I'M SCARED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help !!

Dear Steph

My mother had swolen lymph node for more than 20 years and it was nothing. Be positive and don't give up. I think it's common to think like what you do but with time passes by you'll feel more comfortable and won't panick everyrtime that something unusual happen to you. The best you can do is inspire yourself and wait until your examine. I truley wish that you'll come back and write to us and inspire us with your great GOOD news. We are here with you

Stephanie,

I'm right there with you. My last chemo the onc did an exam and found an enlarged node on my MX side.  I am schedfuled for an US and possible biopsy. She doesn't feel its anything to worry about since I am still doing chemo but wants to be sure. So for now I am taking a deep breathe. You are not in this alone. I am sure many others out there have had the same thing. Prayers and hugs going your way, joann

steph

you want them to check this out....even tho it is so stressful. you can have a swollen node for a number of reasons.  it isn't always cancer....it can be something else.

the first few years after cancer and cancer treatment...our bodies are still vunerable and healing. i had so many "false scares" a few years after cancer.....ended up they checked EVERYTHING  out. i had at least two biopsies after my cancer...all B9.  you will be watched very carefully for a number of years....it is what they do. 

try to hang in there. go through the testing...hang in there.  don't get soo far ahead of yourelf; into the "what ifs"  i know, easier said then done.... i am sending cyber hugs and good wishes.

prayers*

Hey Steph, just wanted to chime in. The waiting room SUCKS big time. I went through something very similar and was totally freaking out. And yes, they felt it because I had lost weight. They did an ultrasound and biopsy and it was nothing. So, sending prayers and good wishes. Let us know.

Hi Stef!

Just reading htis and glad you are feeling comfort form the posts. Let me add that a node that looks normal on US is a good thing. Your doc wants to check out your loss of weight  , which is erfectly normal thing to do. It does not equate with moving upo a stage.

Newlies always suffer from post traumatic syndrome. We have all been there thinking something that pops up is a " Baddie " in the early days. It does get better with time, I really relate any sxs to my BC now, but back in the day I was a basket case.

Try to relax. I'll say a prayer for you , but I don't think you need it.

Jen, same goes for you a  tiny spot on the liver could be anything and MOST likely not mets.

Take care!

Thanks Linda, I try not to think about it b/c it gets me down and it doesn't help when I have a pain on my right side, my mind automatically goes to the "dark side". 

I agree with you Steph...I thank God for my sister's, I think I log onto BC.org more than Facebook   I"m the same way about my house and kids and getting stuff prepared, I think that's a woman thing.  I'm tired too, scheduled my ooph and I don't want to do it, not that I'm scared, just sick of all this.  And you mentioned control, learning I'm not in control was one of the hardest things to get use to...here I thought I was driving this train and I realized I've been in the cabose this whole time.  Stay strong, don't let it win.

Just wanted to send hugs and prayers your way.

good news*

just keep plugging along....it will get easier as time passes.  you are doing fine. remember that.  this is part of the walk; especially early on for many of us.

i am happy for you that everything was B9*

hugs

diana

Great news! Congrats!

That truly is very good news!!!!!!!

Love n hugs.  Chrissy

Hi Stef,

Great news! I understand about the weight loss. I struggled with this when I was new to all this.

The fear of recurrence can keep you locked in a state of anxiety, which is not good. Perhaps an antianxiety med would help get you back on track.( along with some realxing techniques)  It worked for me!

Take care and enjoy your good news.