you can't judge it already.  It needs time for the swelling to go down and things to settle.  I'll be praying for a great reveal!!!  It will be good!  Positive attitude!!!

    Kat, here's to hat day!

    Hugs & prayers to all!!!

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    (((Laura))) I will be sending out positive thoughts for a great reveal :)

    (((Donna))) vent all you want - that's why we are here !

    (((Lola))) I am so sorry for your brother.  I will pray for your family.

    (((Kat))) Thinking of you today. 

    I am going out of town later today with oldest (almost 15 yr) DD.  We are heading to a cabin in WV.  Our extended family is having a women's weekend.  Rented a huge cabin and the women are coming and going to hang out together for the weekend.  Should be fun !  My grandpa had 12 siblings, so could be a lot of women !

    I love ya Team !  Hugs to all !

    Sally

    Never Surrender !!!!!!!

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited January 2012

    My goodness team.

    I felt my heart drop to read the fear in the newbie, Barbiecorn's post.

    That was each and everyone of us exactly two years ago -- right about now -- wasn't it.

    A few a step ahead and others falling in the ranks on the way to surgeries and treatement of one sort or another.

    (((((((((((((((((((((((((Kat)))))))))))))))))))

    I wish you had utter confidence and complete trust in every aspect of your team and their handling your journey. That just seems like it should be a pre-requisite -- that every aspect be handled with such care and diplomacy, insight and brilliance.... from absolutely everyone involved. I can't imagine you having to take charge of your own file??? Shesssssh. Is there a place to give feedback?

    ((((((((((((((((((((((((Lola)))))))))))))))))))))

    It seems to me that some 'depression' would be a 'genuine' response. I remember begin dx with the train-wreck (metaphorical) of our custody battle. The doctor who prescribed meds for me, said he was glad to know that I was feeling 'depressed' -- that it was a natural response to an unreasonable, untenable (spelling?) situation. That I would need to grieve and gain perspective that only time could bring and that meds would afford me the luxury of sleeping.

    So many need so many hugs.

    (((((((((((((((((((((Laura))))))))))))))))))))))

    You've been put thru the wringer again and again. I have no words for the on-going nature of the heartbreak of the continuing surgeries and setbacks. Know that I treasure your resillence even when you are at the end of your rope. You know. Tie a knot and hang on. Then there's always that other bumper sticker, "When all else fails, lower your expectations."

    (((((((((((((((((((Donna))))))))))))))))))))))))

    Welcome back. Vent away. Stay the course: one foot and then the other.

    Saying prayers for all of our rag-tag little troop.

    xx00xx00xx00xx00xx

    We leave for New Orleans in the morning. I have a school visit on Mon and then on to Baton Rouge for a state conference the next several days. Vagabonds as per usual.

    Strength and courage.

    Strength and courage.

    Strength and courage.

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  • jizogarden
    jizogarden Member Posts: 375
    edited January 2012

    (((((((((((to all))))))))))))) and thanks for the encouragement =)

    The big reveal was not good.....it is very hard to explain what he did and...I don't have the energy or the memory to post it on the picture site.....if I figure it out I'll put an image up.  I basically wept like a irrational baby through our whole talk.  I can't say it was a talk with my ps because I was crying and he was inching towards the door the entire time......he didn't know what to do. He is very nice and talented and just not used to getting a bad review =(  Even his nurse confirmed my feelings and said it could always be fixed with another surgery.....  So this coming week I'm going in an I am going to try not to cry.....and just ask him straight up.  It it easier to fix this thing if we go right back in before new scar tissue forms or is it better to go in after healing has occured. The basic problem is he needed to bring the pocked in about a inch tops...and he brought it in at least 2 inches....there is now a pocket/hole under my implant and it hangs over hole....I'm going to try to post it. =\

    Sorry if I'm not making any sence.....there's just been so much piled on lately I'm not feeling very resilliant! :(  Thanks for listening to my rant.......

