I say yes, you say no, OR People are Strange

Thanks Blue. It is good to have lots of good cyber-friends. And I am excited about meeting some of you soon.

ETA Thanks to you too Athena

Do you want as in your bag? I promise to keep my tail to myself. Otter and I are going to have to make some compromises.

I'll come along too ... if the lion will promise to be good ... or at least eat before the trip

(((hugs))) to apple.  Hope the icky feeling goes away soon! 

Sue,

I really like you, but we need to talk about zuchinni.

thanks for all of the support.  I left there really stressed today and ended up having a horrible ride on my horse - finally just got off of her because I couldn't get it together. 

I have been dealing with this issue for 2 years.  I don't have vaginal atrophy, I don't have problems with my cervix or uterus - all of that has been checked.

It took 45 days to see a gynocologist - never had one in my life as I never had kids so why do you need one?  My GP always did my pap smears.

So what I didn't know is that he would put his hands "there" and when he pushed against my bladder I thought I was going to hit the roof.  He referred me to a urologist as he said my bladder might be irritated.  Ok, I have had 3 UTI's my entire life - no problems with all of the other things associated with the bladder.

Yet, she pushed her finger against my bladder in the same spot and it hurt bad - feels like a knife going into you.  And you wonder why sex hurts so bad?

Being pushed into menopause via chemo - lack of estrogen all of a sudden, etc. does create problems with the bladder.  This procedure they are going to scope out my bladder, fill it with saline solution, dilate my uretha, etc.  She doesn't think I have bladder cancer but nor would she rule it out and said if she finds anything there she will remove it and send it to the lab but without putting a scope inside of me it would be hard to come up with a firm diagnosis.

On top of all of that - she said she thinks I might have a heart murmur.  She listened for a very long time and said that it is slight but then she isn't a cardiologist and I should have that checked out.

Ok....freak me out some more would you?

I don't know if ya'll know this story but I found out I had breast cancer because this 1500 lb horse kicked me on the left side of my chest and I flew back 15'.  My heart started doing all sorts of crazy stuff so I had someone drive me to the ER.  Ended up on morphine (first time ever ) and the EKG was fine at that time.  However, 2 weeks later my left nipple was very painful so I made an appt with a GP (45 days later) and he felt the lump in my breast while doing a physical.

At that time I had no GP because the only time I needed medical assistance was for broken bones and sinus infections and InstaCare can take care of all of that.  So the waiting began to get an appointment with a GP.  Then another 3 weeks to get a mammogram.

Oh yes.....I had tried to get a mammogram and they told me they couldn't do it if they had no doctor to send the report to so that is why I had to go find a GP.  That horse accident was in October and it took until December 30th before I could get a mammogram.

(((Jancie))) You know, on the stage I/II forum we had a discussion not long ago relating to studies finding that blunt for trauma to the breast may cause cancer to spread. It may be related to inflammation. I, too, felt my lump after bumping myslf on the right breast.

Otter and WR: I promise to fill up on prey. Otter, you can have all the fish you want.

So today we think of:

--Rosemary

--Jancie

--That's life has scans or had them recently, I believe.

Over the longer term:

--HL will find out whether she can have DIEP

--Hadley's formation will be identified. 

Anyone else?

Glad to see that this thread had a peaceful night's sleep.

'Evening, Susieq! 

(((((Barbara))))) I hope this is a better day for you. Bad jobs suck.



(((((Everyone who needs a hug)))))



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Congratulations, Barbara. Love conquers....a lot! 

I hear you Athena. Unfortunately, with the type of work I do, a new job would entail travel 75-90%. At my age, I just don't want to be away from home that much. I have been travelling for 25 years and loved it when I was younger but not now. Ugh. I am still looking for anything really, at this point. Maybe I will go back into accounting.

Night girls

I am certain that they will one day find a connection between stressful jobs and cancer. Everybody gets stressed for different reasons on the job. What can really, really do me in even more than a nasty boss (and I've had some of those) is boredom. But bad supervisors are terrible. I had one that lied on my review and said I hadn't done things which I had. I was able to prove it later, but the damage was done. It's awful to even admit that someone is out to get you, let alone have it happen.

Onc appt isn't until 1:45 so I will be useless at work. Another cause of stress is getting used to a new boss, but you guys make me feel better. My new boss is nowhere near as bad as you all have had.

You can jump in the bag now but you have to be quiet at work. I am getting of Femera Period. The onc may have another med to offer but I will only promise month to month. There is a list of at least 10 side effects I wrote for him.

And I had a MUGA scan. I am worried my heart function is worse even though I have more energy. Illogical I know but I am not a Vulcan.

Now I have to hurry and get ready for work or I will be late. 

I blame my cancer on the stress of living with my ex-husband, and surviving 23 years of marriage without choking him.  I do not look good in orange, so I saved myself by leaving.  I too am blessed with having found my true love after closing the door on that marriage.

My stress right now is from not having a job, and not being able to find one!

Rosemary, we will be quiet as church mice in your bag, as long as Athena doesn't decide she needs to snack.

Jancie,  hoping your bladder problems are just a temporary irritation from chemo.  Never had chemo, but over this last year, probably because of the stress of looking after my Dad, I kept having symptoms of UTI's.  Lots of spasms and discomfort, but put off going to the doctor because I just didn't have time to go.  When my discomfort forced me to go, no UTI, but hematuria, which is basically blood in the urine, unspecified cause.  Haven't had any followups, took two rounds of  pyridium which calmed everything down. (and no, no compensation from Big Pharma!)  I did have a friend who had to go in every couple of months for several years and get her urethra dilated.  I drove her a few times, and she said it wasn't a big deal, she would just be sleepy from the meds and go home to sleep and rest for the day. Rest, drink lots of fluids, limit your caffeine intake, and feel better soon.

Let sleeping lions lie. Shhhh..... don't worry Rosemary, we'll make sure she behaves.