Nervous Wreck

Prayers and lots of good juju Nancy for your surgery Thursday Please keep us posted when you get a chance. Xoxo</p>

Nancy, I will keep you in my prayers. I hope the new surgery speeds recovery for you. It has been a long hall for you.

Hi Nancy,  It's good to hear from you.  That's really great news that you are healing and the surgeons have said you are on your way.  Physical healing really helps with the emotional healing, too, so as you get stronger, you can find ways to cope better.  After the chemo and surgeries is kind of a void.  We aren't who we were and we aren't someone else either.  I felt like I'd been through a war and nothing was the same anymore.  Talking to someone now is a healthy move.  We are still with you.  Hugs, G.

Nancy, I completely understand what you're feeling. I've just finished rads on 4/6 and up to that point, my life has been about BC surgery, chemo, rads, drs appts, biopsies, MRIS, ct scans, zoladex injections, etc etc etc etc...... Since July of 2010. Now I'm on tamox and just found out yesterday that I'm a poor metabolizer. So now I'll be adding hyster/ooph to my list for October when I have my DIEP recon. Now that I'm technically "out of active tx" it's so scary. I don't know what to do with myself. Im scared all the time, I'm physically exhausted and most of all mentally exhausted. Some days I just don't even feel like I have the energy to get out of bed. The only thing that forces me to is my 3 kids. Thank God for them . BUT, I will say that I've made a conscious decision to not let BC rule my entire life more than it already does. I am going to stop sweating the small stuff, only do things that I truly enjoy and just live whatever life I have left to the fullest. Nobody knows what the future holds for any of us. And I just refuse to let it rule my life. That's what helping me get out of bed everyday and take care of my children I think talking to someone might be really good for you. Sometimes it takes a third, non partial, not emotionally invested person to give us some perspective and make things make sense for us Good luck to you love and remember we are all here for you. You're in my thoughts and prayers Xoxoxo

Nancy, just wanted to say Hi and tell you that I am still praying for you.  You have a great group of ladies supporting you here in this thread.  They are compassionate, sensible and oh so, REAL.  I thank God for this site and the people that support one another in the struggle.

It is good that they were able to do the revision on that skin area! Lat Flap is hard anyway without any healing issues or pathology woes. Hopefully the physical healing will speed up and you will start to feel better emotionally.  I think seeing a therapist is a good idea.  You have been through a lot and talking to someone without feeling as if you have to temper your words or reactions would be good.  Family loves you and supports you, but it is hard on them as well.  You can't always say what you want around them and it may feel like you are letting them down if you let your emotions all hang out.  But, I think there is a need to let it out! 

The Illinois sister who yells and screams if it makes me feel better........

Nancy,  So glad to hear that you are beginning to get back to your routine a bit.  No medical appointments for an entire week is definitely a milestone.  Glad you were able to enjoy your family on Mother's Day,  Sherri's insights are great.

Nancy, I'm so glad you're finally feeling better. Having the hair starting to grow is such a boost to the healing process.

well its now July1, 2011, i may have missed your posting.  I'd really like to know how you are. debi

We will be thinking of you.  Only this last surgery.  That's good news.  Hugs, G.