    I posted my photo....on the breast site...it's under JizoGarden..... 

    Hugs and courage to all each and every one of you lovely ladies.....xox Laura 

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  • pbebow
    pbebow Member Posts: 575
    edited January 2012

    Laura, I just went to the picture forum and posted my thoughts.  Chin up my dear, there are always options, you are not done until you say you are done!!!

    Hugs and prayers to you!

    Paula

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  • jizogarden
    jizogarden Member Posts: 375
    edited January 2012

    thanks Paula.....I responded on the other page.....I agree......I need to do what is best for me and if I need another opinion on how to correct this I will go for one.  I think my ps will go in and reverse this mess as soon as I can be clear about how unhappy I am.  You would think crying uncontrollabley would give him some idea =(

    I'll keep you all posted....crossing fingers......xoxo Laura

    Kat how is yiour chemo going are the lumps on the run??? I think of you all the time....wishing for the best outcome....clear healthy Kat :)

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  • KatRNagain92
    KatRNagain92 Member Posts: 522
    edited January 2012

    Oh Laura, I'm so sorry, I had no idea you were going through unwanted reconstruction.  I can so relate to "wept like an irrational baby"  I hope you are on the mend soon...Vit C!!!!   Helps with healing.  (oh, how much Vit C was Smudge on?  just curious)

    I'm so sorry for your pain Lola.  I'm starting to get a bit skeptical myself and I don't want to do that.  Pollyana, yup, that's right.   I wish you strength, strength and more strength! 

    My current journey is altered body image with this damn hair coming out.  I'm collecting it all in a pretty Kleenix box and this spring I'm going to take some out to the bushes for the birds to build nests. (You've inspired me CinD!:)  But anyway, back to the hair.  I comes out best when it's wet..I guess it's heavier.  Every day I just pull more and more out.  A couple more days and it should be all gone  (yikes)  I've got a wide assortment of hats, mostly newsboy cap styles because I can put my headset around those.  I've even got one soft knit one I've designated my 'housecoat hat' so I can lounge around and not squig out my poor hubby...who is having a little trouble with this.  I can probably start wearing my wig but I haven't because my scalp was so incredibly tender and sore.  Started out tingly and no pain, then lots of pain and now no pain again...so that really only lasted 24 hours.  So yay.  Maybe the wig tomorrow.  We'll see.  The hats sure are more comfortable! 

    2nd Chemo treatment is this Thursday so I'm hoping I'll sail through it like I did the first one.  The anti-cancer diet (broccoli, spinach, nuts and berries and almond milk) is certainly helping as far as my mood goes and my energy level too.  I tried this flaxseed receipe with cottage cheese and well....that cure will have to continue testing without me.  :) 

    Happy Anniversary to everyone this week...and esp to my surgery sisters: Laura, Sally and Donna!  Onward To NED! 

    Have a good rest of your Sunday ladies. 

    xoxo

    Kat

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    My link to the picture forum is no longer working.  Can someone pm me the address again ?

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    (((Kat))) My greatest wish is that next year, on our third anniversary, You, Donna, Laura, and I will all come to BCO, toast our anniversary, and celebrate NED with you.  Please remember, you are beautiful and you are loved - no matter what is on your head; hair, hat, or a unicorn horn ;)

    Hugs Team January !

    Sally

    Never Surrender !!!!!!!

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  • robinlbe
    robinlbe Member Posts: 585
    edited January 2012

    Happy Anniversaries to everyone.....seems I've missed them all Frown   I'm so sorry.  This teaching job keeps me from doing so many things I enjoy, like getting on BC.Org, and visiting with my J-team sisters.  These two years have brought all of us many changes, and have given us new views on life, I think....and a greater faith, too.  I think it also has made us realize how fragile life is, and how none of us are guaranteed tomorrow, much less our next breath....and how precious every event and every moment can be :)

    That being said, Kat - I'm glad you were able to get through Round #1 just fine!  Here's to Round #2.  My dad, like you, worked right through all his chemo.  After his hair came out, he used to laugh and say that it saved him money because he didn't have to use (or buy) shampoo anymore!   He also said it saved him time getting ready because he didn't have to worry about messing with his hair Wink  Hopefully, the same goes for you!    In all seriousness, please know that you are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers....and I'm praying that the chemo is already doing the job it was intended to do, and that this time next year, you will not only be cancer-free, but your life will be back to normal, and you'll be enjoying life to its fullest!!!

