Thinking I ought to be more depressed

AnneWisc · May 2011

Just had lumpectomy last week for DCIS, a bit of pain, not too bad, working half-time ... I think I should be more depressed than I am?

Maybe the fact that I am already disabled and disfigured (myelomalacia in thoracic spine secondary to spinal dural AVF, cannot walk without assistive device) means I'm accustomed to dealing with the system and big health issues. So one more medical loss is no biggie. Up till now I've always said I get things that make life miserable but you don't die from ... and said I'd get more support if I had cancer!

But I'm wondering if I'm in denial and when the reality finally hits, I'll be in HUGE depression. Yeah, you heard me, I'm anxious about not being depressed enough!

J9W · May 2011

AnneWisc, give it time....the depression will show up sooner or later. Seriously, I kind of think that becuase you're already dealing with issues it might not be as bad for you. For instance, there are some ladies here who have a real hard time with their scars - not me - but then again, I have scars all over already so one more where my breast used to be didn't add any anxiety to my life. Now, had this been my first major one it might have made a huge impact on me. J9

juliet62 · May 2011

for me it comes and goes, trying now to make sure have regular treats! first major illness for me, i think some of it is the diagnosis never goes away , they say dcis is basically cureable but all the forms say breast cancer!

AnneWisc · May 2011

Thank you for answering, J9W and Juliet62. Yes, I feel fortunate that I had already come to terms with loss of youthful appearance and vigor before this hit. And I feel unbelievably fortunate to have a supportive husband.

Thinking I ought to be more depressed

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