I can't stand it when I get close to my onc appts.

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ringosmommy
ringosmommy Member Posts: 91
edited June 2014 in Young With Breast Cancer

So, I have my usual round of appts starting in three weeks.  I can't STAND myself when I get close to this.  Every pain, must be cancer.  I have had recurrent pain in my left hip socket for two months or so.  Ofcourse, it must be cancer.  I have sinus headaches.  ofcourse must be cancer.

the weirdest thing is, I don't think that like in June, when it's not dr time.  I think that in September when my appt is looming.  Why is it not cancer in my head unless I am getting a blood draw???

Cori

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  • jc3win
    jc3win Member Posts: 61
    edited August 2011

    Ugh - I go this Thursday and it sucks. I do not know when this will finally stop - if ever. I suppose it is encouraging that you "only" get extra paranoid twice a year. My appointments are still every three months so my paranoia barely gets to settle down before it cranks back up.  

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  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 3,761
    edited August 2011

    I see my Onc again Sept 8 and the first mammogram since my Dx in October so I have some scary appts coming up too. I dont think we will ever get over the fear factor. Cancer does that to you. I am already an anxious person so by the time I see my drs I will be a basket case. I guess the only thing we can do is pray and keep the faith. Good luck...diane

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  • ratbait
    ratbait Member Posts: 141
    edited August 2011

    The fun doesn't end, does it?



    I think it slowly gets better with time, but the worry that comes with aches and pains in the back, coughs, or lower right abdominal pain is real.....



    Hope your visit is uneventful.

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  • Melonda
    Melonda Member Posts: 309
    edited August 2011

    Sigh, I do the same thing. In fact I hate to admit but I don't even have another onc appt scheduled. I got so annoyed at them last time I never scheduled a return visit. I'm sure I will try to get in before the end of the year and I know I can't NOT go but it's such a mindfuck.

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  • ringosmommy
    ringosmommy Member Posts: 91
    edited August 2011

    Tell me about the mindfuck is right!



    I had my blood draw today. So I am watching the computer screen and I see CBC, some other panel, and calcium. Wth I think. I don't get a calcium. I realized that the tech put in ca and first thing that popped up was calcium so she elected that instead of the ca. 29-27. So I corrected her and she got pissy with me. Well wth, am I not nervous enough that when I go to oncs wait forever just to find out they didn't run my tumor markers! Like that would help.



    Thank you guys I need the talking off the ledge around now.



    Cori

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  • MustangIA
    MustangIA Member Posts: 177
    edited August 2011

    I feel ya - especially now.  I have to take a Xanax to go get my freakin' blood drawn!  I'm totally serious.  A pissy tech would have probably pushed me right over the edge - so good for you that you didn't deck her!  Love to you Cori - I'm sure everything will be just fine.  When is the appointment - this week or next? 

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  • ratbait
    ratbait Member Posts: 141
    edited August 2011

    Hope everything went well with your appointment.



    I can't believe the nurse argued with you. Frankly, I think you should complain.



    If she is that ditzy, she doesn't deserve to work in oncology.





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  • ringosmommy
    ringosmommy Member Posts: 91
    edited August 2011

    Sally-my appt isn't for like two to three weeks.  I had my blood drawn early.   I knew I would have a hard time getting in for the draw next week.  

    Beth-she was obviously a nitwit.  and new to there atleast.  as a blood draw she was good.  

    So, I don't go in for a few weeks.  ugh.  

    Cori

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  • ratbait
    ratbait Member Posts: 141
    edited August 2011

    Cori, can't believe you have to go through that hassle. I go in fifteen minutes before my appointment for a blood draw. The CBC is finished in about five minutes. The liver function takes 45. And the results are available online in 45 minutes. Not sure I could handle the stress of going in twice. How nerve racking.

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  • Cheylana
    Cheylana Member Posts: 12
    edited September 2011
    I'm an oddball, but I actually like going to my appointments.  I don't feel confident in my own SBEs, so I like having the onc and/or breast surgeon "feel me up" and do a proper exam and giving me the all-clear.  Also, I'm chummy with the nurses and staff, so we get a chance to catch up with one another.  I'm a weirdo!   Embarassed 
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  • sundermom
    sundermom Member Posts: 463
    edited September 2011

    I'm right there with you ladies. I finished treatment, except for the beloved Tamoxifen, in July. I have my first round of scans in October. It definitely does a number on you! My grandmother is a 25 year BC survivor and she says she never thinks about it now. So...I guess there is life post BC I'm just not there yet :)

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  • nitereina
    nitereina Member Posts: 9
    edited September 2011

    Cori- augh. me too...I get serious anxiety. I go wednesday and I'm just so anxious and obsess over everything. adavan isnt working for me anymore. i gotta talk to my onc about something else! thinking of you...

    hugs

    Marie

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