I think I may be a little slow on the uptake

bedo · December 2011

bedo · December 2011

I was diagnosed last July, lost my job 2 weeks before fell down the stairs after lumpectomy and had to have second surgery to repair a bone in my face and then rads. and had to move into a studio cabin. At first I was depressed and lay around for a week, then I was just annoyed at everything. Yesterday it hit me. It was BC. This may be a little dumb, but I was thinking, oh, it's just like that fibroadenoma you had taken out when you were 20. I had a mini anxiety attack, which I never have. But maybe it is similair in prognosis since everything looks good? I don't even know what I'm asking. Has anyone else felt like this? Do I really have to be freaked out? The Dr. said I will live for a long, long time.

LtotheK · December 2011

This happens to me all the time. My prognosis isn't quite as excellent as yours (though I don't see you Oncotype score) but I'm still Stage 1, so there is plenty to be hopeful for. I call them my "oh, F***!" moments. Sometimes the come in the middle of the night, sometimes it is in the middle of a completely unrelated task. I think BC can cause post traumatic stress disorder, and this is a classic symptom.

dlb823 · December 2011

bedo...Yes, it was bc, but you caught it early, it wasn't a particulary aggressive bc, and you've done everything your doctors recommended. That's what you need to focus on.

I think it's normal for our minds to compartmentalize and suppress a lot when we're initially dx'd, to deal with at a later time, so that we can direct all of our strength to deal with our tx. And it sounds like that's what's happening to you -- some of those suppressed fears are surfacing now, which is entirely normal.

It also sounds like you've had an especially rough few months with the added fall and surgery in there. I hope your face is okay and that things will start looking up for you! (((Hugs))) Deanna

Elizabeth1889 · December 2011

bedo, Your reactions are normal. I felt confident that I would live a long time during the period of my surgery, chemo, and rads. Now that they are over, I have anxiety attacks. Sometimes, it just hits me out of nowhere that I did indeed have cancer. Scary times!

TifJ · December 2011

I hear you Bedo! I am stage 1 as well, but TN and my prognosis is good. Sometimes I cry over the littlest things thinking- I may never get to do or see this again (especially with the kids). I think that it is perfectly normal though as we never know what is going to happen- BC related or not!

Rockym · December 2011

Normal, normal, normal (or I'm way abnormal). I did great though diagnosis, surgery and chemo, but now after 6 months I'm starting to hit a wall. A lot of my tough girl fighter attitude has become more of a pissed off annoyed attitude. Of course it didn't help that I had a fall back on December 1 and the pain hasn't subsided yet. I've taken more Advil and Tylenol in the past 2+ weeks then I probably have in my entire life combined.

debbie6122 · December 2011

Ohhhh Bedo, you have gone through so much, no wonder you are feeling the way you are, You are not that far off from being DX it will take time. I'm about 2 years out and doing so much better, you will get there I promise! We are all here for you, sending Huge cyber hugs to you! Debbie

Susie123 · December 2011

Hang in there, your thoughts are perfectly normal. In 3 days it will be 2 years since my diagnosis and from time to time it still enters my mind that I have cancer...grateful for the early stage, actually just like yours, but still cancer. I think it's normal to "freak out" a little from time to time even though with grade 1, stage 1, I too was told by the Dr that I have an excellent chance of never seeing this again.

I think I may be a little slow on the uptake

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