    Lola - I am so sorry about your brother.  Oh, my.....It sounds as if you are close.  My brother and I aren't close at all, but I still wouldn't like it if this were happening to him.  By the way, you mentioned the book Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein.....we met him a couple of years ago at a book signing.  My daughter had won a writing contest, and her story was read at his book signing.  He spoke about his book, and we were able to talk to him - and he talked to Rachel.  It was really cool.  Of course, we bought the book;  he signed it for us, and it's on our shelves now.  I just recently purchased the kids' version of this book for my classroom.

    Our latest physical issue in our family???  Thanks for asking.  Thankfully, it is NOT cancer...praise be to God.  However, it's our youngest, who is 14 y.o.  Found out he has congenital scoliosis.  His spinal vertebrae did not separate before he was born.  His rib bone sits at his shoulder!  No joke!  I thought I was rubbing a very hard, tight muscle in his shoulder...nope.  It's his rib.  One shoulder sits about 3-4 inches higher than the other.  The hemivertebrae (a wedge, triangular shaped vetebrae) is at the T3-4.  Normally these are in the "L' section.  When down there, it's a 1 in 10,000 case.  Because his is up higher, it's even more rare.  Thankfully, he has NO pain and no neurological impairment at this point.  However, the main doctor at the Shriners Hospital in Philadelphia, PA wants to see him!!  He only sees the rarest and worst cases.  (we live in Indiana, right by Louisville, kY).  Sooooo, this is the next journey......   we don't know what the prognosis is for this, as it will be affected by his growth. 

    On the other hand, our daughter, who was supposed to go to college in the fall - but passed out four days before move-in day and ended up with a bad concussion (and couldn't go to school)  DID go to college two weeks ago.  She still is suffering some side effects from the two concussions she suffered last year.  AND it turns out that the passing out issues likely stemmed from the acne medication she was on!!!!!!!   (both times she passed out, she had a severe sinus infection.  Couple that with the acne med. that causes vestibular problems and couple that with her sensory/vestibular problems due to her extremely premature birth at 23.5 weeks, where she weighed just a little over one pound.....and she had major problems.  poor kid.  TOO BAD no one knew this....grrr.)

     So, happy new year to all......Happy anniversary to all.....prayers FOR all....love to all......and a sincere thank you to all for being such a special and essential part of my life the past two years!!

    robin

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  • ReginaR
    ReginaR Member Posts: 287
    edited January 2012

    KissDear TEAM, Just wanted to check in & Get a Group Hug!

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{TEAM JANUARY}}}}}}}}}}

    Thinking of all of you today! Happy Anniversary to all of you  & Thinking of  My Pink sisters whom are still going thru treatments & Surgery & Challenges

     I am Praying for Sunshine days  & Smiles for all my Team!

    Love ya , Gina

    P.S. I got my Repeated pap smear results & Yea it was Negative, I am doing the happy Dance!

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  • pbebow
    pbebow Member Posts: 575
    edited January 2012

    Yay Gina!!!

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  • jizogarden
    jizogarden Member Posts: 375
    edited February 2012

    Hi to all January Ladies, Below I've copied and pasted my reply on the the breast reconstruction site. 

