Bottle 'o Tamoxifen

haha love it! I feel like that too.

June, thanks yes, I am feeling a bit better. I was having some bad days there. Definitley in a FUNK. Hate that. I am going through some weird feelings lately though...angry, frustrated with people and things. Not sure what is my deal with that. Just part of this process I guess. Back on the T and not heard from my dr's office yet.....not happy about that. Guess I will call them and see if I can get them to call me back.
Next time we head up that way I would love to meet up with you. That is cool it is so close. Not sure when that will be though...probably not anytime soon unfortunately. I am not sure I could do the Vegas trip either moneywise, and don't really want to fly by myself. My kids are older so I don't feel as guilty. But I understand that!! It would be fun to pick a spot and just do something low key for a few days to meet everyone.

Hope you are all having a wonderful day....bright and sunny here today...but a little chilly. 

Let me know if and when you guys want to get together in the DC area! The Tamox. is going ok, so far (I say in a whisper) LOL! Just some constipation which I fix with my coffee/Miralax cocktail Going on 3 weeks and that's the only SE so far. I feel very lucky so far. I am also on Effexor and I really think that helps with mood!

Viki

I am feeling the same way June, Tink and Deb~  Forced myself up and about today.  Achey all over, tired, headache and freezing.  Our weather is still too cold for my liking and the sun doesn't shine for more than a few minutes it seems.  I ran a 5K on Saturday and my legs are killing me.  Today I would say I feel like I have the flu and I just may go crawl in bed when my hubby gets home. 

JO ~ so glad you are feeling good.  Thank you for that yummy looking lunch ~  It is just what I needed. 

Healing warm hugs girls...

Alicia

Oh ladies...might also be partially due to daylight savings if you folks changed your clocks like we did...losing an hour of sleep when we are already sleep-deprived...not good!

talked to the pharmacist today about the 10mgs tamoxifen instead of the 20..silly me...here I was trying to cut the damn things in half and getting powder everywhere and uneven peces and all I had to do was snap it in two!...seriously! But she said the 10mgs is the exact same brand so I will stick with the new presciption starting this week...the idea of potentially having to get used to a different company and therefore potentially different binders etc. just about did me in tonight!

June, Deb, and ECG. Hope u ladies get to feeling better

Alicia 5k wow I am impressed, running is really hard for me.

At the pharmacy waiting on DH meds so I can check in on u ladies

Chocolate and caramel, my weaknesses.

Jo you always know how to make us ladies feel!!!  Scrumptious!

Alicia good for you gal!  I wish I could do something like that! 

Sandeeonherown you know I would like to blame the 1 hour change, but it seems like lately I am on and off feeling like this.....I HATE IT!!!!

Sherri- I don't know how you did what you did last week when your father did not hear the Oncologist and you had to repeat it .  My dad started telling me that he has to tell us kids that his time is dwindling he just doesn't have it in him anymore to hold on.....he said he wanted us all to know......I teared up and could not even look at him.  How does one do that?  I am shaking just typing this.....my heart aches for him........he has been my everything.   We all knew this when they diagnosed him as they said it could be anywhere from 2 months to 1-2 years, but he deteriorated so quickly.  I come from a very large family of 7 brothers and 1 sister.  He said he is going to start talking to the whole clan......I know I need to be strong for him and not well up, but I couldn't help it and then he had to change the subject because I am his baby gal and he saw that I couldn't even look at him and nor could he.......I am the youngest of them all......LIFE SUCKS!!!!!  Just when I feel so down and shitty I get this on top of it. Sorry to vent, I just don't know how you did it........and on top of it my mother is going downhill as well and she is in a nursing home with Alhzheimer's and her time is limited......maybe we can be there for each other.....so so very hard!

June and Sherri - My heart goes out to both of you. Both of my parents died many years ago.My last conversation with each of them involved their readiness to welcome death and their expectation that it would be soon.  Dad was gone in three days, Mom the next afternoon.  Although we lost them 11 years apart it us uncanny how similar those conversations were.  And oh so painful, yet so very special.

June - Oh Sweetie!  My heart goes out to you.  I was not able to be with my mom when she died of pancreatic cancer.  I was not able to get to Calif later.  My father was without her for 6 years and really missed her.  He had numerous health issues and I think the last time he was in the hospital he just gave up.  He passed in his sleep so at least he did not suffer.

You and  Sherry are very strong women but you don't have to be all the time.  Give yourself time to let those feelings out even if it is here with us.  We will take care of you.

I agree Tink.And sometimes some just decide it is time and will themselves to die.  My Grandmother did that when I was 12. We were visiting her for a couple weeks when one night at bedtime she told Mom she was going to have "one last cup of coffee".  I was supposed to be asleep on the couch.  As she was going to bed she stopped, said a prayer for me and said goodbye.  The next morning when I took her her coffee I found she had died peacefully in her sleep. 

Awww Sherry and June I am so sorry you have to deal with all that..this time is hard enough for us..and to have to pull yourself up to be strong for others is tough. Hang in there, we are here anytime you need a shoulder or to vent.

ECG I think a lot of us have also had issues with very low tolerance for others. I don't think its the T I think it's the BC. That's whats good about coming here and venting away...no one really understands what we've been through except us. I wish I wasnt so busy with work tht I could catch up more but this train is MOVIN'!.

Jo I love your sparkling TINKS! So cute!

Have a good night everyone...

Diane 

Linda... I was high risk too... and worried about side effects too... just want to say - now having a MX, chemo and rads - I wish I had the chance to go back and take Tam preventatively... too late for me - not too late for you.  My side effects are really doable - worth every BC cell the stuff kills.

Linda M, don't be scared of tamoxifen, not everyone has side effects. I had some for the first couple weeks but now I have adjusted and I have none whatsoever.

Linda - I would think that the side effects of tamoxifen as a preventative before diagnosis would be different in intensity if not kind from those the rest of us get.  Remember that for us tammy starts when our bodies are already debilitated by the cancer and the other treatments we have had.  The surgery, the chemo and/or the radiation.  My most difficult SE has been fatigue which started in radiation.  Then tammy caused sleep problems. After 5 months on tammy I am sleeping almost normally and getting my energy and stamina back.