i am a sculptor asking for help

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mejane1959
mejane1959 Member Posts: 1
would anyone be interested in helping me with a sculpture project? i am asking for a sentence a paragraph on the inner thoughts that go on when either diaganosed or in treatment? these word and or paragraphs will be part of the installation of the sculputre. if you would like further info about me or my project email me at mejane1959@yahoo.com

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  • Catherine
    Catherine Member Posts: 305
    edited October 2004

    When I was diagnosed with cancer I was shocked. Even though there is a strong history in my family, I never thought it could happen to me. Fortunately it was caught early, thanks to a mammogram and I am very thankful for that.

  • gcpommom
    gcpommom Member Posts: 883
    edited October 2004

    When I went through radiation treatment, I guess the overwhelming feeling I experienced was this: How can I be surrounded by so many people who care, yet still feel so alone? As I lay on the radiation table every day, alone, watching that huge machine circle my body, I watched it intensely with both curiosity and fear...not that I was afraid of the machine itself, but that I had to face it alone, each and every weekday, 33 times. And still, alone, I feared the worst...what if it comes back anyway? What if this big, powerful machine just can't defeat it? I cried almost everyday, as I drove to the treatment center alone, as I faced that machine alone, as I drove home alone. I couldn't help it...the tears would just overtake me...and I never cry, as a rule. But that feeling of loneliness...It really sucked.

  • gcpommom
    gcpommom Member Posts: 883
    edited October 2004
    But I feel better now
  • nixi
    nixi Member Posts: 27
    edited October 2004
    Hi,
    I'm just curious, what are you sculpting?
    LeeLee
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited November 2004

    one word for when i was diagnosed-'WHAT??????!!!!"

  • sams_mom
    sams_mom Member Posts: 17
    edited November 2004
    When I was newly diagnosed I was angry, depressed and scared of the uncertainty that was ahead of me.

    During treatment, I was just going through the motions, mustering up every once of energy to just get through each day, living day to day, not really thinking about the future.

    What are you sculpting?
  • SoapMaker
    SoapMaker Member Posts: 157
    edited January 2005

    As I lay on the rads table, during simulation, and surrounded by so many big machines, tears streamed down my face and I lay, silently thinking, "How did I ever get here"? I had always been so healthy. It was a profound sadness.

  • BethNY
    BethNY Member Posts: 2,710
    edited March 2008
    This is my life. This is my life.This is my life.
    It just keeps repeating over and over again in my head like a broken record. Sometimes it sounds like a question. This is my life? It can't be. I just turned 27 for Christ's sake. And other times it sounds like an affirmation. THIS, is my life-- and I feel some sort of inner peace, even though I am filled with internal chaos.
  • bobbiek99
    bobbiek99 Member Posts: 1
    edited August 2005

    Just found out my breast cancer 4 yrs ago is now in the liver, I am waiting for doctors say, although I have been told no surgery, havent been told why yet? I am not sure about your sculpture, but today, another day until the 5 days whem I see the doctor all I can think, am I going to the electric chair or just going to jail. I hope I can change this attitude after my total diagnosis.

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited August 2005
    When I was first dx all I could think of was:

    I hope this is a pardon and not a death sentence.
  • denisa
    denisa Member Posts: 160
    edited January 2022
    what is the sculpture project about?

    denisa
  • SunshineSmiles
    SunshineSmiles Member Posts: 769
    edited November 2005

    My recurring thought- "Where is the cure?"

  • KariLynn
    KariLynn Member Posts: 1,079
    edited November 2005

    My thought was "How can I feel so healthy and be so sick?" Was a disconnect (might still be!) between the truth and how I felt.

  • radiant
    radiant Member Posts: 464
    edited November 2005
    My recurring thought is:

    How do I wrap my brain around this diagnosis?
  • Pegrelu
    Pegrelu Member Posts: 1
    edited November 2005

    The only thing that stayed in my mind was, "I Trust Him". My daughter didn't understand why I seemed to be takeing it better than everyone else. I didn't cry, or worry, or get angry. It was like, I knew before the doctors had to tell me but, I wasn't afraid. That was all I could feel or say to anyone, "I Trust Him." I have to admit, that I have my times now where I'm feeling it but, I keep telling myself not to dwell on it. I am Blessed. By the way, I am a Sculptor too. I'm grateful that even though I can't go back to work with the real horses, I can still Sculpt them and it has been wonderful therapy for me. Just a little slower these days.

  • b445
    b445 Member Posts: 1,325
    edited November 2005
    My unborn granddaughter told me, "get your Mam done now, Don't wait till your normal time, it'll be to late then". I never felt a thing and neither did 5 Dr's. But sure enough I was diagonosed 4 days later with IDC, Grade 3, HR-. They only good thing was it was small and caught early.
    My thoughts? How do I tell my unborn granddaughthers Mother? It was harder to tell her than to tell my husband or the rest of my family. Trust your feelings and have FAITH, that God has a plan for each and every one of us. My having cancer is not a Death sentence to me but a time for my family to step up and be the strong ones for me to lean on.
    All the cancer was removed during surgery, but now I face the decission of Chemo or No Chemo? What ever will I do? I'm not sure yet. Guess I'll have to pray and trust in God to show me the answer. But what ever I do I always remind every women I know to get checked regularly. Early Detection really does save lives!
    My your God be with you and your family every step of the way. Remeber people count on you too!

    good luck with the sculptor I'm sure it will be fabulous
  • abarges
    abarges Member Posts: 2
    edited December 2005

    My first thought was, Are you friggin' kidding me? I am 30 years old and I felt robbed! Then I quit the self pity stuff and decided, BRING IT ON!!! I was not going down without a fight. I needed to be strong for my husband, my parents, family, friends, and I needed to kick cancer butt. I learned many lessons from bc and the number one thing is to really live like you are dying and dying was not happening anytime soon!

  • christineK
    christineK Member Posts: 1,265
    edited December 2005

    My first thought was to get as educated on the subject as I could. Then I just thought, I would be fine, because if I didn't survive this, I wouldn't know the difference, but felt bad for those I might leave behind. Then I thought I am not leaving anyone behind, I don't want to miss a thing and know see and appreciate things better and more clearly.

  • mjamgb22
    mjamgb22 Member Posts: 2
    edited December 2005

    My first thought was "I have small children that need me"

  • Suer
    Suer Member Posts: 3
    edited January 2006

    New Years eve 2004, I'm sitting in my car at the park eating a sandwich. My ARNP calls and tells me my biopsy was positive. My first thought was OK Julanna, you've scared me, now you're going to tell me it's benign, but we have to watch it. But no, she said it's invasive ductal carcinoma, I've made an appointment for you with the surgeon. I just sat there in shock for 10 minutes. I didn't tell anyone about it until I saw the surgeon which was five days later.

  • Daffy
    Daffy Member Posts: 2
    edited January 2006

    My first words to my husband when the DR called at 7am with the bad news..."So little time but so much to do.."

  • Fitztwins
    Fitztwins Member Posts: 7,969
    edited October 2006
    My first thought...

    "I don't want to leave my boys with out a mother, then F*C&"
  • tam1953
    tam1953 Member Posts: 237
    edited February 2007

    The thought and word that keeps going through my mind is "NO" It's weird. Almost like I'm passing up dessert or something. What do I think? That it's optional? Such a bizarre thought.

  • Sandra1957
    Sandra1957 Member Posts: 1,701
    edited February 2007

    Two things - First, "How will I tell my family?", and then "What the F*C& happened here?"

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