    I went to see my ps late this afternoon....he was understanding and explained that over time the sutures would relax a bit and the indent would look less extreme....but he didn't say anything about a stitch being removed.  He said he thought I was more intent on cleavage..and misunderstood me.  He will give me a nice natural side boob if I don't mind having the cleavage a bit less.  I said that's perfect....I don't care about cleavage at all that's what bras are for  

    When he left the room his nurse stayed behind and said "off the record" she completely agreed with my decision....she would do the same thing   This doctor and nurse are like family...it's been a two year journey of many highs a lows and I think we are finally almost done 

    I may be going into surgery as soon as Wednesday....before these sutures completely heal.  I am putting my trust in him one more time.....crossing all fingers and toes  

    Kat wish I knew what to say about your hair....hope you have some lovely soft caps for your tender scalp...as pretty as you are I bet you still look cute ;)  I'm glad your anti-cancer veggies, berries and almond milk are making you feel good :)  I'll email you about Smudgy's vitamine C dose...it is not at all the same as the iv dose used in humans....

    Lola my thoughts are with you....the right words come so hard....

    Gina....hooray!!!!!! :)

    So I may have a new boob in two days...I'll keep everyone posted....crossing all fingers and toes....

    Courage and strength to all you sweet friends,

    xox Laura, Graham's bright spirit and Smudgy's waggy tail... 

    sorry this is all so weird...the cut an paste made things a little crazy =P 

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    Yay Gina !

    Laura, I am so glad you were able to talk with the PS and that he is going to fix things for you.  You deserve to be happy !!!!

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  • burley
    burley Member Posts: 631
    edited January 2012

    Hi girls!  Happy belated anniversaries-mine was Thursday, uneventful.

    Kat-I posted on Facebook but I will mention again, it will hurt less when you shave your head.  I'm glad you were able to find some cute hats, and a great wig :)  Sorry for the new lump that appeared, but it's good to hear that they're softening.

    Gina-so happy to hear of yours and your husband's great results!

    Lola-I'm so sorry to hear about your brother.  I hope that hospice can make him more comfortable.  I know they were a great help when I took care of my mom at home.

    Laura!  You poor thing.  I understand right where you're at-I had a crying episode with my plastic surgeon at one point too, but she was great with it.  I'm glad he's getting you right back in to fix it.

    Not much here.  Waiting on a counselor to call me back because I would swear I have PTSD.  My personality has changed so much in the past couple of years...I'm skittish, anxious, depressed.  Sucks.  I need to be more proactive instead of just taking meds.

    Sorry I'm not here more often, but you guys are always in my thoughts! 

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  • bcincolorado
    bcincolorado Member Posts: 5,758
    edited January 2012

    Kat:  Hope you are doing ok.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Kim:  I understand the PTSD thing.  I am the say way but do not want to be on meds.  If I could just stay home all the time with DH I would do it.  Hang in there.  You aren't alone.

    Paula

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  • neversurrender
    neversurrender Member Posts: 508
    edited January 2012

    (((Kat))) I am thinking of you today.  I hope treatment #2 goes as smoothly as the first.  (((HUGS)))

    Sally

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  • jizogarden
    jizogarden Member Posts: 375
    edited January 2012

    Hi ladies :)

    I'm feeling better than I expected...maybe because he went back in so quickly and didn't have to tear up a bunch of healed tissue. :)  I'm sore but I got through the night on tylenol =)  I've already looked at the work he did and it's much much better...more like my other booby ( o )( o ) (they never looked and still don't look as good as this little symbol ;)

    When I walked into the OR I wished my PS happy 2 year anniversary...he gave me an air hug because we were sterile and the room applauded for no cancer.  I thought of you Kat and our shared surgery date and all who still fight this long battle...I pray that cancer leaves for good!

    So I'm think I'm done....I may think about tattoos down the road ..... but I'm not sure that is even important to me anymore........

    Kim hoping you find some relief comfort from you anxiety :(  I do believe PTSD is often thougtht of for trauma in battle and it is often overlooked for the trauma so many of us experience in life. Big hug to you ((((((((Kim))))))))))

    Kat my thoughts and prayers are with you every day......and happy anniversary to you and to all.

    Thank you all for your kindness and support :) 

    xox ♥ xox Laura on the mend :) 

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