Bottle 'o Tamoxifen

Shari - What a wonderful thing you are doing to help someone else having to go through this dreadful journey.  I'm sure the women you have helped are really appreciative.  Way to go girlfriend.  Oh yes, and congrats on getting the cast off.

Shari... congrats ont he fundraiser. what a wonderful success!!!. you were able to aide in the help of so many others...thats awesome

Junieb .. you are wonderful!

Hi jo sherry paula sandee shari ad all my other tammy ladies

have a great evening!

HUgs!

Shari thats so good to see how it came together for you.  Im happy for you.  I bet it was great fun and its good to see the amount of women you will be able to help, yahoo!!!!  Congrats on the cast removing.  I bet that is a relief to have that off. 

Hi Tink, Jo, Sherry, June, and all of you gals I have missed.  Today is a good day!

June I hope your mom is having a good time.  Im sure she is since she is with you.  Enjoy your time.

ugh Just lost such a nice post.  Shall try again:

June ~ Hope you had a nice day with your mom.  I am sure it is hard on you all dealing with the loss of your dear dad.  HUGS !

Shari ~ great job on your fundraiser that is such a wonderful thing !  I hope you too get good news at the dr.

JO ~ leave the laptop home and enjoy your golf !!!!  I don't have the patience for that but my son is 12 and is really good.  He goes to golf camp and is on the town's golf league.  I love it ~ he looks so cute in his golf attire !! 

Sherry, Tink, Paula ~ and everyone else I hope you have a good week.

I am feeling better thank god, and so glad to get the all CLEAR for 6 months.  I can go through the holidays and not worry till February. woo HOO.  We also just booked a little cruise for Aug 22nd for 5 days to Canada ~  May not be warm and sunny but we will have fun fun fun anyway.  I love cruising !!  So I am looking forward to that.

 Been having some issues with my mom.  She is 75 and I think mental illness is effecting her.  It has been on and off her whole life, but she is getting bad.  Have to try to get her some type of help but everytime I try she threatens to kill herself.  OYE !!

Big hugs girls,

Alicia

Alicia just when your life is starting to look good, now Mom.....so sorry as I truly feel your pain and know how hard it is......we are here for you, vent anytime.  Hugs!!

Jo somehow I don't believe you can live without us for a week as I recall your last trip you still logged on the night before when staying in a hotel.....he he.....you know you will be missed!!!

Shari I am so proud of you and you must f eel fantastic about what you accomplished.....that was a huge amount to raise!!!!  Way to go girl.....

Sherry, yoga huh?  I wish I could find the time as i know I would love it!!  That is got to be why you look fantastic!

Tink, Paula, Sandee missing you all and hope you are enjoying your day as I am completely wiped out and must sign off..........kiss kiss

Jo and Alicia, have fun!

I need the break from here and I always like coming to SA.

Jules Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!

Oops, should reread posts. LOL

Good, you get to feed us then!

Thanks Sherry.

I have first dibs on Alicia's luggage.  I'm sure she will make room for all of us.

Count me in too......would love to take a look at that handsome hubby of yours....he he, totally harmless!!!  I think!!

Tink I would fly anywhere with you friend......

Count me in, too, please.



I could use a vacation. Day after my party i caught a bad cold which is now sounding like bronchitis; will have to go to dr today. Yay. Having trouble sleeping which im sure isnt helping. Just passed a year, which i had anticipated as such an important marker yet i am finding myself instead depressed and anxious. Listless and dont feel much like doing anything except maybe crying. My party was a success and now i need to move forward w this fund, and i will, but right now just want to stay in bed for a week. Kids are acting out too in ways that may be normal for young twenty somethings but that, too, feels overwhelming. I feel like i dont want/need this kind of stress right now. Guess you dont get to choose.



Sorry to be such a downer especially w everyone off to great vacations. Really, have fun. Thanks for listening.



All the best, shari



Shari

Shari, Like you I could use a vacation.  A year ago now I was in the middle of radiation.  Some celebrate their "cancerversaries" but not me.  Oh, I remember the dates for each important step along this journey.  The mamo and biopsy to confirm the lump I found, the diagnosis, surgery, beginning and end of rads, beginning of tamoxifen after a short but horrible try at Al's.  Each of them depressed me.  This is a long and emotional journey.

I can't tell you how nice it is to read your posts. This is really the only place where I can let my hair down.



I am surrounded by well meaning friends and family, but I've had this attitude (maybe a dumb one) that I didn't want them to worry about me so I never complained. Tried to avoid the subject altogether. I didn't want to be pitied or hovered over so I felt if I looked and acted strong they would treat me normally. This worked in one way (no one got too alarmed, including my kids) but I'm now realizing, maybe not in another. Almost no one here knew I'd had BC. I hardly missed work (my office is in my house and my hrs are flexible, also have a great staff that knew what was going on and really rallied for me.) But I think part of it, lots actually, was that I didn't want to see myself as
that person w BC. I can say it was for everyone else, but it allowed me some denial, too.



And now I think this stoicism is coming back to bite me. I made an appt w a counselor I saw for a while after the mastectomy. I think she didn't think I was ready to 'graduate' back then, but I declared myself FINE and didn't go back. Crying so much today I think I'm getting dehydrated! And
crying about absolutely everything, even the weather! Can't even chalk it up to pms cause my ovaries are allegedly being suppressed. Hope she doesn't have me committed!



So thanks for all of your supportive posts. I love each and every one of them. Really feels good to hear from you. Of course, made me cry...happy to have you guys.



Thanks, shari