For Older People with Sense

Apt yesterday was a big fat nothing as I anticipated.  He did not even look at my xray from the ortho doc until I asked Aren't you even going to look at it so he did,but he said there is not another xray to compare to and we will see more with the bone scan and can compare it to the last one.  Also I asked for tumor markers and hope I am not sorry.  Had  his feel this place that was like a pea when I first felt in right under rib cage back when the PA said it was a lipoma and he said it was not, but not to worry about it.....well, it is bigger and at lst he said No, I don't think it is and I said it IS so then he said well it is hard now ....it moves around when you shove on it....palpable? right....I think was was saying palatable, meaning good tasting...LOL....too many terms.   Anyway again he says we will see it in the scans.....lot riding on those things I tell you.  I am not losing hope, but I just sometimes get disgusted with this whole deal and think why bother going in to see the onco, I am just a 15 min patient visit.   And the bad thing is even though I can go get these scan reports, next week is my week off so I just get to read a report and as much as I want to know, I hate ruining my week.   I know positive thinking....I just want to be Ok so I can get my SS disability and enjoy it by traveling.....sort of an idiom there, huh.....want to be disabled so I can do things.  Ah well, thanks for caring....I will keep you posted.  Nuelast shot it on my lunch hour today Go in at 9:30 today for work....had a nice visit with my cousin's daughter and friend last night on their trip to NY....we went out to eat and then went to an old fashioned ice cream parlor.....looked at clock and thought OMG they are probably pooped having driven all day..  They just left and I packed them a nice lunch for the road....just like my grandmother used to do....some people turn into their mothers, I jumped right to grandma.   We had our pic taken in front of my Xmas tree which is staying put. 

Marybe, sorry you had such an unproductive Dr. visit.  I hate that kind of stuff.  And I know how you feel about ruining your week.  My time is so precious right now, and I'm sure your's is also.  I think sometimes doctors forget how they come across and just make random remarks that just produce more anxiety.  My husband's urologist just said "You have cancer" and walked out of the room!  No explanation or anything else.  He wins the prize for the worst bedside manner ever.  Love to you and you're in my thoughts on this journey.

Lynda (Dragon)

dragonfly.. i think your DH's dr wins the huge AHole award!!! it wasn;t much better with my bs; but wow!!!

   Marybe.. you know your on the daily prayer list.. bc does reverse our world, indeed.. we want disability so we can do... but; you deserve to travel; and go as long as you can.. forget the bc, mets., etc..  none of us getting any younger!!!

   my "big" trip will be to shell knob, also known as "mecca" if i can make it!don't need a passport for that one!!!

    Bettlebum/Rosario: i "flunked" all the rx ALs was on some supplements for awhile, now, nothing, till they straighten out the thyroid mess...   3jays

Oh Marybe!!! I wish I could be there to comfort you for what it's worth. You must be freaking out inside. That's a huge jump! Now, let me ask a dumb question. Some ladies are told that the markers go up as the DEAD cancer cells flood their system. Is that true, or is it bullshit!

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Oh, Marybe, thinking about you. I do not know how on earth you cope with what you are being dealt. I hope someone looks and listens now....what a numbers jump. Can you request an extra appointment to try and see what to do now ? Are you really going to try and stop working now...or does work take your mind off things ? I am slowly shedding off work that I know I cannot do properly nowadays....my job is for much younger people than me !

I've had a good day at market today. I was pleased with myself, as I got the highest price for the day £1350...$2180...I shall get my name in the local paper now!! I hate that they do this. I am a private person..but no-one listens !!!!!! I was quite upset to see my friend go, had to come away, couldn't watch someone else have her. Then I came home and sold a puppy,( which was promptly named Harper, after Victoria Beckhams new baby....doesn't take long for people to make fools of themselves ) so feel like I have won the lottery today !!! Oh, and another stroke of luck. My electric bill turned up today, and instead of the £400....$644, I was expecting I got £30 credit.....$48. HOW on earth this has happened I do not know, but I am sure as h*ll not querying it !! My electric always runs pretty high, it can be twice/ three times as much in winter....I haven't really tried to cut down anywhere, I always feel I have to have light, hot water, and the odd heater... oh..... and about 30 heat lamps in my kennels. I do charge people a small amount in winter, for their dogs heat, but half of the heat lamps are over my own dogs and puppies !!  Really could do with a big windmill outside my house, together with a well, as my water bills are worse than the electricity bills, they can run at around $2,000 4 times a year..but then there are lots of sheep and cattle drinking, beside my manic washing machines.

I'm off to bed now, totally wiped out by an early start. I was up at 6.30, and I don't normally get out of bed until 9am. My walking is about done for the day, my legs feel as if they don't belong to me, and my spine is screaming for a long, hot shower, and a nice comfortable bed.

Isabella.

Barbe - the numbers do not go up because of dead cancer cells. That is B^!!SH!&.

Marybe - Wow what a jump in numbers.  Sending lots of {{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}} and continuing with the prayers.  Your dr is an idiot and that is putting it mildly.  I would be all over him like white on rice until I got the information I needed.   ----- For the purpose of the SSDI your disability began on the day of your Stage IV diagnosis.  That may have been years ago, but that is the date you should use.  They will want to know the history of treatment since then and what the treatment is now.  The may ask for a lot of paper work to show all of this.  Just take it one step at a time and everything should go fine.  I had no problem getting approved the first time.  It took about a month for me to start getting my checks once the approval was made.  Go ahead and retire once you get the approval and start doing all the things you want to do.  If you need a traveling buddy, just call and maybe we can work something out.  Take care my dear friend. 

Amyjo, thanks for being honest about the dead cancer cell theory. I honestly didn't know. I guess I was kind of hoping it was true for Marybe's sake....sigh.

Thinking of you today Marybe as your mind sorts all the options and tries to come to a answer. It probably won't be a single answer, there will probably be plans B and C as well. Did you talk to the dentist last night after work about working part time?

New thread on social security questions answered by a lawyer whose wife has BC. Knows his stuff------posting on a bunch of threads---------go to financial forum

 Can't make link work without trouble, not up for it.

I can't wait AJ!! Looks like we are in for a thunderstorm. Sky is black. And I was going to go to the pool.  Well, it is the rainy season and they go away pretty quick. Tonight will be an HGTV night with no wrestling for the remote changer. DH is working.

Well, I've been reading and keeping up with you guys here but not posting (still can't figure out why, it just is).

And the good news is - I have a new granddaughter! Her name is Michal and she was born at 2AM Fri night/Sat morning.

Grandchildren are THE BEST.

Leah

Congratulations, Leah!!

Kathy