Just finished

kathyob -- I had the same emotions.  I guess I'd had this place to go where I liked the staff and the other patients who were there for the same reason.  I knew that every week I would also check in with my rad onc - I felt protected and supported.  On the other hand, I was so damn fatigued, I couldn't even whine   Fatigued is different than tired, it is a tired that you don't recover from after a good nights sleep.  Good news is that it only lasted a few weeks at the end.  I am just 90 days from done and can say my energy, etc. is normal.  Now, as for those nasty pills.....

I finished on May 18. (hurrah). On my "exit interview" with my RO he mentioned that patients often feel a lull after Tx is over. (he didn't use the word lull, I forget how he described it, but definitely some emotional sense of loss). His advice is to try to resume your old routine and make an effort to get back to normal as soon as possible. I'm not saying this well, but he did talk about this for quite awhile. (and of course, it's easier said than done). Just an FYI that's it seems common enough for my RO to bring it up. FWIW, my energy level is still up and down.  I'm definitely feeling better, but I have one good day (decent energy) followed by a low-energy day. It can be discouraging  but I know I"m on the right path (and I notice my body responds better when I pack it with healthy food)

I'm only halfway done, but expect I'll feel a bit lost once this daily routine and weekly doctor check is over. This post-treatment letdown is also mentioned in Dr. Susan Love's Breast Book as being common.

So, we have yet another struggle ahead. The challenge to get back to "normal" when "normal" has changed dramatically.  

Hello everyone - I am almost halfway through my treatments but wondered how many of you guys had the bone scan after your treatments? My nurse who is an angel said it is SOP. I am terrified that they will find mets in the bones. I asked her if you could tell like what would the symptoms be and she said unless you have a hip that keeps hurting and gets worse there are no symptoms. Just another frightening hurdle to deal with followed by my first mammogram since the diagnosis. I know we all will be living with the C word for the rest of our lives so better get used to the anxiety. She also told me 95% of the women she has seen recovered and are fine and I should feel less anxious because my cancer was caught early, its early stage cancer, non aggressive and small tumors. I try to be more optimistic and do feel blessed but cant get passed the fear factor. diane