Crying

I too cant stop crying very depressed hav'nt had surgery yet was diagnosed 6 weeks ago biopsy says grade 3 invasive breast cancer.Surgery is june 3rd I have never been this down in my life.

   At first I didnt cry. I was in shock. I thought I was being brave. I thought that since my great-aunt, mom, first cousin, had BC, and all survived, I could ignore the impact BC had on me.  My mom passed from something entirely different. So, I wasnt going to let myself feel this. I was in total denial.

The waiting for each thing was breaking me down.  But I still kept strong, went through my biopsy thinking"no big deal". I went through my lumpectomy..."something that you just had to do"..and more waitin for pathology, oncology, geno testing report, BRACA report, MRI report, Pet scan, Bone density scan.  I was mentally scanned out, and still didnt cry.  They saw "something" on my MRI, and since I have IDC, finally made my decision to have  my uniMX. Still I didnt cry. 

When I was given my script for Arimidex...I broke down. For some reason..that's what made it all real for me, and when I was able to finally release. I cried for days. I cried because I couldnt talk to my mother about it. I cried constantly. And then...I just stopped.  I began to realize that I walked through all this and am OK. I am really OK, and will just have to walk through the door of my next step. And I have this board to rely on and give me confidence. 

. Tell your MD that your depressed and you'll be able to get something that will help ease your feelings.   I too am sending you hugs and love. As suggested, take deep breaths, you're going to get through this.  And that's what we're here for.