My Breasts finally past the finish line!!!!!!!!

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faithfulheart
faithfulheart Member Posts: 544

Hey Everyone,

Well,  I went for my final procedure on my recon today, Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!  It's been 2 years now, nov 13, 2009 that my ps put my expanders in. I had the switch last july to silicone, then lots of rads. 6 months later

He formed the nipple on both sides in march, it's just so crazy what they can do these days!

I had a pretty tough time healing on my cancer side from all the rads, so after 5 more months of healing,  he finally did the tatooing today!  You know what, it looks so real. I started crying, I felt so dumb, but the dr. said take a look in the mirror. I did and tears just started to roll down my face.  2 years ago this month I was told I had Breast cancer, it was the scariest day of my life.

I choose to have a bmx, regardless of recon, I would have done it even if there were no such thing as reconstruction after a bmx!  I just wanted to live. Well I am living, I am raising my kids, one day at a time. Today, for the first time in a very long time, I felt some sort of closer to this nightmare we call bc. I felt like humpty dumpty that fell off the wall,  a real hell of a fall. So all the Dr.s and nurses, family and friends, helped put humpty together again!!!! I know it's cheezy, but you get my point. I just wanted to share this with the strongest women I have ever encountered.

I know my journey will continue as yours will too, but each day, is ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So,  although it was a long road,

It's one more thing I can put behind me, thank God!!  I loved my ps, but I am really tired of seeing him!!!  I am not saying recon is for all, and I know that sometimes it's not even an option, we all know our goal is to keep this beast at bay. I just wanted to say that for me, in this world, it was a good day!!!!!

Love to all my sister's,

Stephanie

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  • profbee
    profbee Member Posts: 858
    edited September 2011

    WONDERFUL story...so happy for you today.  Thank you for sharing this--really.  

    Love,

  • Celtic_Spirit
    Celtic_Spirit Member Posts: 748
    edited September 2011

    I'm so glad for you! It sounds like your mind is in a good place.

  • SharonMH
    SharonMH Member Posts: 353
    edited September 2011

    Hi Faithfulheart. So happy for you on this day. Sounds like things are going well for you. To a long and healhy life.SharonH

  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited September 2011

    Hurray!!!  I was just about to post that I had my nipples done yesterday!

    Sharon

  • Bugs
    Bugs Member Posts: 1,719
    edited September 2011

    Awesome!  Congrats to you...so glad you love the new you.  Isn't it amazing what they can do these days?  

  • SharonMH
    SharonMH Member Posts: 353
    edited September 2011

    Hi  Sharon so happy that you are also doing so well. SharonH

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited September 2011

    Yippeeeeee!! Stephanie,  One more step in the road of thriver survivor!

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    Barb

  • jennyboog
    jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
    edited September 2011
    Congrats on reaching the end of the recon leg of this journey.  I'm glad to hear everything is going good for you....you make me want recon Smile
  • JacquelineG
    JacquelineG Member Posts: 282
    edited September 2011

    Congratulations!!!!! That's wonderful!

    I had nipple reconstruction in May and will have tatooing done this fall.... I'm already feeling that feeling you have .... it's awesome!

     Jackie

  • faithfulheart
    faithfulheart Member Posts: 544
    edited September 2011

    Thanks girls for your sweet comments.

    I just want to say to all my sister's who chose, or could not have recon. This,  I feel is just one more thing in my life that I will put behind me, and as I stated before, I would have removed both my breasts either way!!  My main goal was to live to raise my kids, and recon or not I still pray everyday that God will grant me that gift. So although it was a step in my journey, it was just a personal step. We make strides everyday in our daily life to move forward, I am constantly working on the fear factor!!! Thats a tough one. I hope I did not offend any of my dear sister's who have not had recon, because #1 it's a pain in the !@#$ to go through, and it does not define us!!!

    If I had known how advanced my cancer was, I may have chose a different route, but by the time they knew how advanced I was, the recon had been started. Jenny, you are cancer free!!!Tthats all that matters!!

    Thank you all for the support!!!

    xoxo

    steph

  • Pure
    Pure Member Posts: 1,796
    edited September 2011

    omg...that is SO weird to hear you say that..The humpty dumpty poem goes thorugh my mind DAILY! I have my expanders in currently and just scheduled my final surgery. It's sur real to be near the end...It's a great feeling-a sad feeling-it's strange and great all at the same time. but yes I just said to my husband the SAME exact thing the other day about feeling like Humpty Dumpty! So strange:)

  • jennyboog
    jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
    edited September 2011

    Yes I am Steph & I feel the same way....my BS was trying to convince me to do expanders at my BMX and at the time it was all too much.  All I could think of was....I just want to live, who cares about boobs and the extra surgeries to get them.  Now that life is returning to normal I will admit I'm starting to think about it but at the same time I'm ok with none too, I guess with time I'll decide.  Congrats again, so happy for you.

  • faithfulheart
    faithfulheart Member Posts: 544
    edited September 2011

    Thanks jenny,

    you are an amazing person, you will know if it's right for you or not. Look at all the top run way models, Hello????? They look incrediable, except mabey to thin, but there  chests make clothes look great!!! You look thinner too!!  WoW, thats good stuff, ohh not to mention my ps did not take my ins. I will paying for a while!! Lets enjoy our lives! I will feel better after tommorow 3 month onc. appt. Always get a little nervous!!! Pray for me!!

    Big Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Steph

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