6 Month Onc Appt

pupfoster1
pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
edited June 2014 in Stage III Breast Cancer

So I go for my 6 month appointment on Tuesday and am starting to get that nervous feeling.  A while back I had an issue in my abdomen that my GP had xrayed and he found a small pocket of fluid built up there.  He said it was probably from the surgery and he could either aspirate it or let it reabsorb.  It seemed to get better over time, but now it's back and seems even bigger.  It's pressing on my ribcage and just feels uncomfortable and  very WEIRD!!!  S%#T!  So of course now I'm worried it's something insidious and she's going to recommend scans which of course will freak me out, and the kicker is I HAVE to go to work RIGHT after as I have a huge project due that day.

I know I'm projecting, but I JUST HATE THIS!   Seemed as though I had some peace for a while and now I'm back on that roller coaster again.

Thanks for listening.

Sharon

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  • anna4969
    anna4969 Member Posts: 86
    edited October 2011

    Sharon

    I am sorry that this stuff brings on such high anxiety for us.  I am with you girl....Monday I have a muga, a abdominal ct and a lung ct to look at nodules they were following since July and see onc on Wednesday.  I will be thinking good thoughts for you on Tuesday.  And, like you, I have some pain/discomfort associated with the areas of concern.  I am really trying to keep the anxiety controlled.  Do you have any antianxiety meds that at least can get you settled down for the next couple of days?  I already planned that if I get too anxious this weekend thinking about all of this "crap" I am going to pull out the ativan I had for the nausea and try that.  If it is any comfort, I know just how you feel, you live your new normal until onc time.  It is like a double edged sword.  You need them because they save your life but you don't want to see them or hear them unless it is good news.  They are your best friend and your worst enemy all at the same time.  I hear you.  I haven't any experience with abdominal fluid build up, but I am sure that one of wonderful people hear will chime in with their experience.  Best wishes on Tuesday and functioning well at work after your appointment. :)  Please let me know how it went.

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited October 2011

    Hey Sharon,  Hang in there.  It's always stressful going to the onc.  Especially when there are issues hanging over you.  I guess the trip to the onc brings up so much emotionally for us and it's like revisiting the realization of all we've gone thru.  I just saw my onc a couple weeks ago for my 6 month visit, and was dreading it telling him I went of the hormonals.  I actually feel better after seeing because no scans recommended this time.  I'm already worrying about past scans I want to discuss with him at next visit.  Always the worries, I guess.

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    Barb

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  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited October 2011

    Thanks Anna and Barb.  I'll keep you all posted and will be thinking of you next week too Anna. 

    (((Hugs)))

    Sharon

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  • Outfield
    Outfield Member Posts: 1,109
    edited October 2011

    I almost seem to start worrying about the next Onc appointment just after I've gotten through one.  I agree, they're your best friend but worse enemy.  I still see my surgeon and I'm at least as scared of that.  Seems like someone here on this board is always having a scan.  It rots that we have to go through this process again and agai from here on out.  But definitely good to be here.

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  • Kay_G
    Kay_G Member Posts: 3,345
    edited October 2011

    I haven't gotten to the stage yet where it is more than 3 weeks between onc visits, but I definitely understand the anxiety.  I get so nervous that my blood pressure is about 20 points higher than normal when I'm there.  And then I go to chemo and it is normal.  Crazy that I am so nervous of the onc and what she might do/say or find and I am not afraid of chemo.

    Good luck with you visit!   Will be thinking of you and am looking forward to hearing all was well from you soon.  ((((((hugs))))))

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  • SharonMH
    SharonMH Member Posts: 353
    edited October 2011

    Hi  pupfoster1. Just thinking of you. Hope all goes well for your Onc Appt. It is not fair they we have to worry about ache and pain. Good luck on your project that day.  SharonH

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  • jennyboog
    jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
    edited October 2011

    I'm sorry Sharon, it seems like it's always something.  Just when we seem to be getting our life back there is always something to rear it's ugly head and not let us forget about BC.  I have a fluid pocket on my side and it is painful when I lay on it or press it, so I know what you mean.  I'm sure all will be well if there are scans since that's your only symptom you mention.  Sending you hugs and good vibes.

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  • tlundy
    tlundy Member Posts: 142
    edited October 2011

    Sharon - echoing what everone else has said. We completely get the roller coaster ride.  It sucks we so often only feel as good (or bad) as our last appointment went.  We are right here for you with good wishes and encouragement just like you always are for us. Love, hugs, and prayers to you!!

    Tara 

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  • elmcity69
    elmcity69 Member Posts: 998
    edited October 2011

    ((((((((sharon))))))))

    as jenny notes, the scans will likely be clear, since it's the only sx you're having. but: we all know how horrible the anxiety is. i'm so sorry you're going through it,and wish there was something i could say to take away the fear.

    holding you close in thought and prayer, girlfriend! let us know ---sending all my good vibes to you.

    xo

    j

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  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited October 2011

    Thanks again girls.  Will let you know after tomorrow!

    Sharon

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  • LittleFlower
    LittleFlower Member Posts: 405
    edited October 2011

    sharon,

    thinking of you.  I hate follow ups , especially when there is any concern in my mind at all.  I HATE FOLLOW UPS.  Sending positive vibes your way that your appt is smooth, with nothing but GOOD NEWS.  in fact, here's to ALL your future appts being nothing but good also!

    Gentle hugs, thinking of you

    LittleFlower

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